It's Been Eight Days, Still not feeling better Options

[Christine]

It's been 8 days since I had Sandy P put to sleep, and I still don't feel like it's getting any easier. When I had her put to sleep (the vet came out to the car to do it), I felt such an overwhelming sense of peace and love travel through my body. I think it was when her spirit left her body. It lasted about 30 seconds then was gone. I try and find comfort in that, but when I try and recapture that feeling, I can't. I'm afraid that if I keep trying too hard, I'm going to mess it up somehow and I won't remember it properly. You'll probably think I'm nuts when I tell you this: I have big bottle of calcium pills. Every time I take one, I think to myself "when all these pills are gone, things will be a little better." My husband is being so patient and supportive, but I've known Sandy P longer than I've known my husband so he understands. Sandy P saw me through a rough divorce and nursing school. I'm hanging in there...I've got an early morning meeting I've got to go to so I'd better dry my eyes and get going. I think about all of you often.

Love,

Christine

[deedee]

They say that mourning takes one month per year that you shared with the other person. This might hold true for our pets, too. There was too much love shared between the two of you to get over in merely 8 days.

It does get better with time, though. But even after a year, I am still hit with a wave of grief that comes out of the blue. But it isn't constant, and life is much easier than it was for those hard few weeks right after he left for the Bridge.