Lightening Has Struck For The Third Time, Corkie is gone Options

[3SpecialAngels]

Lightening has struck for the third time in just over 3 years and THIS time it has taken the love of my life - Corkie! She was a just turned 15 year old Tabby girl with a white bib and toes and an apricot muzzle and a white milk color mustache as well as a white diamond on her salmon colored nose.

I loved this little girl more than life. I am lost without her. She went in just about 6 days. First she had a bladder infection, then she had fluid in her CHEST and that stopped her lungs from being able to expand and her to take a deep breath. Then suddenly they said it was cancer.

She was gone before the final shot. I lived for this little girl. She was my LIFE and I allowed her to be cheated as another cat I adopted kept trying to chase her away. She became afraid to sleep in my room in her little bed, BUT she was just starting to get over her fear when she died.

She was sooooo courageous, as she had CRF, Asthma, IBD and was a tripod due to VAS. She had to have fluids and be given prednisalone and pepcid and she fought against them like a demon!

She was the dearest of the dear and ALWAYS greeted me by extending her little arm and givng me a smile.

I cannot breath it hurts so much. I am taking anti depressents and other meds which don't help and trying to drown the pain with herbal calming tea. I don't know how to make the pain go away and yet still remember her. HOW do I live without her?! She WAS my LIFE!

Heidi & kidties
Kotton, comforting protecting Siamese girl
Benji, Houdini in a spotted tabby boy suit, Missy, Dear Feisty little Bicolor girl
and my THREE Special Beloved Angels
Minnie - Sweetest lovingingest Calico Sunshine Kitty Girl Saint,
Schatzi - Mr Wonderful- BEST EVER Tuxedo Standard Poodle & His Kitty girl
Corkie, Dearest Most Courageous, Purring Perfect LOVE of a smiling INCREDIBLE Tabby girl

[3SpecialAngels]

[FONT=Times][COLOR=green]Everyone keeps saying God took Corkie cause it was her time. They say you are born you live and you die, and it was her turn to die, and then they say She had a good life, she is in Heaven and she knows how much you love her.

THAT does not help at all! I have 3 remaining kitteis and I love them to peices but somehow, since Corkie has gone I am so numb and hurt so much I can't feel the love for my 3 that I used to.

Days are OK as I can keep busy but nights I HATE! IF there is a good movie on I am OK but most times there is nothing and nothing on the computer either. I had to stop the herbal calming teas as I realised they were not helping my grief - only to make me tired, and my anti depressent does not help either.

It has now been 6 weeks and she has not visited me. She has to be angry at me. If she was not she WOULD come and visit. I love her so much some times it hurts to breathe. I sit at the computer or watch tv and keep getting the urge to go check on her and then I remember ------! She had to fight so hard to live and now she is gone!