How To Go On, dark cloud Options

[lilith]

I just found this site and I feel for all of you who have loss a dear little friend, my heart goes to you, I have lost 4 dogs and a cat in the last 10 years but last october I lost my fifth dog Perseus , i could not grieve properly as my husband was dying from cancer then 3 weeks later he too was taken from me.
I am very much lost and feel I do not know who I am anymore, I have four dogs at home one of them is sick and I fear she too may be taken, I cannot bare losing another one, I feel I am walking into the valley of death, I try to take a step here and there to put my life in some sort of funtioning way, but there does not seem to be any point, everytime I try something comes to stop me.

I am sorry I rave on but thank you for listening I am not the best those days, this grief journey is exhausting and there does not seem to be a light at the end of the tunnel, and how long is this tunnel if there is a light perhaps it is an incoming train, I do not know I am lost, confused, depressed, taking one day at the time but just existing not living, to see pass one day seems impossible.

Thank you for listening
Kind thoughts