I Love You, Trevor Options

[Bobbie]

To my sweet, loving, bravest little dog in the world. To you, my Trevor,


Mommy still thinks about you every minute of every day and hopes that you are having the time of your life. I miss you my little hunky bunky and can't wait to be together again. Uh, oh, my eyes are leaking again. Time for you and me to go to bed.

Good night, my honey, my love, my everything!

XOMommyXO

PS: I LOVE YOU TREVOR!!!!!!!

[Gretta's Mom]

Bobbie

These are the EXACT words every one of us has in our hearts for our "disappeared" loved ones. And my eyes are leaking again, too. I guess this part will never stop. Would we really want it to?

Gretta dn Rufus's mom

[Gretta's Mom]

Hi Dreamer's mom

I want you to know that I, MR RUFUS, care about dear Trevor. Remember, I can see him! He's doing great - except he's getting on a couple of dogs' nerves always bragging about his mom. If you're anything like MY mom, you're the greatest.

ROOF ROOF RUFUS

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, just stopping by to say hello and to let you know you're in my thoughts and prayers. I hope today is being kind to you and your little Dreamer. May Trevor's and all of your beloved companions' love bring a comfort to your heart.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Bobbie]

Dear Moon_Beam,

Thank you for your kind words and checking in with me. However, as much as I am loving Dreamer (and he really is a good dog), the pain of losing Trevor is still very acute and crushing. I do have Chronic Clinical Depression and I'm sure that doesn't help, but this pain and loneliness is unending. My eyes are really leaking now and I am so sad. I feel that others must be getting awfully sick of my not "moving on" at least a little bit, and I think I have, to the outside world, but when I'm alone and Trevor pops into my mind, things disintegrate into such sorrow. I'm talking with my counselor, so am trying all sorts of things to feel better and allow Trevor's love and compassion to reach my heart. Hope it happens soon.

Bobbie

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. Grieving can actually exacerbate clinical depression, which can prolong indefinitely the deep grief. The stress from grieving can actually change the chemical balance in our brains, sometimes leading to the need for temporary medicinal intervention. I'm glad you're being able to talk to your counselor, and trust that he / she is offering you support and encouragement.

Bobbie, with everything that you and your beloved Trevor went through, particularly during the last two months, it does not surprise me that you feel like you are "locked into" your grief. It is quite normal to experience a "collapse" both emotionally and physically as a caregiver, so please try to be gentle with yourself. Having to be "strong" to prevent others around you from being insensitive doesn't help. It is important that you give yourself the private time to let go - - to cry, to grieve. And I hope you will feel my arms reaching out to you, holding you, comforting you when you need to feel the touch of someone who knows what you are going through. And I hope you feel sweet Dreamer's comforting presence as well - - your beloved Trevor's and all of your companions' gift of love to you - - only you - - just for you.

I hope today is being kind to you and your little Dreamer, Bobbie. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and always look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Bobbie]

Dear Moon_Beam,

I do.

Bobbie

[Gretta's Mom]

Trevor and Bobbie

Gretta and Rufus and me, too, love you two.

G and R's mom

[Bobbie]

My sweet, sweet, little boy, Trevor:

An amazing thing is happening with me. I am loving you more and more every day even with you being in Heaven and me being on Earth! I love you so, so much, Mr. Trevor and thank you for all of your love. You aren't the BEST, you are PERFECT!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!

Have a good night, OK?

XOXOMommyXOXO

[Gretta's Mom]

HI Bobbie

I am SO glad your heart is finding a way to live and love Trevor more and more - yet not suffer so much. Gretta loves Trevor. They're best friends and she has a built-in LaSov "pack." I can see more and more every day that you and Trevor are two halves of the same whole.

Here's some sunshine for you today.

Gretta and Rufus's mom

[LoveMyMickey]

Dear Bobbie....I just want to say hi and I understand what you're saying about loving Trevor more every day.....I feel that way about Mickey, I love him more every day and miss him more. I get these leaky eyes all the time......May God Bless You, my friend...

