It's 6 months today since his passing, but it seems like only a few weeks since we last held our darling boy. Hopefully time may help ease the pain, but there is a hole in our hearts that can never be filled.

Starlight

Dear starlight, I am very sorry for your loss. Your little boy was so beautiful and he looks so happy in that photo you shared with us. I can only imagine how much you miss him. He was truly special and a beloved member of your family. Losing him in such a tragic way must have caused you so much pain. I know that nothing will ever bring him back, but have you considered maybe starting some sort of 'campaign' in your little boy's honor to help put a stop to those poison baits? You mentioned that this poison is very nasty and banned in most countries. There has to be another way to control the dingos and wild dogs. And from what you are writing it sounds like it could have happened to someone else. Maybe you think that you as one person can't make much of a difference, but these things usually start with one person, and then others join in, and then changes happen.

I hope that today is treating you kindly.

Hugs,
DannysMom

For some reason today has been particularly hard. Not a day goes but that I don't cry, and ache to hold my baby boy. A friend tells me that it takes 2 years before you can begin to feel normal again, but really I don't think I can take much more of this.

DannysMom, you are right, and I should be doing something to try and stop the 1080 baits. I've made contact with someone in New Zealand who has made a documentary about the poison there, and a group who are trying to get legislation passed in the US to have it totally banned (it already has very limited use there). There doesn't seem to be anyone fighting it here in Australia, although there are some trials going on with a different compound that is more humane, and has an antidote.

It's still so unbelievable that this could have happened to my own precious baby boy, who was so gentle and loving and full of life, and had never known a moments pain before. I miss him so very much.

Starlight

Hello Starlight

Count me in on anything to stop the horrible poison baits that took your baby. If they're banned in other countries, there's precedent.

Meanwhile, here's some soothing salve for your heart. Gretta (the kindest chocolate lab who ever lived) asked me to give it to you.

Gretta's mom

Starlight, I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time. It is only understandable why you feel this way, because your sweet little boy was taken from you in such a horrible, horrible way! When I read up on the 1080 baits I was just so shocked to read how much pain they cause and how agonizing the death is. It is incomprehensible to me how such things can be allowed. I'm glad to hear that you made contact with a person in New Zealand about this issue. Perhaps his documentary can be circulated in Australia. Could he put it on youtube? Maybe if there is more awareness of it then more people in Australia will try to fight it.

I looked at the picture of your little boy again, and my heart aches for you. What a sweet, happy little guy! You can just see how happy and sweet he was. My heart goes out to you, starlight. I hope you can find a measure of comfort in the sweet memories of your little boy. He will always live on in your heart.

Hi, Starlight, thank you so much for sharing with us how you're doing. I can feel the deep seering pain in your heart as you share with us the tragic events that claimed your beloved Baby Boy. Sometimes all we can do is try to focus our efforts in trying to ensure that a similar event does not happen to another companion or wildlife resident. Your beloved Baby Boy is so proud of you for reaching beyond your grief - - in this time of deepest grief - - for this purpose. You have my sincerest and deepest support of your efforts, and please do let us know how things go. Even if at this time regulations are not changed for whatever reason you will be planting the seed for future efforts that will, I am convinced, lead to victory. This will honor your beloved Baby Boy, although I know your heart will always be broken for the way in which he preceded you to the angels.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Starlight, and that you will have a peaceful evening. Thank you again so much for sharing your beloved Baby Boy with us. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Thank you everyone. I miss him so very much.

Starlight

Hi, Starlight, thank you so very much for sharing your beloved Spike's pictures with us. He is soooo sweet, and it is very obvious tha he knows he is loved and the center of your universe. Although he is no longer physically with you, this does not change, for his sweet Living Spirit is forever with you in your heart and your memories - - he is always a heartbeat close to you.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Starlight, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Spike's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Thank you again so much for sharing your beloved Baby Boy with us. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

The grief and regret is overwhelming, and I can't stop crying.

Starlight, my heart goes out to you. Your little boy was so precious. I hope this poem will bring you some comfort.

I'm Still Here

Friend, please don't mourn for me,

I'm still here, though you don't see.

I'm right by your side each night and day,

And within your heart I long to stay.


My body is gone but I'm always near,

I'm everything you feel, see or hear.

My spirit is free, but I'll never depart,

As long as you keep me alive in your heart.


I'll never wander out of your sight.

I'm the brightest star on a summer night.

I'll never be beyond your reach.

I'm the warm moist sand when you're at the beach.


I'm the colorful leaves when fall comes around,

And the pure white snow that blankets the ground.

I'm the beautiful flowers of which you're so fond,

The clear cool water in a quiet pond.


I'm the first bright blossom you'll see in the spring,

The first warm raindrop that April will bring.

I'm the first ray of light when the sun starts to shine,

And you'll see that the face in the moon is mine.


When you start thinking there's no one to love you,

You can talk to me through the Lord above you.

I'll whisper my answer through the leaves on the trees,

And you'll feel my presence in the soft summer breeze.


I'm the hot salty tears that flow when you weep,

And the beautiful dreams that come while you sleep.

I'm the smile you see on a baby's face.

Just look for me, friend, I'm everyplace!

i know how much you must be hurting.i miss my muppie so bad sometimes i think i cant go on.its terriable to lose something you love so much.my baby was murdered by the pound while i was in jail and unable to save him.i know how much it hurts to think that ur baby suffered.i know all to well how that feels.its torture.i am so sorry for your loss.

You know you read about about "heartache" and being "heartbroken", and I thought it was just a way of describing the emotional loss.

But my Heart. Aches. It's a physical pain, and it wont go away. I've taken to sleeping with a hot water bottle held to my chest, to try and ease the pain.

God I miss my baby boy.

Thanks for listening
Starlight

Hi, Starlight, thank you so very much for sharing with us how you're doing. Yes, heartache is very real physical pain. I hope holding the hot water bottle to your chest at night is comforting to you. The pain of physical separation is very real, and it is helpful to hold something when the ache to hold our beloved companions is overwhelming. Some folks find it comforting to hold a blanket, a toy, a collar - - something - - that belongs to their beloved companion. This helps to bridge the connection with our beloved companions and soothe the physical pain during the adjustment journey.

However, if you are having heart / chest pain you may want to consult with your doctor.

I hope today is treating you kindly, Starlight, and that you will have a very peaceful evening blessed with your beloved Spike's sweet Living Spirit to comfort you. Thank you again so much for sharing your beloved Baby Boy with us. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I look forward to knowing how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Starlight, I am so sorry that you are hurting so much, and I want to add to moon_beam's advice to see a doctor and get a check-up. You could really be having some heart problems. Grief wears us down so much physically and emotionally, and you lost your little boy in such a traumatic way.