For Tj, Endless Grieving Options

[Lisa...NOAH'...]

Well...It's been 18 days without my best friensd "TJ" and I feel like I am in a bottomless pit that I can't get out of. I thought I was doing better but I guess I've been so pre-occupied with my sons surgery...that I just thought I was going to be ok. Boy, was I wrong. The grief hit me like a ton of bricks today! I wish I could just sleep all day so I didn't have to go through it. Everywhere I look I can still see his little face. He had such a sweet personality...we knew each others wants and thoughts just by looking at each other. My husband never could understand how I exactly knew what TJ wanted without saying a word. Every night when I lie on the couch to watch TV...I swear I can still feel him walking from the bottom of my feet to my stomach to cuddle with me...but there's no one to hold anymore. I know I was so lucky to have him for 22 years...that was half of my life...how can I go the next half of my life without him. I just want to give up. I can't go through the rest of my life feeling so miserable.

Lisa...NOAH'S ARK