LoveMyMickey

[Bobbie]

Thank you Gretta's Mom and Mickey's Mom,

I never really knew that I could have all this deep, continuing love for one of my companions. And I do miss him more every day. My eyes leak so much, many times I can't even see! except I always see Trevor.

Thank you both, for understanding and staying with me. I wish I were as good in return, but I assure you that, if you are not reading written words on this site, thousands are being said in my thoughts.

Why is it so hard to walk this path? When will my daily thoughts of Trevor lead to tears of happiness and gratefullness? Why, God, why?

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR! NOW AND FOREVER!


XOMommyXO

[Gretta's Mom]

Dear Bobbie

My heart is always breaking for you and Trevor. Im beginning to think that, unlike what many people experience, for some of us the "leaky eyes" are going to continue until we rejoin our beloveds. I think some of it might have to do with our basic dispositions - mostly inherited. 1% of the patients keep 100% of the anti-depressant producers in business! And some of it had to do with the support - or not - that we get from those who are important to us. Heap all this on the deep and crushing grief that everybody who has ever been loved by their spirit animal, and it's quite a mountain. Like you, I cry every day - not necessarily for Gretta specifically, but always for something related to her, Labs, dogs, animals. You know I'm a solo, so I don't have the support of a person a home, but on the other hand, I don't have the additional huge burden of having an unsupportive person around always chip-chip-chipping away at my heart. Or worse - a grown-up child!

Bobbie, you know I would take every bit of your heartache on myself if only I could. Never, ever forget that, no matter how much it hurts, love is the strongest force in the universe and WILL triumph in the end ..... even though it seems like we're already in eternity (and not in the right place). Trevor, Gretta round up the troops and altogether on signal, say, as loud as you can, "We Love you mommy/auntie. We've got your back. Together we WILL be happy! (Or wwe'll just bite everybody who gets in the way.)

Another day closer, Bob.

Gretta and Rufus's mom

[leejaye]

Dear Bobbie, The leaky eyes are a tribute to your shared love - your sadness is a monument to the world you and Trevor held between you, sometimes it's ok to cry and to be sad, I think it's like molten lava turning to stone - the heat of the emotion and feeling turning to solid stone that sets you and your love forever, this is transformation my friend, I think it's part of the gift our departed souls share with us, one that shapes and governs us forever. Please know I am thinking of you and Trevor and Dreamer and sending you huge hugs and snuggles today, Leejaye

[Misha's Mommy]

Bobbie,

I read some of what you went through with Trevor, and so much of it reminded me of the things I went through with my Misha. It was so heartbreaking to watch her go downhill, as I know it was for you. I'm so sorry - Trevor was a special boy and I know how much you loved him. I'm so sorry for what you are going through.

hugs,
misha's mommy

[Bobbie]

To my darling, sweet Trevor,

Today marks 11 weeks since you crossed the Rainbow Bridge into Heaven and my heart broke forever. I miss you with my whole heart and soul. You are my everything, even during those moments when I may not be actively thinking of you. You and I grew to be one with each other and that will always be.

Thank you, my Trevor, for the love you gave to me, your loyalty and confidence in me, humble me. All I ever wanted to do was make you happy and keep you out of pain. Thank you for trying to wag your tail.........

Trevor, there are no human words to describe my love and affection for you. Our love is an everlasting bond, to be finally sealed when we meet forever in Heaven. Until then, my love, you will always be remembered as the bravest little dog that ever lived and I will love you forever.

I'll come and visit you tomorrow, OK?

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!!!!!!!

XOMommyXO

[moon_beam]

Hi, Bobbie, just stopping by to say hello and to check in to see how you're doing. Thank you so very much for sharing your heart-filled love letter to your beloved Trevor with us. I know how the time seems to go when we are in deep grief. Eleven weeks is just one week shy of 3 months, and when we stop to take stock of how "life has gone on" it is yet another brutal awareness that our beloved companions - - your beloved Trevor - - is no longer physically with you.

