My Dusty Is Gone, I miss my baby boy! Options

[DustyLove]

My Dusty is gone now and I can't bare the pain! He woke up this morning is pain, so I phone the vet and asked to take him ASAP instead of waiting until our scheduled 4PM appointment. We arrived at 8:30AM and as soon as the vet took a look at Dusty, she said it was definitely his time. I held him and kissed him, trying to comfort him as he starred at me moaning in pain. They came and took him to prep him with his IV and said they would be back shortly. Well she immediately returned back and said as they were shaving his little leg, he had passed on. The vet said he knew how hard this decision had been for me, so he decided to make the decision on his own instead. My poor baby! I swore I would never let him feel any pain, yet I let it happen anyway. Even if it was for just a few hours, he surely didn't deserve that at all. I feel so guilty, knowing I could have taken him in sooner before his pain had ever started. I can't get his little face off my mind and his big brown eyes starring at me asking me for help and there wasn't anything I could possibly do for him. I had made plans to take him a bath and sit outside on a blanket under the sun, snacking on his favorite treats, so he could enjoy his last day and instead he had such an awful ending. The pain is just killing me! He was like my shadow... everywhere I was, he was by my side... and now all I want to do is lay by his side as well. I miss my sweet boy soooooo bad! How can I go on with out my best friend of so many years by my side? This is the worst day of my life.

DustyLove

[Libertybelle]

ohmy, the anguish you feel right now. I'm so very sorry it didn't go as planned. Thankfully you were with him at the very end though, and he felt that love come through you. I do believe that. If an animal can sense when their human is in pain, they can certainly sense when your love comes through. So I think he felt your fear, pain, love, concern -- all those things. Please don't dwell on the guilt too long - your beautiful Dusty would want you to grieve for him but eventually smile again. Oh I'm so sorry for the way the day went, I really am. ((((((((( hugs )))))))))) to you in your time of pain.
I hope Dede met Dusty at the Rainbow Bridge and showed him how wondrous Heaven can be. They'll both be waiting for us to arrive when it's our turn. What a joyful reunion that will be!
I hope your heart stops hurting so badly and that you are soon able to smile when you think of Dusty.
God bless you -
Lori