My 4th Day Without Teddy Options

[rsmiller]

Well, today will be the 4th day without Teddy. The past few days have been so tough for the whole family, but I do think things are starting to get a little better. I think getting out of bed in the morning is the hardest. It is such a disappointment to get up and see once again that Teddy isn't here. Although I am beginning to believe that in spirit he is always with us, sometimes we really can feel his presence. I guess that makes sense though, he is a part of us, so he will always be with us. I know this might sound strange, but I woke up at 5:00 yesterday morning, thinking of Teddy and crying, of course. I went and laid on the couch in the family room. My daughter had left a stuffed horse toy on the floor. It's one of those toys that if you squeeze the ear, it makes a galloping sound and the sound that a horse makes. That toy started making sound on it's own. It has never done that, you have to squeeze the ear to get it to work. I really do believe that it was Teddy trying to tell me that he is o.k. I hope that doesn't sound crazy, but I have to believe that. I want to thank everyone here for all of the support and understanding that you have been giving me. It has really helped me get through the last few days.

[Pamela]

You are still in the beginning stages of your great loss. You know what? I had one of my great nephews toys in the back of my car,,,,it would keep going off, I could hear it going off in my car as I slept in my room...was the strangest thing and it did cross my mind ......Moose?
It is a hard journey through grief and loss as you struggle to accept it. I honestly could not get off my couch for many many weeks, I never slept in the bedroom again....and moved from that home..
During those first several weeks I just wanted to speed the process up in anyway I could, I just wanted that emptyness to leave me. Now that I look back, I grieve for myself too, that poor girl that lost the most precious thing in her life, the deep agony she felt that could only be expressed in unledgeable groans..agony so deep. So, I can tell you now having walked thourgh the fire that it will get tolerable, and yes you will always miss them deeply, I learned the lesson of how they are part of our spirt our mind and our soul, that can never be taken away from us. Pamela