Am I Going Crazy?, loss of beloved dog Options

[Fiona]

Am I going off my head? My darling wee hairy dog, Sgith died a week ago today after being hit by a car - and I wasn't there. He was with my mum, who's blaming herself no matter that I say dogs will be dogs and run across the road. Sgith was my faithful companion into whose fur I cried many times - he was my fourth baby - I have 3 children who are all also totally devastated. Sgith was a little dog with a huge personality and could never be 'just a dog' as someone said to me yesterday. He spoke to us, understood every word said to him and was spoiled rotten. Now I catch myself pretending hes sitting on the bed with me, speaking to him, trying hard to imagine hes there with me. I cant believe hes not here - can i turn the clock back - when do the tears stop? I cant stand the emptiness in the house - every advert on TV has dogs in it.

Please someone tell me it will get easier.

[Christine]

Dear Fiona, Your grief is still so fresh, there are no words I can say that will comfort you. Sgith is will come and visit you soon. Time on the next plane is much quicker than here, so what seems like days to you is just seconds to Sgith. He's just now getting settled in. I think I got a message from Sandy P today. I have been thinking about getting a personalized license plate (number plate) with Sandy P's name on it for my car next month when I have to reregister it. On the way to work today, I saw a personalized license plate that said Old Dog. I have used Sandy P as a password before on the computer, and the message that prompts me to remember it is "old dog." Then I got a fortune cookie today that said "What you seek is closer than you think." I travel the same road to work every day, and I've never seen that truck before. Have you read the post titled "All is well."? I think you will find that comforting.

Love,

Christine