First Weekend Without Her Options

[BastiansMomma]

This week has been an emotional roller coaster. Work actually has given me solace since I can think of something else other than Bastian. I find that going home is another story, especially when I am going to bed since she slept with me, which I know people can relate.
this will be my first weekend with out her. I am so afraid to face these two days. I feel numb and this whole awful thing is surreal. Of course Sunday being Mother's day will be hard too. My kittys used to send me mothers day cards and i know this year it will only be from one. Monday will be a week since she has gone to the bridge and I can't believe it's been that long or short. It feels like forever then it feels like just yesterday as I relive everything.
I know I am doing better like I have said in my last post, but today is a hard day, and I know Monday will be the worst. I talk to her everyday and I hope she can hear me. I also identify with not wanting to vacuum, not wanting to wash my robe where her fur is. I did find some old pictures of her when she was younger and healthier. It was bittersweet, I plan to make a picture book of my dear baby.
I was reading some older posts today and my heart goes out to all of you with your loss. I have cried when I have read your stories and find comfort that these pets were and still are loved immensely as mine is. Thank you all for posting supports when I know your wounds have not even healed. your support and love is felt through these posts.

Jen

[Rico's Mom]

Hi Jen,

I feel your pain. I too am alone this weekend. It will be 2 weeks on Mon. that my dear Rico has been gone. I also found work to take my mind off of my sadness...and of course my daughters being around and keeping me busy also helped. But...this weekend my daughters are visiting their dad and i am alone...and how lonely it is without my Rico. Thoughts of 2 weekends ago are too fresh in my mind. That was when i was alone with Rico and i knew he was not going to be with me much longer. Still it came as a shock on Mon. when his body physically was not able to be with me any longer. I went out earlier this evening and got a bottle of my favorite wine....and i went to a specialty shop and got my favorite wine crackers alone with my favorite snickerdoodle coffee. I lit some candles in honor of my baby and i plan to spend a few hours here reminiscing and hopefully helping a few others get through their difficult time as well. I think we all need to treat ourselves extra special while we are going through such a difficult time. Please be sure to do something special for your self this weekend. You and Bastian are in my thoughts.

Cheryl