Dearest Trevor,

Mommy has't been very good at writing these past few days, but you are never out of my thoughts and heart.

Please welcome Tucker to the Prefect World (Heaven) tomorrow. His mommy says he's suffered enough and it's time for him to come to Heaven and feel good again. I told her I would let you (AND ALL YOUR FRIENDS) know.

Thanks so much, my love!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Hello my wonderful, darling little man!

Auntie Cindy got to see your collage today and we both cried. She misses you as much as I do. And she was one of the only people that saw who you really were and what you truly needed and she fought HARD for you. And that's how you ended up with me!

Things have been HOT and budy around home. Today it was 104 degrees downtown and that is not with the heat index. Luckily all you boys are under shade trees, so the sun doesn't beat down as heavily. And, as of today, every one of your Beanie dogs are clean! We know that will never happen again, huh? I wrote to Grandmom and Grandpop and they are going to come out and visit on your one-year anniversary, too. Then, when we are finished with our visiting, we'll go get a bite to eat - just like last year. Grandmom was even nice enough to offer me a bit of your hair to replace what I lost. She is such a good person.

Trevor, there are more than a millions ways to thank you for living with me and loving and trusting me as much as you did and still do. But I don't think there are that many different words in the English language to express them all. So I repeat myself so often and hope you don't mind. If I could, I would say "I love you, Trevor!" constantly, from the time I get up until I finally close my eyes. About that time someone would report me, so I will continue to say those very special words in my mind and heart. You know they are permanently etched on my heart - never to wear off.

You know, as the song says, "You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy when skies are gray. You'll never know, dear, how much I LOVE YOU - please don't take my sunshine away." (and you never have!)

Good night my sweet boy.
I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Bobbie

Another WONDERFUL love letter to Mr Trevor Forever! He loves you, you love him - so do I! We're off to see the wizard.

XOXO

Gretta and Rufus's mom

Hi Sweet Trevor!

I'm just stopping by to give you lots of and to say you have one of the BEST mommies ever!

"I LOVE YOU TREVOR - FOREVER"


LoveMyMickey

Hello my sweetheart and my best friend,

Mommy is very, very exhausted today and quite sad (perhaps overwhelmed it a better word). But I want you to know that, no matter how mommy is feeling, all she has for you is LOVE, LOVE, LOVE and more LOVE.

Trevor, you are absolutely the BEST ever, in my life.

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!
XOMommyXO

Dearest Trevor,

Mommy loves you more today than ever before and cannot wait until tomorrow when I will love you even more!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Hi Trevor-Forever

Could your auntie ask you a favor? Please round up the gang and welcome into the perfect World a beutiful white fluffy dog (on earth here we call them Samoyeds) named Zusha. She's up there with you guys and already knows it, but could you tell her Gretta's mom has met her mom and we're trying to help each other carry our heavy hearts. Even though we KNOW we'll be together again one day.

Thanks a lot, Sweetheart. Your mommie is our hero - her love for you is unequalled on this earth. Sometimes her heart cries so many, many tears for you. She needs some Trevor-rays to help us help her, OK?

Auntie and Rufus love you, Trevor-boy!

Good Morning my precious little boy,

You know one day does not pass that my love for you doesn't grow by leaps and bounds. When I look at your pictures or read someone's message to you, my heart and soul swell with pride. Other than being a fighting dog, you had one of the most awful lives I can imagine on this earth. Discarded during middle life, having to fight your way to survive for who knows how long?, in more and more pain that you did not understand, finally rescued by someone who loved you dearly, but unfortunately couldn't keep you, gave you to a rescue group that just made your life more miserable until FINALLY you met Auntie Cindy who fought to bring you to us! And what a confusion that was in the beginning, too! Luckily, mommy and daddy are so confident in the Matthew J. Ryan Veterinary Hospital at the University of Pennsylvania in Philadelphia that we got you up there as quickly as we could. I tell you, they are the BEST in this region and I'm glad we only have to drive 3 hours to get there. And, on top of that, you found the most compassionate neurosurgeon ever!

Honey, I don't know why I still concentrate so much on the past and the pain you suffered almost every day. I guess because, for us humans, there isn't much tangible to concentrate on for the future. Oh, yes, we talk about being together again forever and that is simply wonderful. But I don't have any "part" of you that I can hold on to and say, 'This is Trevor!" I still haven't found your hair and we buried everything else YOU loved with you. So, mom's just being a big cry-baby today. I guess I'll call my leaky eyes, Trevor's, because they really don't leak for anyone else. (Well, several friends on LS, that's true.)

