Animal Communicators, The Guilt Goes On Options

[Furkidlets' Mom]

It's been awhile since I've posted again, and many of you don't know me very well anyway yet, but I had to write again, of my fears, disappointment and unrelieved guilt.

Yesterday I read the posts on ADC's here and was so touched and relieved to find some really wonderful signs from other kidlets who'd passed. My own furboy (Sabin, a cat) has, I'm still convinced, sent me some remarkable ones over the 5 long years since his own transition back to spirit and they've served to increase my faith that there's continuing life. He was also the being responsible for showing me time after time that telepathy, and the concept of our existence not being dependant on a body, was real and not just a pipe dream. However, his dying was, near the end, hard and traumatic-looking, and for many reasons I won't go into yet here, I let him go on his own....and have suffered mightily for my decisions all these years. Bottm line....I can't ever take it back and do it over, so the guilt has been hanging on, unresolved.

I'd had 2 communications done through 2 different animal communicators after he passed and while both said there's nothing TO forgive, one included the statement,"This cat says he didn't like the way he died." While this could be interpreted in different ways, at the time, I was so traumatized I didn't pursue it far enough to get more answers. I was FAR too upset. So, over 5 yrs later, I decided to try another one to see if I could put this to rest. (the communicator I trust the most is, unfortunately, out of commission this year with an injury) While this new one gave me long descriptions of thoughts, feelings and events, I still wasn't convinced she was getting it all right, even though is did sound alot like MY guy coming through. At the end of the session, he asked if he could come to me in a dream last night, to further communicate with me. Well, YAH!!!, of COURSE!! My husband took extra measures for me, so as not to disturb my early morning dreams (I always have them, and most often remember these ones).....but although I was dreaming, I don't remember ANYTHING about my boy being in any of them. My spirit is absolutely CRUSHED. I had thought this would be confirmation that the communication was, indeed, real, even if I'd had doubts. While I'd felt a little relief, (based on the answers, yesterday) today I'm right back into the burden of guilt, feeling totally miserable again, and even worse after having spent money on something that has only made things more difficult. If that was my 'Boo-Boo' ( one of dozens of nicknames), I can't believe he would have failed me like this.

I've always believed in communicators' abilities, as these metaphysical things have even happened to me in smaller ways, but finding one you can really trust is a battle and some of them charge such high prices. Unless you have a strong recommendation from someone you know, it's very hard to decide if the price will be worth it. That aside, I'm just feeling SO BAD now, I can hardly think of the words to describe it...and that's not like me at all! I waited all these years, to see if I could resolve this guilt another way, and now I feel duped on top of it. Why didn't he COME to me?!?! Am I meant to feel this way forever because I DID do so wrong by him? It's the worst guilt I've ever felt about anything, anyone, in my entire life, and of course it leads to feelings of self-hate, which is not good for anyone. This was my big chance and I truly thought if I was meant to stop suffering, Sabin would find a way to make that happen! That's how much I believed in, at least HIS abilities. Now it feels more like a sign that he, too, thinks I should continue to suffer, for what I didn't do for him. Welcome back to this heck we call earth.

[SJ J & S]

As hard as it may be you have to forgive yourself for the healing to begin.

I have been there the unbearable guilt is overwhelming and each day you add something else to put on the list of punishment.

I too looked to spiritualism, I didn’t just look for someone else to connect for me but took the steps to communicate myself. Now 2 ½ years later I have had as many signs as most people here but nothing concrete.

Then one day I realised that I didn’t want to peak around the corner to make sure they were ok, I wanted them back or to be with them ( I don’t mean kill myself I guess I mean communicate directly with them)

I was sure this was the answer but still to this day I try too hard, and until I relax and let happen what will happen nothing will happen.

In my communications with other spiritual people the saying is ‘expect nothing everything else is a bonus’

I don’t know how to advise you to go about forgiving yourself but you could start with every time you put yourself down just say ‘I forgive myself as Sabin has’

Sabin may have needed to experience death the way he did in order to progress in his spiritual journey and on some deep level you agreed to help him.

We none of us know for sure, but just believe that everything is how it should be.

Love Sue