I Want Him Back Options

[sammysmom]

My poor baby Sammy was run over by a car Wed. morning. I feel like it's all my fault...I let him slip out of the door. It still feels like a horrible nightmare. I can't sleep. It was just so sudden...he gets out and 20 min later he's dead. I want to go take a sleeping bag and sleep in the yard by his grave. It's cold and raining outside and I don't want him to be alone. But I know that that isn't practical.

I put some bright yellow flowers on his grave...they reminded me of what a shining spirit he had. I also hung a white cross on the fence above his grave. I have 3 other dogs and Sammy was the link that connected them all. Now that he's gone I don't know how they'll act. I can't get them to eat their food.

I rescued my little angel from the SPCA. I had never seen an Italian Greyhound before and I thought he looked weird. I was so used to owning little furballs like Pomeranians. But he had such a lively spirit that I just had to take him. That was the best decision I ever could have made.

He loved to curl up on my legs under a blanket because he was always cold. He loved chasing his sister Lola around the couch in circles. He was the one that never left my side...even curling up on the floor next to the bathtub when I'd take baths. I truly don't know how I'm going to make it through all this pain.

I have always had several pets but this is the first one to pass away who was truly mine. The pain is unbearable. I think the worst part is that I'm 4 mos. pregnant and I can't imagine my baby not getting to meet Sammy. He would've loved the baby.

I guess that's all I can say for now. I need to stop writing before I upset myself to badly and make myself sick. I love you Sam.

[Ann H]

Hi, I just wanted to say once again I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful baby Sammy. I cried even hard when I read you wanted to take a sleeping bag and sleep by his grave. It made me want to wrap my arms around you like a mother would and comfort you. Yet no words could ever take away the pain you feel. Only time will lessen the pain so you will be able to bear it and continue living. It is so hard to be without our babies and the tears continue to come months later for most of us. Keep coming and posting about your baby and all your thoughts. Maybe you can lure your other 3 babies with something they really love. Most of us have had trouble with our other babies eating too.
Hugs, Ann