Second Guessing Options

[margo]

All I ever do anymore is second guess my decision to have my cat Ashley put to sleep. The vet told me his liver and spleen were eaten up with tumors, which sounded so scary to me. He said with chemo he might conceivably have another 6 months or more. I thought it would't be worth the unpleasantness of the chemo. But now I think, damn, I could have had another 6 months with him! Maybe I didn't give him enough credit, maybe he could have come through it all right.

I would choose life for him next time. I can't shake the feeling that my decision was too hasty and panicky.

[Ann H]

Dear Margo, I do not think your mind was so upset that you made an unfair or irrational decision. I believe you felt with all your heart that it was the best thing to do. I do understand all the guilt and doubts about the decisions each of us had to make. Having to do so under pressure just seemed to make matters worse.

I'm sure your Ashley still knew how much you loved him. He knew you took him from a horrible life and gave him love and food and took care of his needs. I know he had to have felt so loved and wanted when you took him in. I think they know when we have to take them to the vet's to get them well. I believe they still feel surrounded by our love even though they might not understand what is going on.
Love, Ann