Animal Communicators, The Guilt Goes On Options

[Furkidlets' Mom]

It's been awhile since I've posted again, and many of you don't know me very well anyway yet, but I had to write again, of my fears, disappointment and unrelieved guilt.

Yesterday I read the posts on ADC's here and was so touched and relieved to find some really wonderful signs from other kidlets who'd passed. My own furboy (Sabin, a cat) has, I'm still convinced, sent me some remarkable ones over the 5 long years since his own transition back to spirit and they've served to increase my faith that there's continuing life. He was also the being responsible for showing me time after time that telepathy, and the concept of our existence not being dependant on a body, was real and not just a pipe dream. However, his dying was, near the end, hard and traumatic-looking, and for many reasons I won't go into yet here, I let him go on his own....and have suffered mightily for my decisions all these years. Bottm line....I can't ever take it back and do it over, so the guilt has been hanging on, unresolved.

I'd had 2 communications done through 2 different animal communicators after he passed and while both said there's nothing TO forgive, one included the statement,"This cat says he didn't like the way he died." While this could be interpreted in different ways, at the time, I was so traumatized I didn't pursue it far enough to get more answers. I was FAR too upset. So, over 5 yrs later, I decided to try another one to see if I could put this to rest. (the communicator I trust the most is, unfortunately, out of commission this year with an injury) While this new one gave me long descriptions of thoughts, feelings and events, I still wasn't convinced she was getting it all right, even though is did sound alot like MY guy coming through. At the end of the session, he asked if he could come to me in a dream last night, to further communicate with me. Well, YAH!!!, of COURSE!! My husband took extra measures for me, so as not to disturb my early morning dreams (I always have them, and most often remember these ones).....but although I was dreaming, I don't remember ANYTHING about my boy being in any of them. My spirit is absolutely CRUSHED. I had thought this would be confirmation that the communication was, indeed, real, even if I'd had doubts. While I'd felt a little relief, (based on the answers, yesterday) today I'm right back into the burden of guilt, feeling totally miserable again, and even worse after having spent money on something that has only made things more difficult. If that was my 'Boo-Boo' ( one of dozens of nicknames), I can't believe he would have failed me like this.

I've always believed in communicators' abilities, as these metaphysical things have even happened to me in smaller ways, but finding one you can really trust is a battle and some of them charge such high prices. Unless you have a strong recommendation from someone you know, it's very hard to decide if the price will be worth it. That aside, I'm just feeling SO BAD now, I can hardly think of the words to describe it...and that's not like me at all! I waited all these years, to see if I could resolve this guilt another way, and now I feel duped on top of it. Why didn't he COME to me?!?! Am I meant to feel this way forever because I DID do so wrong by him? It's the worst guilt I've ever felt about anything, anyone, in my entire life, and of course it leads to feelings of self-hate, which is not good for anyone. This was my big chance and I truly thought if I was meant to stop suffering, Sabin would find a way to make that happen! That's how much I believed in, at least HIS abilities. Now it feels more like a sign that he, too, thinks I should continue to suffer, for what I didn't do for him. Welcome back to this heck we call earth.

[Patti]

I was going to send this as a private message but decided to post it instead.

I've had a lot of experience with animal communicators over the past five years and found one near Chicago who is very good and doesn't cost an arm and a leg. She studied under Penelope Smith. I've read the books and taken the classes and can do it to a certain degree, but I like to use a pro for the really big problems or questions.

Anyone who would tell a client, "This cat says he didn't like the way he died" is out of line and the fact that you lived with it for five years shows how powerful and negative the words really were. I've also never heard of an animal holding a grudge or willfully hurting his/her person from beyond the grave. (If they were love personified in life, why would they become vindictive and evil in the spirit world?)

The website for the International Alliance for Animal Therapy and Healing states the following:

"A good animal communicator will not ask you for much information besides the animal's name, species and perhaps where it lives. They will want to know if there are any specific questions you want to know about the animal. The "name" of the animal acts as a "tag" or "locator" for the animal consciousness. This process can be done in person or at a distance, as consciousness is not restricted to time and space. The information received from the animal communicator about the animal may come in the form of 'clairvoyant' (pictures), clair-audio (words), or clair-sentient (feelings) depending upon the communicator's expertise and ability. Good animal communicators should be able to interpret information and feelings in more than one way and information should be able to be validated."

Speaking with an animal in spirit (i.e., one that has passed) is different than speaking with one who still has a physical body. I've yet to have a professional communication with my Neko, but it's my understanding that you (the parent) have to be in contemplation, meditation, prayer for 15-20 minutes before the communication with spirit is started. Not all communicators do this type of work either. There's also the hypothetical problem to be faced in waiting too long to communicate because the animal you knew and loved as "Joe" reincarnated and is now known as "Cindy."

I empathize with your desire for closure, but I think you're being way too hard on yourself. You're looking for answers in black and white and you're beating youself black and blue instead. Just because you don't recall Boo Boo in a dream doesn't necessarily mean "he" wasn't there. Do you know what I mean? It's like people who pray with a shopping list of things they want and then get mad because god doesn't grant their every wish. Perhaps their prayers were answered in other ways only they can't see them for what they are.