Gone With The Wind Options

[Faded_Grace]

Seventeen years old, Carey Sue has been with me since I was literally a babe in swaddling. Ever ready with an endless supply of love and affection, she has been my companion over many tumultuous years, bearing many of my own heart aches and trials with her beautiful hazel eyes. She was an Australian Shepherd, the kindest creature I've yet to see under heaven. Yesterday we had to put her down due to severe neurological distress and anemia brought on by old age and the feasting of countless fleas. I cannot deny that I feel more than partially responsible for the pure torment that was her last few hours on this earth, but I know it was simply her time. Guilt serves nothing but to further my own anguish. I am lost, though, and desperate. Every time I blink, I can't help but see that familiar black-and-gray shadow in the corner of my eye - even though it's no longer there. Every time I sigh, I can't help but hear the prancing of her paws on our hardwood floors - even though it's no longer there. It seems the world has lost all color, all hope... and I just don't know what to do now, how to carry on. Such a big piece of my life, and she's gone.

The last few months have been very hectic, and really the only two things that have kept me going have been the love of this amazing animal, and the love of my mother. Now that love is halved, and I feel confused and helpless. What should I do? Should I simply clutch impotently at her brown leash and ponder all the walks she and I will never go on again? Should I get a new pet to ease the loss of my unconditional lover? The idea seems strange, and I feel guilty for even considering it, but there is a huge void in my life now, and it needs to be filled if I am to meet the day and continue moving forward. Please help me.

[LJP]

Hi, this is such a difficult time for you. You need to be kind to yourself and let yourself grieve. Don't try to stop the tears and feel you must put on a brave face. 17 years was a long time of love and fun. One day the sad thoughts will get less and be replaced by happy ones that will bring a smile to your face and fill your broken heart with peace again.
We lost our 2 girls within 6 1/2 months of each other. Fluff last October and Cleo on Friday past - she's not even been gone for 2 days. My worst moment was coming home yesterday and seeing the empty space where her litter box stood and then wandering through the house and knowing she wasn't there. I loved them so much, i can't believe how much a person can cry.
Take care and remember to look out for the rainbows.