My Jayjay Died, Coping With the loss of a pet (or not!) Options

[cdboogie]

Hi, I'm new to this forum and I want to say first of all that I'm so sad for all of your precious fur-babies that have passed on! I went looking for a pet loss arena to join because I know that I'm not alone in my grief and that there are many people going through the same devastating thing! I want to talk about my baby to those who know how it feel's to have this special type of love for a pet and to be so loved by them in return only to lose them forever! Other pet owner's can relate to what I'm going through right now! My boyfriend was sad but he's over it and my grief is only just beginning! I'm really the only one grieving over her. She was my precious girl!
My sweet beautiful JayJay died on Feb. 28th, 2004 after only a four day illness and my heart is shattered! I had never even heard of Cardiomyopathy, never mind experience it so tragically! She wasn't even six years old! I'm so sad I just want to die!
I don't want to stop crying, you know? I want to grieve for the rest of my life. I want to scream, kick my feet, and cry uncontrollably over her forever and never stop. It seems as if it would be disrespectful to her memory if I stopped being sad. Like how much I grieve equals how much I love her. If I stop grieving I stop loving and missing her. Does that make sense? I was wondering if anyone else ever experienced this?
Thank-you all !

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[Libertybelle]

(((((((( hugs )))))))))) to you and sympathy for your loss. We just put our baby (above) down yesterday - she was fine Sunday and now she's gone. I really do understand how you feel in that respect. Of course you want to cry and grieve, that is so normal. JayJay had a beautiful life with you, even if it was short. You know in your heart you loved her and gave her all the tenderness you could. There's nothing wrong with crying over it until it stops hurting so much. If that takes a week or a month or a year, so be it. It will take as long as it takes, you can't rush it or expect it to stop any time soon. I just found this forum yesterday and it really does help to read the other peoples stories -- we are all experiencing the same hurt and pain as you are. We DO understand - and we all want acknowledgement that our pets were valuable and worth remembering and talking about. I hope that your pain will ease a little, day by day, until you can think of your sweet JayJay and smile - not cry anymore. Until then, my thoughts, prayers and good wishes are with you. I am so sorry!
lori