The good news is that your beloved Trevor IS forever with you continuing to sharing your earthly journey - -each day - - every moment of every hour of every day - - just as he always has and always will. As he looks tenderly upon you he is saying, "good for you, mom - - so glad you got that chore taken care of. Didn't Dreamer like that special treat you gave him? Thanks mom, for taking him in. He really needs you. I am SO PROUD of you, mom. I love you, too, always and forever." And on it goes as you listen to his sweet Living Spirit in your heart.

I hope today is being kind to you, my friend. Please know you are frequently in my thoughts and prayers, Bobbie, and look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

[Gretta's Mom]

Dear Bobbie

Trevor loves you. Trevor is near you every day. Trevor reads your evey thought, feels your every breath. Every word you speak of him is beautiful music to his ears. Every tear you cry for him is another precious diamond in his heavenly necklace.

You're a courageous woman, my sister. You've opened your heart to the doggie that Trevor sent you - one who needed YOU and only YOU to give him the life Trevor wanted for him. Trevor knew you have the most patient heart in the world. He knows that you love animals - especially dogs - more than you love life itself. He knows that, to you, doggies ARE life. And they are.

Trevor - I don't have to tell you this, but your mom is THE best person in the world. Breathe down softly on her face and let her know that you are safe and happy and pain free and having fun and wagging your tail and playing - everything she wanted for you in this world and everything you're waiting to share with her in the Perfect World.

Trevor, you truly ARE forever.

Gretta's mom

[Bobbie]

Thank you Moon Beam and Gretta's Mom,

Moon Beam, how do you know exactly what the words are that will comfort and sustain those of us in such sorrow? Once again, you knew EXACTLY what Trevor was saying to me....it's like you've known him all your life. His words, "I love you." mean everything to me and always make my eyes leak, but in a sad yet comforting way. YOU know our love because you have experienced that kind of bond yourself and I thank you for taking the time to share with me. And help me every time I need it.

Gretta's Mom, I wish you had gotten to know Trevor sooner than you did. But I am so glad that you got to experience his gentle, silent, loving ways before he died. Thank you for ALWAYS supporting me, sharing the same thoughts and being the most wonderful sister in the world.

I love you both and so does Trevor!

XOXO
Bobbie

[Bobbie]

Dear, dear, darling Trevor,

I cannot come up with all the ways that I miss you. You were and are such a brave little man, enduring what most people could not, and doing it in such a way as to show me love and loyalty.

Trevor, no one can truly understand just how special you were to me and how gald I was to be the one to try and gve you one more pain-free and peaceful day. Oh, they can try and say they do, but unless they lived with a boy who's brain was beeing crushed inside his skull, feeling creeping crawling sensations on your head and neck, and having your spinal column (the bone) and the spinal cord slowly destroyed by constantly turgid spinal fluid grinding away every second of every day, then they don't. I give them credit for trying. But I watched you suffer some nights that would have made the strongest person in the world, jump off a building to relieve the pain. And all I could do was give you as many pain pills, sleeping pills, etc. that I could to finally send you into a deep sleep for a few hours. And I was there with you, every second, waiting for the medication to kick in or going to get more for you. WE sat in the pale light of one lamp, rather, I sat and you couldn't be still for more than a few seconds. I would tell you how much I loved you and what a good boy you were for putting up with everything; that this was not fair and I would stay with you every day of our lives. When you finally, lay down and started to close your eyes, I'd lie as close to you as I could, watching you the entire time. Wishing to God that this curse would be lifted from you - even given to me instead.

It's you and me, now, Trevor. My love notes and even my sad notes will be written in private. WE take up too much space here. So our journal will continue until we see each other again.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOXOMommyXOXO