Odd Shift In Feeling Options

[Steph]

I've had a strange shift in my feelings towards Luba. She feels as though she is nearer to me, and yet further at the same time. It's hard to put it into words. It's as though she's looking on, watching from somewhere very close, yet the things about everyday life with her are fading. It seems as though I've adapted to not having her around, and yet she is still so much a part of me.

I'm glad that it feels this way.

[Steph]

Kathleen, the healing seems to come in installments. Strangely, I had an extremelly bad turn just before things started really improving. Yes, you'll get there too.

Caroline, I did the whloe thing with the day annivesary for about six months. Every Thursday it was "she collapsed on this day x number of weeks ago" Saturdays were the worst because "she died x number of weeks ago". When I started to forget the annivesaries I first felt very guilty, but that passed away too. I still sometimes think of my Luba on Saturdays at noon, but I honestly can't even say how many weeks ago it was, and often I don't think about it. Month anniversaries are still biggies though. I always get sad. I guess that too shall pass.

Thank you both for telling me that I've helped you. I always hoped that SOMETHING good must come from this.