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![]() Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 1,165 Joined: 31-October 04 Member No.: 538 ![]() |
This evening it will be 5 months since Chili Bean's nose was twisted and contorted and her nose holes were closing up. I thought it was an infection or a reaction to her medication. But I knew she needed to see the vet so I took her 80 miles to see the vet. My Snookie went with me as she always did.
When we got there he told me that Chili Bean was going to suffocate, was suffocating to death even as I stood holding her. He did xrays and the news was shocking, devastating, and earth shaking. He told me she had that cancer of the upper palette and that it had struck a couple of nerves in her face. We never even knew she had cancer. He said he could do an emergency operation but given her age, her enlarged heart and asthma her chances of making it were slim to none. That he would be honest it would be a waste of money because there was little hope. He said there was no other choice than to put her to sleep. Unless I wanted him to do the operation which would be thousands of dollars. He felt to put her through it would be cruel, because he was sure she would not make it. So I told him to set my little girl free I did not want her to suffer. She had suffered to much already. I made frantic phone calls so my family could say goodbye to her on the phone. I felt my legs grow weak, my body shake, I wanted to run but there was no where to run. My little girl needed me and love held me there. As the vet came toward Chili Bean with the shots he told her he had done all he could for her and he was so sorry. He kissed her little head, told her she was so sweet, and told her goodbye. He even told her he loved her! So while I held her in my arms like I had millions of time before, I held that tiny little girl in my arms until she fell into a Heavenly sleep. I felt my world fall out from under me and felt my heart break as she slipped away. I blubbered and bawled, sobbed and cried right there. I had no control, tears dropped onto the vet's hands. He did not pull his hands away, I looked up at him and he had tears in his eyes. I cried like I had never cried before until I lost Snookie 6 weeks and 3 days later. I just miss both Snookie and Chili Bean with all my heart. I would have given my life for either one of them, they were the most loved girls in the world. I will continue to love them here on earth until I am with them again. Love, Ann Here is a picture of Clair and my brother with Chili Bean.
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![]() -------------------- My girls went to the Rainbow Bridge 6 weeks and 3 days apart. Snookie had cushing's disease, and later developed diabetes. Both had cancer, Snookie had cancer of the liver, and Chili Bean had cancer of the pallet. Chili Bean was our son's chihuahua but we kept her often throughout her life and she stayed with us for the last 9 months of her life. Chili Bean also had asthma and heart failure. We will see you in Heaven my precious darlings. Snookie Lynn Howard 2-04-94 - 12-26-04 Senorita Chili Bean Bubbles Howard 11-05-94 - 11-11-04 |
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 20 Joined: 9-April 05 Member No.: 818 ![]() |
Dear Ann,
It's so obvious that you were such a loving mom to Chilli Bean and to Snookie. I'm sure she knew that beyond a doubt. I can relate so much to how you felt that day in the vet's office. It's such a devastating blow to have to say goodbye to such a wonderful baby. I want to tell you something. When I was a little girl, my grandparents' neighbors had a Pomeranian named Snookie. He was the first dog that I knew and I loved him. I can still remember going over to their house and petting Snookie. My parents have pictures of me with him. Whenever I see a Pomeranian, it brings back those fond memories of the cute, sweet Snookie. I wasn't even in school back then. In fact, in the pictures I looked to be around 2 or 3 years old. Snookie was one of my very earliest memories. I just wanted to share this story because I don't often hear that name. Take care of yourself. I can't imagine losing two dogs in such a short time. The grieving must be double of what it is when you lose one. Thinking of you, Carol |
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