My Precious Devon, Help! Options

[Julie]

I lost my beloved Siamese on July 20. As I write this,I still cannot believe this happened. I say the words but I don't really believe Devon is gone. She hadn't eaten in two days and she was breathing very hard.I was so afraid something was very wrong. When I took her to the vet, I was told that she had a malignant mass in her chest cavity and there was nothingto be done. We put her to sleep that day. I amso devasted I can barely breathe. I go to work and function pretty well, but when I get up in the morning and when I come home at night I can barely stand it. My children are grown and we are very close, but it was just Devon and me. She was my baby! If I sound like I am ramblling,it is probably because I have drank a bottle of wine. I miss Devon so much, I feel like my heart is breaking! How am I supposed to get through this? I honestly feel that I have lost my child! My family thinks I should get another cat. I don't know if I am ready.I also don't know if I could go through this again. At a later time,I will write about what a wonderful time we had together, but right now I am grieving. I want my Devy back!!! I need her so much! Will this pain end?! I need all the help I can get.