My Jayjay Died, Coping With the loss of a pet (or not!) Options

[cdboogie]

Hi, I'm new to this forum and I want to say first of all that I'm so sad for all of your precious fur-babies that have passed on! I went looking for a pet loss arena to join because I know that I'm not alone in my grief and that there are many people going through the same devastating thing! I want to talk about my baby to those who know how it feel's to have this special type of love for a pet and to be so loved by them in return only to lose them forever! Other pet owner's can relate to what I'm going through right now! My boyfriend was sad but he's over it and my grief is only just beginning! I'm really the only one grieving over her. She was my precious girl!
My sweet beautiful JayJay died on Feb. 28th, 2004 after only a four day illness and my heart is shattered! I had never even heard of Cardiomyopathy, never mind experience it so tragically! She wasn't even six years old! I'm so sad I just want to die!
I don't want to stop crying, you know? I want to grieve for the rest of my life. I want to scream, kick my feet, and cry uncontrollably over her forever and never stop. It seems as if it would be disrespectful to her memory if I stopped being sad. Like how much I grieve equals how much I love her. If I stop grieving I stop loving and missing her. Does that make sense? I was wondering if anyone else ever experienced this?
Thank-you all !

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[cdboogie]

Thank-you all for your kind word's, It seem's to help me knowing that I'm not alone and that there are people who understand about the deep sorrow associated with losing a beloved pet. I still can't believe that she's gone! I find myself calling her name even though I know that she won't answer (half hoping that she will!). I just don't want to forget anything about her! I had remembered an old website that I was doing year's ago and I had a little page with pics for each cat. JayJay was my second oldest of eight cat's, the oldest being 10 and the youngest going on 3. I also have 3 dogs ages 14, 12 and 7 so I know that I will have to go through this again many times. My youngest boy Ittsy had a brother named Bittsy that died when he was 11 months old.
I do know the song "The Dance" by Garth Brooks, it's a beautiful song and yes it is fitting. Boys2Men song "It's So Hard to say Good-Bye" is a tough one for me too! Especially today being the one year anniversary of my mom dying from pancreatic cancer. Today's a tough one!
Again, Thank-you for the support, please know that it does mean the world to me!

With Kind Regards;
Cheryl

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