Somehow, I have to come up with the right combination of words so that others will come as close as possible to knowing what a PURE Spirit you are. You go beyond a Spirit dog/animal (for me). You were the definition of "pure" and I think that is rare, too. Yes, I was busy with you almost 24/7 and even left the house while you would be sleeping for awhile, to get a little break or do some chores, but I would trade ALL of that in a heartbeat just for a glimpse of how healthy and happy you are right now. All my human eyes got to see was a totally limp Trevor-body at the end - didn't move, didn't flinch, nothing.

I just seem too needy and that is not fair to you or anyone else on this site. All they read is how sad I am and that has to get terribly old after awhile. So I need to concentrate on YOU, YOU, YOU! I guess I'll dig out my old Thesaurus and look up all sorts of new words that come as close as possble in describing how awesome you were on Earth and are in Heaven. OK?

Meanwhile, hope you and Hermy and Mickey and Gretta are showing Tucker and Zusha all around and letting them in on some of the "secrets" of Heaven!

I LOVE YOU, DARLING TREVOR!!!!!
XOMommyXO

Oh no, Bobbie. We definitely DO NOT get tired of hearing how sad you are and how you are struggling to find the right words to express what Trevor is to you. We love you. We love Trevor. We love ALL the darling animals in heaven waiting for us - even though our human future doesn't seem so hot - well, right NOW it does but you know what i mean.

XOXO Gretta and Rufus's mom

Hi Bobbie,

I agree with Gretta's Mom, we do NOT get tired of hearing how sad you are. I understand how hard it is to find the right words to express our love for our little soul-mates. You write what and when you feel like it and we'll all try to comfort one another.

Bobbie, I want to thank you and Gretta's Mom for mentioning the book, "I'll See You in Heaven". I read it and really enjoyed it, even though I got leaky eyes.



Hello My Sweet Little Friend Trevor!!!

You understand how much your mommy loves you and treasures the small amount of time you had together, don't you? A big "YES"???....Hmmmm..I thought so......Trevor, gather ALL your friends together, Gretta, Mickey, Hermy, DannyBoy, and all the newbies and send down some extra love rays to your mommy, okay? She is the BEST!!!!

I LOVE YOU TREVOR FOREVER!

LoveMyMickey

Good Morning my sweet boy!

I hope you had a good night and are having a wonderfully terrific day today. Mommy read the supportive messages from Auntie Jeanne and LoveMyMickey. Aren't they just amazing? Some people never quit on you. THEY are your true friends. Just like you and I never quit on each other!

I will write a nice note in awhile, honey. I have some phone calls to make and then I have to decide how to stand on my own two feet. (yes, Trevor, us humans only have TWO feet - go figure! )

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Bobbie, forgive me for shortening your post in my quoted reply. I am so sorry that your little Trevor suffered so much. He was a beautiful little boy! It's okay to be needy, it must be so hard for you to move beyond Trevor's suffering here on earth. I too wished I could have done more for my Danny boy. I felt so guilty for a long time in not being able to control his weight better which led to his congestive heart failure. But when I look at his picture on my desk he seems to say to me:"I'm okay now, Mom. It's alright." I'm sure Mr. Trevor would tell you the same thing. He is restored to his former youthfulness in the company of the angels as moon_beam would say.

Dear Danny's Mom,

Thank you for your kind and gentle response to my silent plea. I just wish that everyone could have known Trevor for even just a few minutes. That's all it took to fall in love with him and vice versa. And I'm sure Danny was the same way. Cat, dog, bunny - it makes no difference. But again, thank you for understanding and not judging at all. Have a Happy 4th!

Dearest, dearest Trevor,

Oh, honey how I miss your warm smell and the softness of your hair. Cousin Gretta was the kindest dog. You were the purest one. If only I had known how much I would miss you once you departed the earth, I would have hugged you more, given you more treats (!) and stayed with you more. But we don't know these things, even though we've been through them time and time again. "But this time is going to be different." we say. Is it really?

