Living Without Amber Visibly There, Moving Forward Is Hard Options

[luv_my_catz]

Hello All ,

Today I am faced with the dilema of inertia ~ I cannot seem to move beyond where I am in my grief ~ I have the Master Bedroom closed ~ Amber's ashes are in there ~ the flowers on the table ~ the music playing ~ the quiet beauty of her life and the peaceful retreat we shared preserved ~ I feel as though I would be betraying her by letting the other cat in that room ~ she was protected from him in her little safe world there with me ~ He lost his rights to be in there by attacking her so much when she was beginning to show her age years ago ~ I cannot imagine sleeping in my bed without her there - or allowing him to "invade " her domain ~ its just not honorable ~ so now I don't know what to do ~ I have a lovely Master Suite ~ yet cannot find the way to reclaim it and integrate the sweet memories of " Amber's Days" with the Hope for the future and years I may have left with Ceece ~ he is a sweet ol' boy just always was too in his own world to ever properly learn cat protocol ~ I am stuck ~ I need to remain true to my loyalty to Ambie and her spirit within and without my soul ~ yet I do not want to keep myself locked in the past ~ life is filled with integrations and weavings of the spirits we have with us and the events we find ourselves moving through ~ I tried to sleep in the guest room ~ that didn't work either ~ so for now its back to the sofa bed ~ I am in a quandry ~ does anyone have any ideas?

Many THANKS,
Kathryn

[Ladypurr]

Hello Kathryn,

When the time is right, you will again feel comfortable in your master suite. Feelings have to evolve. Motivation is sometimes in very short supply.

Only you will know when that door can be opened and you can enter the room and occupy the space comfortably again, knowing that Amber would want you to be there. Her memories will trickle back in the most inspiring and amazing ways.

It just takes time. She is watching over you. When you least expect it, you will feel her presence in a very powerful way and you will smile and begin to feel okay again.

Love to you,

--susan
~ a voice for the voiceless ~