Hi Everyone,

It's a year ago tomorrow that I made that horrible trip to the vet. I can't believe that a year has gone by already. It seems just like yesterday that I found this site and typed as my heart was breaking.

The pain is less and the tears come less frequently now but I miss my Megan so much. We still have not got another dog. Molly, our other golden, is so lonely and I hate to admit it, she is driving me crazy. She is always in my face wanting to play. I would love to get her a puppy but that just is not possible at the moment. With two kids, working fulltime, and it's freezing out (I live in Canada)....I just can't handle another dog. Maybe one day

I also have this fear that I will be disappointed in a new dog. Megan was very unique and I think that is a big part of what I'm missing. Molly is a great dog, and I do love her, but she is just a great dog. I guess you would have to have known Meg to understand what I'm trying to say. I don't want just another great dog but I want another unique- goofy- you're gonna love me dammit- kind of dog. I want another Megan and I know there will never be another Megan, maybe that is what is so hard. I don't know....

Anyways, thanks lightning-strike for being here when I really needed someone.

Tracey

Hi Tracey,

I am sorry to hear about your dear Megan. The only advice I can give you is that if/when you decide to get a new puppy, you cannot have any preconceived expectations with regards to the personality/demeanor of the little fur baby.

Unfortunately, it is like a roll of the dice when we get new members of our families. You have been lucky thus far, so i would not worry about bringing a new baby into the house, I would just remind you that your dear Megan resides with you eternally, however cannot be replaced. Love a new puppy for whatever he/she adds to your family, and continue to cherish the memory of your dear, departed love.

Brett

I am so sorry that your Megan has been gone for a year and I'm sure you still miss her so much. I am glad that you have Molly so your children don't miss out on a lot of love. Are the children old enough to play with her? My little Snookie has been gone 2 weeks today and it hurts so much.
Ann

I know what you're saying about Molly missing Megan. Bear misses Sonnie. They played rough together, even considering the huge size difference. Bear always took it easy on Sonnie, but Sonnie gave as good as he got. Sometimes he forgot that Bear outweighed him by 100+ pounds!! We never heard Bear be very vocal in his play until we got Sonnie. Akitas are not a vocal breed - when they bark or howl, you go running. Terriers, on the other hand, are very vocal. When we had the windows open on nice days, the neighbors could hear those two playing tug! It was pretty funny.

I've noticed that Bear doesn't go out back to go to the restroom unless one of us goes with him first. Rob said he hadn't noticed, but he just lets him out and goes back to doing whatever he was doing. I check after a couple of minutes to see if Bear's at the door. He's usually standing there, like he's waiting for Sonnie to come out too. His personality has changed too. He used to be aloof, but he's gotten rather needy. I know he wants a friend, but I'm not ready yet. Rob even commented about getting a puppy that we saw today. Out of the two of us, I'm the one who loves animals more, but Rob seems to need to have another dog in our home. I know I'd love it, but I can't seem to find the desire to get one. Eventually, we will but not now. I just hope he understands when I try to explain my feelings to him. He says he does. He still cries about Sonnie sometimes too.

Make sure you get a new furbaby for the right reasons. You have a lot to give another pet, but it has to be the right one. If you're like me, you'll know s/he is right when you see him/her. Make sure Molly gets along with the new addition before you bring him/her home. We'll take Bear with us when it's time to look, just like we did when we found Sonnie.

Good luck. I know it's a hard journey.

Hi Sweet Tracey & Family:

I remember when Ernestine was put to sleep on February 7, 2004, you were here for me, to help comfort Ben & I, over the loss of our sweet Ernie-Bird.............

So........................I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT IT'S BEEN ONE YEAR YESTERDAY THAT MEGAN HAS GONE TO RAINBOW'S BRIDGE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Really..............I just cannot believe (myself), how quickly time passes!!!!!!!! This puts it all into perspective!!!

Tracey..............there will never, ever be another Megan, and I KNOW THAT I'M NOT TELLING YOU SOMETHING THAT YOU ALREADY DON'T KNOW...............
Your sweet Meggers was extremely unique, BUT....................AS ARE ALL OF OUR SWEET FURKIDS!!! There is ALWAYS SOMETHING EXTREMELY UNIQUE ABOUT ALL OF THEM...........GIVEN A BIT OF TIME.....YOU KNOW????

I'll never find another Ernestine,.......(and, that's okay...............)

but, we found Ms. Lucy (another Tortie Calico) - age ?? 7, and Mr. Yoster (1/2 British Blue) - age ?? 8, from a shelter on March 7, 2004.................And, we LOVE THEM SOOOOOOO VERY, VERY MUCH......

Neither of them are like Ernie-Bird at all................these two precious babies were tortured HORRIBLY BY THEIR PRECIOUS "OWNER", AND I'LL TELL YOU..................JUST GIVE ME 5 MINUTES WITH THAT GUY!!!!!!!!!!!

We've had to work very hard with Lucy and Yoster to help them become "trusting", to the point where they are, right now.
That makes us feel just wonderful.............. To have both of their stress levels decrease like 60%???!!! TO US................THAT'S MAGIC!!!!!!!!!!

We're always here for you Tracey................as you were always here for me...............
You know that..................

Love, Denise, Ben, Ms. Lucy and Mr. Yoster xoxo