Your one year anniversary countdown has begun for me. 19 days. This time last year I was finally beginning to realize that "the end" was rearing the tip of it's ugly reality. I had not asked "the question" yet, but I had already been on Lightning-Strike for quite awhile, receiving support and reassurances from so many good people. You were requiring more and more pain medication and the quality of your days was just starting to slip away. You still got up when daddy came home and stayed up for the evening. Now all the memories of those last 19 days have come flooding back to me. The look in your eyes (so sad, so sad) when you soiled yourself on the scatter rug. All I could do was pick you up, which you NEVER let me do, and cradle you in my arms, swaying from side to sde and telling you that you were such a good boy and that everything was going to be fine. The two nights of your Cheyne-Stokes breathing that had me terrified and yet hoping that your breathing would just stop so that you could go to sleep forever. Nope - you were destined to feel and suffer the whole nine yards. But you did it all with the dignity of a King and the gentleness of a Lamb and the love of a Dog.

I love you so, so much, Mr. Trevor. I always will, day and night, 24/7, more dogs or no more dogs. YOU are the #1. Please accept this pet on your head and kiss on your nose like we always used to do, and have a peace-filled night, my love.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOmommyXO

Oh Bobbie

This is the saddest post I have read. Please accept the love and comfort of a sister who only saw Mr Trevor-Forever once but whose life was forever changed by him - the purest dog who ever lived.

I love you Bob.

Gretta's mom

Oh Bobbie, your letter to Trevor brought tears to my eyes. I know it's so hard reliving those last days. I wish I could have met Trevor, but there's hope that someday I will.......May God Bless and comfort you.....

((((HUGS))))

LoveMyMickey

Hello my little love of my life!

I sure am glad that it is cooler in Heaven than here on earth. Today it was 100 degrees and by Saturday it's supposed to be 106! You know where your mommy is going to be - in the house except when the boys have to go outside. They don't even like the heat! And tonight there are fireworks all around us, including an occasional gunshot, so we are all in for the night. I hope you don't mind these little "news reports". They are one way that I can keep you alive in my memory by sharing them with you. I don't wonder what you would do because I already know and that would be redundant.

Trevor, today is day 18 and in a couple days I will have asked "the question" and gotten "the answer" and "made the plans". I don't know if it's harder the first time or having to relive things in your mind because the thoughts of what might have gone differently creep in front and center. And I have plenty of those. I just miss you so much. My heart is still shredding and my soul crushed under the continued knowlege that we won't see each other again until it's my "turn". It was almost my turn years before we met. Thank God that I survived and got better - for you to come and bless my life.

I love you, Trevor, in a way that I have never loved any human or creature in my life. It came totally naturally, too. I knew that Rudy had arranged for you to come and be with me. I just didn't know that you needed help. Rudy knew that, of course, because I had helped him, too. All I want to do is sit and think of you and feel the love and trust we have for each other. But society doesn't let many people do that, so I go on with "ADL"s (activities of daily living).

Have a wonderful night in Heaven with each and every one of your relatives and many, many friends - new and old. I'll check in agan tomorrow. You can count on that.

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

Hey Trevor-Forever

Guess what? I just talked to your mom! Here I was just about ready to type your name and the phone rang and it was her. She's HOT cuz it's gonna be over 100 in your old town. Glad you're in that Perfect World? Please send down lotsa "cool" love rays to her today.

Rufus says hello (actually he's sleeping right in front of the fan) to you and Gretta and the rest of the pack.

Your Aunt J

Hi, Bobbie, stopping by to see how you're doing and to bask in the warmth of your and your beloved Trevor's eternal love story. I truly cannot read your love letters to him without a mist coming to my eyes and a lump forming in my throat, all the while feeling a glow in my heart sharing your and your beloved Trevor's eternal love. Thank you so much for sharing your beloved Trevor with us.

I am so glad that your Grandmom and Grandpop are coming to visit for your and your beloved Trevor's one year angel-versary, and that your Grandmom will bring some of your beloved Trevor's fur for you to have. This is such good news - - I am sooooo happy for you!!!

