First Weekend Without Her Options

[BastiansMomma]

This week has been an emotional roller coaster. Work actually has given me solace since I can think of something else other than Bastian. I find that going home is another story, especially when I am going to bed since she slept with me, which I know people can relate.
this will be my first weekend with out her. I am so afraid to face these two days. I feel numb and this whole awful thing is surreal. Of course Sunday being Mother's day will be hard too. My kittys used to send me mothers day cards and i know this year it will only be from one. Monday will be a week since she has gone to the bridge and I can't believe it's been that long or short. It feels like forever then it feels like just yesterday as I relive everything.
I know I am doing better like I have said in my last post, but today is a hard day, and I know Monday will be the worst. I talk to her everyday and I hope she can hear me. I also identify with not wanting to vacuum, not wanting to wash my robe where her fur is. I did find some old pictures of her when she was younger and healthier. It was bittersweet, I plan to make a picture book of my dear baby.
I was reading some older posts today and my heart goes out to all of you with your loss. I have cried when I have read your stories and find comfort that these pets were and still are loved immensely as mine is. Thank you all for posting supports when I know your wounds have not even healed. your support and love is felt through these posts.

Jen

[Jazzygirl]

Oh yes I remember all those "firsts" too. In fact, I think it will be a while until I don't have any more. I think as every month, occassion, season, or whatever passes, there will be a first time with Jazzy. But I guess what's important is that we try to honor their memory and carry on as they would want us too.
And I still get sad too when I come home. Bailey greets me as always but it's not quite the same without her there too.
We really all are in the same boat here on this site....just on different decks, I guess you could say!