First Weekend Without Her Options

[BastiansMomma]

This week has been an emotional roller coaster. Work actually has given me solace since I can think of something else other than Bastian. I find that going home is another story, especially when I am going to bed since she slept with me, which I know people can relate.
this will be my first weekend with out her. I am so afraid to face these two days. I feel numb and this whole awful thing is surreal. Of course Sunday being Mother's day will be hard too. My kittys used to send me mothers day cards and i know this year it will only be from one. Monday will be a week since she has gone to the bridge and I can't believe it's been that long or short. It feels like forever then it feels like just yesterday as I relive everything.
I know I am doing better like I have said in my last post, but today is a hard day, and I know Monday will be the worst. I talk to her everyday and I hope she can hear me. I also identify with not wanting to vacuum, not wanting to wash my robe where her fur is. I did find some old pictures of her when she was younger and healthier. It was bittersweet, I plan to make a picture book of my dear baby.
I was reading some older posts today and my heart goes out to all of you with your loss. I have cried when I have read your stories and find comfort that these pets were and still are loved immensely as mine is. Thank you all for posting supports when I know your wounds have not even healed. your support and love is felt through these posts.

Jen