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 Tears Soaked My Pillow, Crying All Night |
 Apr 30 2005, 07:44 AM
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Just when I think I am doing so well terrible waves of sadness have overtaken me. I have been awake crying most of the night from missing my girls. It hasn't been this bad for me in a while now. The night has been so long and lonely and some kind of empty feeling has washed over me and has ripped the scars off my heart again.
Ok if I want to be truthful I looked at all the pictures of my little Snookie while she was so sick and dying and some of her after she had passed away. I don't know why I do that to myself it just causes me more pain. I have been strong and stayed away from them since my one post confessing what I was doing. I just feel so empty, broken, so lost, and in so much pain today. All of the wonderful memories have been going through my mind. It seems to hurt my heart even more when I think of the blessing I have had and all I have lost. I feel so weak in my spirit, my heart screams I can't go on, the pain is to bad. Yet I know for the family I have to go on but I am so weary. I held my Snookie's urn and hugged and kissed it, and today I may go fling myself on Chili Bean's grave. I have tried so hard to let joy come back into my life but today it seems to have escaped me. My heart and soul and tears have given way to the pain and sorrow of missing my wonderful darling girls. Ann
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-------------------- My girls went to the Rainbow Bridge 6 weeks and 3 days apart. Snookie had cushing's disease, and later developed diabetes. Both had cancer, Snookie had cancer of the liver, and Chili Bean had cancer of the pallet. Chili Bean was our son's chihuahua but we kept her often throughout her life and she stayed with us for the last 9 months of her life. Chili Bean also had asthma and heart failure. We will see you in Heaven my precious darlings. Snookie Lynn Howard 2-04-94 - 12-26-04 Senorita Chili Bean Bubbles Howard 11-05-94 - 11-11-04 |
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Apr 30 2005, 07:58 AM
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Ann,
I'm so sorry that the sadness has snuck up on you again. I wish I could make it better for you. I understand what you are feeling. This has been a hard year for me and my animals. Friskie died last summer after being with us for 16 years. Then my 4 month old kitten Dorian was killed. We only had her for two weeks and she still haunts my memory after 7 months. Now my Gandalf is missing...... You are so lucky to have so many wonderful memories of your girls. The picture may be painful now but you have them and can look at them and remember the good times. I hope you feel better soon. Hugs, Dawn -------------------- Hugs,
Dawn Furbabies waiting for me at Rainbow Bridge..... Tigger - 2008 - "My Tig Wee" Merlin - 2006 - "Goofy Boy" Gandalf - 2005 - "Little Buddy" Dorian - 2004 - "Daddy's Baby Girl Kitty" Friskie - 2004 - "Good Kitty Boy" Spike - 2001 - "Piggy Puppy" |
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Ann H Tears Soaked My Pillow Apr 30 2005, 07:44 AM
Wanda Oh,Ann, I am so sorry that you have went backwards... Apr 30 2005, 08:00 AM Kathleen032 Dear Ann,
I was thinking back to where I was emot... Apr 30 2005, 08:12 AM jzzlvr13 Hi Anne,
I was just going to post a similar messa... Apr 30 2005, 11:42 AM Ann H Thank you Dawn, Wanda, Kathleen, and Barbara and S... Apr 30 2005, 01:05 PM jzzlvr13 Hi again Anne,
I have to admit, I sleep with one ... Apr 30 2005, 01:18 PM luv_my_catz Ann,
I am so sorry you are having a sad time ~ yo... Apr 30 2005, 02:44 PM Romeo's_daddy [QUOTE](Ok if I want to be truthful I looked at al... Apr 30 2005, 05:49 PM Kristie Ann,
I'm so sorry to hear that you are feelin... Apr 30 2005, 06:08 PM Kristie Romeo's Daddy,
I don't begrudge you your ... Apr 30 2005, 06:20 PM Geraldine Dear Ann,
My deepest, deepest condolences for you... May 1 2005, 07:59 PM Dawn Dear Ann,
I can understand your pain. I have had ... May 1 2005, 08:10 PM LS Support ok, now that ive read the post that has people cha... May 2 2005, 10:57 AM
Ladypurr Dear Ann,
the pictures you've posted of your ... May 5 2005, 02:34 PM |
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