Am I Going Crazy?, loss of beloved dog Options

[Fiona]

Am I going off my head? My darling wee hairy dog, Sgith died a week ago today after being hit by a car - and I wasn't there. He was with my mum, who's blaming herself no matter that I say dogs will be dogs and run across the road. Sgith was my faithful companion into whose fur I cried many times - he was my fourth baby - I have 3 children who are all also totally devastated. Sgith was a little dog with a huge personality and could never be 'just a dog' as someone said to me yesterday. He spoke to us, understood every word said to him and was spoiled rotten. Now I catch myself pretending hes sitting on the bed with me, speaking to him, trying hard to imagine hes there with me. I cant believe hes not here - can i turn the clock back - when do the tears stop? I cant stand the emptiness in the house - every advert on TV has dogs in it.

Please someone tell me it will get easier.

[Fiona]

I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes,again, as I read all your replies. It really does help me to know i'm not the only person going through what has to be the worst stage of my life so far and that includes when my dad died 15 years ago. Should I feel guilty about that? My dad died suddenly but he'd been ill for many years and I hadn't lived with him for quite a long time. Thats not an excuse and of course, I rememebr grieving terribly for him but Sgith was with me every minute of the last 9 years and was always there for me when I felt bad. Sgith was my refuse from the world when it got bad, my hairy little beastie who thought he was a lion.
How do I help my 2 big teenage boys who are hurting terribly but not sure how to show it?
thank you all for your words - they really mean a lot to me.
Fiona

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