My Jayjay Died, Coping With the loss of a pet (or not!) Options

[cdboogie]

Hi, I'm new to this forum and I want to say first of all that I'm so sad for all of your precious fur-babies that have passed on! I went looking for a pet loss arena to join because I know that I'm not alone in my grief and that there are many people going through the same devastating thing! I want to talk about my baby to those who know how it feel's to have this special type of love for a pet and to be so loved by them in return only to lose them forever! Other pet owner's can relate to what I'm going through right now! My boyfriend was sad but he's over it and my grief is only just beginning! I'm really the only one grieving over her. She was my precious girl!
My sweet beautiful JayJay died on Feb. 28th, 2004 after only a four day illness and my heart is shattered! I had never even heard of Cardiomyopathy, never mind experience it so tragically! She wasn't even six years old! I'm so sad I just want to die!
I don't want to stop crying, you know? I want to grieve for the rest of my life. I want to scream, kick my feet, and cry uncontrollably over her forever and never stop. It seems as if it would be disrespectful to her memory if I stopped being sad. Like how much I grieve equals how much I love her. If I stop grieving I stop loving and missing her. Does that make sense? I was wondering if anyone else ever experienced this?
Thank-you all !

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[Muffins]

Hi Cheryl:

Love the new picture of JayJay....definitely a "tortie-calico mix" .... She has lots of black and all of the beautiful colorings that torties have.
My Ernie was just like Jay (and probably like a lot of our furbabies), in that she hated thunder & lightning (it's raining here in MA too)...
Whenever we'd hear thunder, I'd look for her and she'd look up at me as if to say, "okay mom, where can I go now"..... and, I'd say, "come in right here Ernie...."
Opening up the linen closet and she hopped right in, until the "danger" was over....
It really was the cutest thing...you gave me another happy thing to think about Thank you!!!
Your JayJay and Ernie aren't afraid of thunderstorms anymore...they're up above them, over Rainbow's Bridge....very safe & comfy....just like we would want them to be.
The torture can be immense, I know, we all KNOW!!!!! I'd give anything to have my Ernie stare at me, like she used to do for hours (and, I never knew why - I'd play with her, but she'd just stare... sort of "CAT"ATONIC .... no, really, she was my pretty girl, and I would love to look into her golden eyes again.... I know that we would all love to see our babies one more time!!!
I was just thinking, today it has been four weeks since Ernie had to be put to sleep.
2/7/2004 at noon....
And, do you know where we (Ben & I) today at 2:00pm???? AT A SHELTER FOR CATS!!!
I know we have our girls blessing.... But, it's weird, four weeks ago today we were uncontrollably crying....and today, I'm full of nerves like I'm about to deliver a human baby (I don't have any children).... Weird....
Though I've seen pictures of all the kitties on the website, and there are so many, many darling kitties.... We want to see "who adopts us"... If we could, we'd take them all home!!
Keep on the site, we'll talk again soon!
God Bless!! Love, Denise
p.s. Have fun with all your other furkids....so many, so much fun....