Lightening Has Struck For The Third Time, Corkie is gone Options

[3SpecialAngels]

Lightening has struck for the third time in just over 3 years and THIS time it has taken the love of my life - Corkie! She was a just turned 15 year old Tabby girl with a white bib and toes and an apricot muzzle and a white milk color mustache as well as a white diamond on her salmon colored nose.

I loved this little girl more than life. I am lost without her. She went in just about 6 days. First she had a bladder infection, then she had fluid in her CHEST and that stopped her lungs from being able to expand and her to take a deep breath. Then suddenly they said it was cancer.

She was gone before the final shot. I lived for this little girl. She was my LIFE and I allowed her to be cheated as another cat I adopted kept trying to chase her away. She became afraid to sleep in my room in her little bed, BUT she was just starting to get over her fear when she died.

She was sooooo courageous, as she had CRF, Asthma, IBD and was a tripod due to VAS. She had to have fluids and be given prednisalone and pepcid and she fought against them like a demon!

She was the dearest of the dear and ALWAYS greeted me by extending her little arm and givng me a smile.

I cannot breath it hurts so much. I am taking anti depressents and other meds which don't help and trying to drown the pain with herbal calming tea. I don't know how to make the pain go away and yet still remember her. HOW do I live without her?! She WAS my LIFE!

Heidi & kidties
Kotton, comforting protecting Siamese girl
Benji, Houdini in a spotted tabby boy suit, Missy, Dear Feisty little Bicolor girl
and my THREE Special Beloved Angels
Minnie - Sweetest lovingingest Calico Sunshine Kitty Girl Saint,
Schatzi - Mr Wonderful- BEST EVER Tuxedo Standard Poodle & His Kitty girl
Corkie, Dearest Most Courageous, Purring Perfect LOVE of a smiling INCREDIBLE Tabby girl

[FurBabyMom]

Heidi,
I'm so sorry for your loss. I know that words are not enough to make the pain go away and we can't answer all the questions. I won't debate God and his wisdom or even if there is such. I can tell you that in time it will get easier but I can't say when that time will be.

I do understand how you feel about the remaining kitties. I have two left at home that I love but I'm having a hard time giving attention because they aren't my Gandalf. I'm hoping I'll get past this soon. Then when I want to give or get loves from them they don't respond the way Gandalf did and it hurts all over.

I'm sure that Corkie isn't mad at you. Don't let guilt work it's way in, you did all that you could. I'm thinking that she's sending you signs but that you are in too much pain right now that you can't get them. Just take it one day, hour or minute at a time.

Hugs,
Dawn