Second Guessing Options

[margo]

All I ever do anymore is second guess my decision to have my cat Ashley put to sleep. The vet told me his liver and spleen were eaten up with tumors, which sounded so scary to me. He said with chemo he might conceivably have another 6 months or more. I thought it would't be worth the unpleasantness of the chemo. But now I think, damn, I could have had another 6 months with him! Maybe I didn't give him enough credit, maybe he could have come through it all right.

I would choose life for him next time. I can't shake the feeling that my decision was too hasty and panicky.

[kimberlyheide]

Margo,

Your Ashley and Bubba had almost all the same symptoms. I have been meaning to send you an email because I understand everything you are going thru. I had to take Bubba into exploratory surgery because he was getting sicker and we had thought it was only an infection. When the vet called me and told me Bubba had tumors on his spleen and kidneys, I had to let him go. To wake him up from the surgery would have been torture for him, he would have never recovered. I regret the fact that I didn't go to the vets office while he was under and hold him while the doctor gave him the shot. I had that choice. I just didn't think it was necessary since he was asleep already. I loved that cat so much for 14 1/2 years and it hurts so bad...As he was becoming sicker he was beginning to disassociate himself from me and that really hurt too. He was always my best buddy that slept with me, and followed me where ever I was in the house. When I was sick he never left my side, he was just an awsome guy! If you ever need to talk to somebody please PM or Email me.. I understand your grief

Kim