Dear Bobbie, I truly wish there could be a way for your heart to find some peace about Trevor's earthly journey. By the time you embraced him into your heart, he had already experienced so many tragic events, and his medical health was in serious decline. Your heartbreak over his mistreatment and abandonment and lack of proper medical care prior to his coming into your heart is palpable - - and very understandable. Yet, there is a beauty to the transformation that occurred in his life because of you: He finally had someone who loved him beyond all measure for all eternity. When love has this deepest heart and soul connection, one can endure the most horrible physical trauma - - for they know they are LOVED and WANTED and NEEDED. You, Bobbie, gave this precious gift to your beloved Trevor, and I know he so much wants you to think of him now being happy and healthy, young and full of energy -- because YOUR love for him has given him this eternal gift. He couldn't share it with you during his earthly journey because what makes him Trevor was confined to a painful, frail physical shell. But deep inside all the while YOU brought life to him - - his Spirit was dancing and jumping for joy - - he just wasn't physically able to show you. I hope and pray that somehow, some day, you will be able to see him in your heart and memories in this way, Bobbie, for this is how your beloved Trevor so much wants you think of him now.

I hope today is treating you, Stan, your precious Dreamer and Kelly, and all your family kindly, Bobbie. Thank you so very much for sharing your and your beloved Trevor's beautiful love story with us. Please know you and all your family are in my thoughts and prayers, and that I always look forward to sharing your news and your and your beloved Trevor's beautiful love letters.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Dearest, dearest, darling Trevor,

Today brings us another 24 hours closer to your one-year anniversary (17 days) and it seems like a stealthy darkness/sadness is trying to cover more and more of my (happy) memories of you. Probably no one else comes up to an anniversary like that, but I don't know how else to describe it. It certainly isn't a day that I am looking forward to with happy anticipation and joy. Although I do remind myself that it was the day you were finally and totally PAIN FREE for the first time in God knows how long. THAT we must celebrate.

It is so hot here that I cannot even go outside long enough to get to your grave to visit for a minute. I might try tomorrow. It's only supposed to be 104 degrees. At least the ground is keeping your remains and memories cool and Heaven has got to be a piece of cake. But your pictures are all over the place and I read your Life Lessons every day and we have A/C so you're cool here, too. Oh Trevor, what I would give to be able to hold you in my arms again and feel your softness against my cheek. I still cannot find your baggie of hair and even though your Grandmom offered to share some that she has, I feel badly taking some from her. She did so much for you and loved you so much and yet has so little to remind her of you. She is one of your special angels.

I don't know where to begin to thank you for all you gave me and taught me, and even made me go through in the middle of the night. Every single thing you did was out of innocence or pain and either way your actions were always 100% honest. You never held a grudge although you were terrified of the vets and groomer at the Manchest Vet Hospital. (I hope they get shut down soon.) THAT is one of my biggest regrets - taking you to be tortured every 10-12 weeks for a sedation grooming. I am incredibly sorry for that and have truly learned from my mistake. Matter of fact, I fired our current groomer because she didn't like Kelley! I can never look at a package of Puppy Potty Pads without so fondly remembering the hundreds and hundreds we put down and cleaned up for you. At the time we weren't the most pleased parents about doing it all the time and daddy compalined a LOT. But it certainly wasn't your fault that your brain could no longer help you control your bladder/bowels! And I will also never be able to hold a marrow bone for another doggie to chew on without thinking of you the entire time. That first bone was a challenge, but it wasn't long before you had me totally trained to scoop out the dry marrow from the day-old bone, every last bit of it. You'd lick it off my fingers and wait for me to find more. (!)

Honey, I DO miss you with all my heart, soul, mind and body. I wish I could even just see you romping so happy and so freely now. But even that has to stay in my mind's eye for now. I am just so thankful to the Almighty for granting Rudy's wish that you come to live with us. Please have a peace-filled night with all your buddies, relatives, friends, newbies and actually every creature in Heaven. I know you can do that because my mom told me that there is no "time" in Heaven! Lucky you!

I LOVE YOU, TREVOR!
XOMommyXO

HI Trevor

This is for your mom: Bobbie, I sort of know what you mean about as the first anniversary marches forward in combat boots, it puts a shadow over any good memories that have come alive during the awful year before. I know I'm afraid I have forgotten - maybe forever - most of the good times Gretta and I had here on earth. What is with me every moment of every day is a big warm feeling in the heart - a "bundle" of every good thing Gretta and I did or had on earth - mixed with instant leaky eyes, which now don't seem to have many words except "I miss her SO much."

Trevor - This one's for you: One of your anniversary presents got mailed to here yesterday. It's something little. I hope you and your mom and dad like it.

XOXO

Aunt Jeannie and Rufus