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 Tears Soaked My Pillow, Crying All Night |
 Apr 30 2005, 07:44 AM
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Just when I think I am doing so well terrible waves of sadness have overtaken me. I have been awake crying most of the night from missing my girls. It hasn't been this bad for me in a while now. The night has been so long and lonely and some kind of empty feeling has washed over me and has ripped the scars off my heart again.
Ok if I want to be truthful I looked at all the pictures of my little Snookie while she was so sick and dying and some of her after she had passed away. I don't know why I do that to myself it just causes me more pain. I have been strong and stayed away from them since my one post confessing what I was doing. I just feel so empty, broken, so lost, and in so much pain today. All of the wonderful memories have been going through my mind. It seems to hurt my heart even more when I think of the blessing I have had and all I have lost. I feel so weak in my spirit, my heart screams I can't go on, the pain is to bad. Yet I know for the family I have to go on but I am so weary. I held my Snookie's urn and hugged and kissed it, and today I may go fling myself on Chili Bean's grave. I have tried so hard to let joy come back into my life but today it seems to have escaped me. My heart and soul and tears have given way to the pain and sorrow of missing my wonderful darling girls. Ann
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-------------------- My girls went to the Rainbow Bridge 6 weeks and 3 days apart. Snookie had cushing's disease, and later developed diabetes. Both had cancer, Snookie had cancer of the liver, and Chili Bean had cancer of the pallet. Chili Bean was our son's chihuahua but we kept her often throughout her life and she stayed with us for the last 9 months of her life. Chili Bean also had asthma and heart failure. We will see you in Heaven my precious darlings. Snookie Lynn Howard 2-04-94 - 12-26-04 Senorita Chili Bean Bubbles Howard 11-05-94 - 11-11-04 |
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May 2 2005, 10:57 AM
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ok, now that ive read the post that has people charged up....
it does offer constructive criticism, albeit in a blunt manner, and brings in personal opinions that can be construed as being hurtful. if the word "nutcase" were removed (although it does not say "you are a....") and the portion about tolerance for those with self destructive behavior (an opinion that offers no real support), the post probably wouldnt have received the backlash that it did. i could be wrong, but if you re-read the post without those bits it does offer support. whenever one of us tries to "fix" another's position, here or anywhere else in life, we often take offense. it is human nature to not want to hear what others believe is the truth...because we have our own vision of what the truth is. the ability to hear what others have to say, even if different from our own beliefs, is paramount to the continued success of this forum. --------------------  |
