My cat of 12 years passed this morning about 2 am. She was showing signs of being sick a few hours before. I thought maybe she was just a bit under the weather. I gave her some milk and figured i'd check in on her and if she was still down i'd take her to vet early morn. After about 2 hours and checking on her often. She passed away. Right now i'm in such a dark place. I feel sooo bad for not taking her to the vet when she first looked sluggish. I miss her already.. Was one of the toughest things i had to go threw. I never thought this far ahead or ever of her passing. My best friend is gone and i'm having a really ruff time. I'm trying to keep my head up but .... it hurts alot.

I am so sorry for the loss of your cat.

We all know what you're going through and this soon after the loss, not even 10 hours ago, it's only normal to doubt that you did everything you could for her. The "what ifs" will drive you crazy if you let them; it sounds to me like your cat may have just passed away due to age. It doesn't sound like she was in distress or hurting... she passed away in the home of her person, warm and safe, and when you think about it we should all be so luck to have our passings happen that way.

We're all here for you... we're a family here, bound together by a love of animals and the pain their passing causes, and we're here to hold your hand in your grief journey.

Welcome to the family, and please let us know how you're doing... when you're feeling up to it we'd all love to see some pictures of her.

-Clay

C.Kidd, I am so very sorry for your loss. I agree with Clay, her passing sounds very peaceful. I know it doesn't comfort you right now but maybe later it will. If she passed within hours or even a day of acting sluggish, there probably wasn't a whole lot you could have done other than stressing her out going to the vet. She lived her last hours in the best place to her - the only place she knew to be safe. You did the right thing, I think. But guilt, unfortunately, is a natural part of this awful process, it seems. We all doubt ourselves no matter the final circumstances of our babies' passing.
My thoughts are with you. My heart goes out to you as you begin this difficult journey.
-Donna

Hi, C Kidd, please permit me to add my sincerest sympathies in the loss of your beloved companion. Losing a beloved companion is never easy regardless of the circumstances or how long we have been blessed with the privilege of their company.

Both Clay and Donna have so eloquently shared with you what is in my heart also, and I just want to add my affirmation to what they have already written. This grief journey is a one day at a time journey that is filled with many ups and downs twists and turns and turnarounds - - emotions that are often described as being on a nightmare roller coaster ride. One of the many things to remember is that you are not alone in your journey. Each of us are here for you for as long and as often as you need us.

C Kidd, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

My sincere condolences for your sudden loss. I know the shock of such a sudden death is heartwrenching.

Ty all for your kind words. I will be having her cremated today. I pray she's not disapointed and me and knows how much I loved her. I haven't been to sleep yet. My mind is really wandering. Hard to lay my head down without her. She was very talkative. Every night she curls up next to me in bed. We always have conversations. She would answer me as if she understood my every word. I miss my baby, I'm so hurt right now.

I think we all know that feeling, all too well... after the loss of such a beloved companion it's hard to take an interest in anything else.

You need to make sure you're taking care of yourself. Grief over the loss of a pet is a stressful event and it takes a tremendous toll on you, both physically and mentally. Even if it's just little things, make sure to eat and drink, and as hard as sleep may be you want to try your best to get some, even if it's only for a couple of hours. You're going through a very difficult time and you want to make sure to keep your strength up.

We're all here for you during this time.

Acually talking to people who understands the pain has made things a little easier. It's a little different at home right now. I am taking her to be cremated in a few hours. She was an indoor cat so I want to be able to honor her by keeping her at home. I thought long and hard burying her. It just didn't feel right. Now I just gotta get up the strengh to acually take her to vets office. Wish I were dreaming.... Still trying to wrap my head around the fact that she's not here anymore.

C Kidd,

I'm so sorry for the painful loss of your precious kitty. Your pain is still so very raw - you will probably have trouble sleeping and eating for a while yet. Just remember to breathe, take deep breaths, and take each moment as it comes. Keep visiting this forum as often as you can for support -- it's important that you don't feel alone during this painful grief journey. We are all here for you.

Thinking of you as you take her to the vets office. I know this is so very hard for you. But your love for her will give you the strength you need.

Hang in there. Cheryl x

Hi, C Kidd. I can empathize with you about taking your precious kitty to the vet for cremation. It does seem so "final" - - letting go of their PHYSICAL body. That is so very hard, for we live in a physical world - - sight, hearing, touch, taste, and smell. When our precious companions precede us to the angels, our relationship with them does not end - - it just transitions to a different dimension. But this transition, known as the grief journey, is a very painful one to travel - - both physically and emotionally.

C Kidd, I hope that you will be able to get your beloved companion's ashes back soon. For me, getting my furkids' ashes back home where they belong has always been comforting to me. Perhaps in time you will be able to think of a special memorial you'd like to do for your precious kitty - - be it a picture scrapbook or video / slideshow, or perhaps a donation in your kitty's name to your vet's office or the local humane shelter, or whatever you might think of that would bring joy to your heart.

C Kidd, each of us here does understand the emptiness you are feeling, the empty home, empty arms, empty heart. We are here for you whenever you need us, whenever you are up to sharing with us how you're doing. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, C Kidd.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

I know how you feel dear. A little over a month ago my pomeranian Lacey was looking sick too. I was gonna check on her in a few hours and when i did check on her she died. I hated myself for not taking her to the vet sooner but i realized that maybe that was her plan. It was her time to go (she was 13) and I believe she knew that I would have taken her to the vet and done everything possible for her to stay alive when she just knew it was her time to go to heaven. Youll be full of regrets and you'll probably blame yourself, but do your best not to. Pets know when it's their time to go, and your pet probably died when you werent around to spare you some pain. My prayers and thoughts are with you during this heartbreaking and painful time.

I finally got one uploaded. Here is a picture of her. She looks mad. We kept waking her to take pictures

She's beautiful.
-Donna