The Hardest Thing You'll Ever Do., The Loss of my Weimaraner Options

[Earl]

Its been a little more than a month, that I had to put Schatszie, my Weimaraner since a puppy, to sleep, and I came across this site, whereby, it was of some relief to know that I'm not alone in dealing with what seems to be a 'non-ending' grief period. I got Schatszie as a puppy, my second Weimar, and spent countless days training her in field and obedience. I had an excellent relationship with my other female Weimar, but Schatszie was way different.....She was crazy about me! She absolutely could not stand to be out of my sight. Thanks to my Parents, they watched over her while I was at work. When I would leave, she would stand at the front gate and stand there awaiting my return for hours/all day, until my Parents called her back in. In 1997 my Parents moved as well as I, and my new location provided me 5 acres for Schatszie, but the situation of her standing at front gate still persisted, every day....when I would return from work, there she would be, standing at gate looking down the road, awaiting my return, regardless of weather conditions. You see, I've never been married, and after numerous dead-end relationships, living alone, Schatszie was my everything. In 1997, I got tired of my profession, started a small business in home, whereby I could spend most of my time with Schatszie. She went every where with me in car, if weather permitted, to the store....dentist....you name it. Two years ago, she went on Thyroid medication, followed up with a high ALP Liver problem, and then followed by chronic renal failure. I started her on Science K/d food, and in Jan. 2005, my Vet gave her ~3weeks. She had no outward signs of kidney problems, except for mustle wasting in hind legs, and occasional mustle fatigue after exercising. With no for-notice, at 5:00AM on April 4, she woke me up next to my bed, with heavy panting and salivating, followed with a seizure. I rushed her to vet...they did IV's, but the seizure(End Stage Renal Failure) left her immobile....no mustle strenght, due to uremia of blood. I took her home, stayed up all night with her for 2.5 days, taking her outside to urinate etc., until both she and I were total;ly exhausted. She quit eating at the last, and I definitely knew it was time to do the hardest thing I would ever have to do in my whole life, next to burying my Parents, and that was call the Vet to come and put Schatszie to sleep....Put my Best Friend I've ever had in this life to sleep. Ladies and gentlemen, I know I'm among friends here when I say this,......"It is Hell On Earth, Living alone at 50 Years Old, and your BEST FRIEND, THE ONLY ONE YOU'LL EVER HAVE THAT LOVED YOU THE WAY SCHATSZIE LOVED ME, and THEY ARE GONE. I had already pre-fabbed her burial box, but I also had a 2'x3' granite slab inscribed, "Schatszie".....Jan. 22, 1993 - Arl. 6, 2005......"our Memories Together Will Never Fade,"....."But Your Absence Will Never Heal"......."I Love You Schatszie". To all of you that have lost 'Your Best Friend', Its a long rocky road to getting over grief. You are basically on your own. No one wants to really understand or hear about such. My greatest fear at present, is that I'll never get over this, and will never be able to get another Weimaraner again, without expecting her to be just like Schatszie, which of course, there will never be another Schatszie. My Heart goes out to all of you grieving. Our "Friends" just don't live long enough do they? Earl

[Jazzygirl]

Earl, I too cried as I read your post. We DO understand. I love Weimeraners. They are close to my breed, German Shorthairs.
I'm 33 and I had my Jasmine for about 10 years...a third of my life was spent with her in it. She was my life, my love. She was there through so many life changes, trials and tribulations. My constant in this world. I do have another one, Bailey and he is 8, and he sounds more like Schatszie in personality. I'm so thankful I have him. But as independent as Jasmine was, we had a bond that was deep.
No, there won't be anohter Schatszie, but since I do have Bailey, I can say that each bond we have with our pets is unique and special. In time, I'm sure you will love again and find the companionship that only pets can give us.
It is hard when you feel like no one in your "real" life wants to hear or understand what you're going through. You have to choose wisely who to confide in. But rest assured you are safe here.
I also love the ingraving on the concrete....so special.
I'm so sorry for your loss and please keep coming here and sharing stories of Schatszie.
Audrey