I Had To Let Her Go Options

[Golden327]

Last night, after my cat had stopped eating for a few days, I decided to take her to the vet. She refused to eat anything I put in front of her, even a piece of turkey which a week before she would have begged me for. When I took her in, it was evident that it was over. She had kidney failure and heart disease. She couldn't make it anymore.
My poor Butterscotch. It's the hardest thing I ever had to do, handing her to the vet and saying goodbye. Mentally she was still there and I just ache wondering whether she knew what was happening. I just hope she wasn't angry at me for taking her there. She was just in too much pain.
I've had her since I was six, since first grade. I'm 24 now and she's been with me for every important thing I've ever went through. Every memory I have, includes her. I don't know how to get through this. I cry so much because everywhere I look reminds me of her. Every sound I hear, I look, thinking it's her.
We have a golden Retriever also, and i feel that she is confused. She wants to know where her buddy of 13 years is.
My kitty gave me so much joy over the years and I love her so much. I found this site while I was crying tonight. I've lost a pet before, but never one who I had been through so much with. She was always there when I came home, and always crawling on my lap when I needed her. I miss her warmth.
One of the hardest things is that the man that I am in love with is allergic to cats. I'm afraid that I'll never be able to fill the void that she left behind. Not that I would want to replace her.... but it's hard, when I'm such a cat person.

[encouragingangel]

dear angel of butterscotch,
i am so, so very sorry for your loss and sadness. please know that you are not alone, and that many feel pain that is similar. i honor all your precious years with your dear cat, and know the deep, deep, indescribable loss this is. When our animals witness our lives and many years, it seems incomprehensible that that could ever end.
if you believe that it doesn't end spiritually, that's a certain kind of comfort, however it doesn't replace the physical loss.
my 16 year old cat jupiter died 2 months ago today, and i am still astonished by the depth of pain i feel at times. the pain changes shape and form, and there is some gladness starting to appear.
sending blessings to you.