Am I Going Crazy?, loss of beloved dog Options

[Fiona]

Am I going off my head? My darling wee hairy dog, Sgith died a week ago today after being hit by a car - and I wasn't there. He was with my mum, who's blaming herself no matter that I say dogs will be dogs and run across the road. Sgith was my faithful companion into whose fur I cried many times - he was my fourth baby - I have 3 children who are all also totally devastated. Sgith was a little dog with a huge personality and could never be 'just a dog' as someone said to me yesterday. He spoke to us, understood every word said to him and was spoiled rotten. Now I catch myself pretending hes sitting on the bed with me, speaking to him, trying hard to imagine hes there with me. I cant believe hes not here - can i turn the clock back - when do the tears stop? I cant stand the emptiness in the house - every advert on TV has dogs in it.

Please someone tell me it will get easier.

[Fiona]

Furkidlet's mom
Thank you so much - I need to read your post again and absorb it all properly. If we learn one thing from all this pain it is that we need to appreciate what we have while we have itand make the most of it. I'm so sorry you've struggled for so long with your loss but do we emerge stronger at the end of it all? Notthat it willever end - I'll never forget my wee man and what he meant to us all - it realy does feel to me as if I've lost a child and how totally bereft I feel. I'll do the things yousuggest to help the boys - we have lots of photos and videos to look at , painful as it will be. My daughter is away at University and doesn't het home till this weekend and she's been feeling terribly lonely and upset, not being able to get home. she'll find it very hard when she does get home and in a away it will bring it all back again.
I already find that speaking here is good for me, I feel as if I'm allowed to talk about it and not feel as if I'm upsetting everyone else. I willbe here many times i the next few days I'm sure - and I kind of feel as if Sgith is sitting here beside me, trying to jump onto my knee as he always does when I'm at the computer.
Fiona