Lacy, Missing You.... Options

[drifty1027]

I had to write this to you because I too am going through the hardest time right now. My baby of 14 years got really sick the weekend of Feb. 5th.
When I took her to the vet on Monday a.m., he took blood and gave her
fluids because she hadn't eaten in 2 days. When I got the results back on Wed., the vet told me she was in kidney failure. Her BUN was 210, normal
was 30. We tried for the next 10 days to give fluids in the hope that this
would work and get her kidneys functioning again. The BUN number did
not change enough to indicate that the fluids were helping. I too had to make that final decision to have her put down. We buried her the next day on our land. It has been a week now and I look for her everyday to come and meet
me or be at the foot of the bed where she slept. I could not stay in the
room when the vet gave her the injection. I feel that I betrayed her but
people told me that would not be how I wanted the last time to see her be.
I know I did what was right for her because she was sick and had stopped eating the last 4 days and would throw up after drinking water but I miss her
so bad. I think I do o.k. for a while then the tears start flowing all over again.
I too wait for the day when we cross the Rainbow Bridge together. God bless my little girl.
I miss you
Lacy J
Nov. 1990 - Feb. 2005
Julie

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[drifty1027]

To Ann, Jan , Marcia and everybody else at LS,

Thank you for all your wonderful responses......it is so comforting to
know that there are others out there like myself and that I am not
alone. As I told my husband last night, I had no idea that it would
hurt this bad. I did go to the Dr. and he told that I do need to go
through the grieving process as like with any death. I knew I couldn't
keep her forever and that we did what we had to do but the pain
sometimes is so unbelievable. I know I will be o.k. in time but for right
now, as you all know to well, the tears flow. One thing I am thankful
for is that my husband had to have surgery the day after we put Lacy
down and I have been able to be off work to be with him. I don't think
I wouldhave been able to be around people right away. I go back to work
on Monday, maybe that will help to take my mind off things. Thanks again
for all your hugs......I need them. Julie