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 Jul 20 2009, 12:11 PM
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 Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 178 Joined: 14-June 08 From: Kentucky Member No.: 4,792  |
Mama hasn't forgotten about your sweetheart. It's just that one year anniversary date (June 12) was tough to swallow.
I miss you baby girl, you are on my mind each and everyday. I have visions of the day I get to hold you again. I will forever love you ZOE. Mama |
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Jul 26 2009, 02:30 AM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 178 Joined: 14-June 08 From: Kentucky Member No.: 4,792 |
*******I love and miss you so much Zoe******
 Mama |
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Jul 27 2009, 06:54 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 327 Joined: 8-March 09 Member No.: 5,599 |
dear zoe's mom. i just saw your posting today for the first time and i have just finished reading everything. couldnt do it without a tear or two though. how sweet you are to send your beautiful zoe these wonderful love messages. i know she can see them and feel them. she definately came to you for a reason. i read where prior to her you werent a animal lover. zoe certainly touched your life as so many of them do us. how blessed she was to have you for a mom. she is your angel now and she is beaming that you have a new little one. sasha is a lucky girl. you will be reunited with zoe one day just like i know one day i too will be with my little fred and riley.
god bless patricia |
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Jul 27 2009, 09:35 PM
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 Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 73 Joined: 5-July 09 Member No.: 5,909 |
Deanna,
I am so sorry for your loss. Do not let anyone else put a timetable on your grief! I know how frustrating it is for others to not understand why we feel the loss of our pets so much. My Bitsy, while a loving pet to my family, was first and foremost a "Daddy's" dog! I cried anew reading how Zoe greeted you every day. That was how my little girl greeted me each and every time she saw me. She also slept with me every day (night shift). I have lost three dogs in the past five years: a two year old beagle mix that had to be bottle fed because his momma dog died, and a nearly 14 year old chihuahua that I had to have put down because of age related problems. I thought that I would not hurt as much for being "prepared" for Bitsy's passing, but the grief was just as hard, and it is still fresh even after two weeks. However, the grief is beginning to transform into the kind of pain that can be dealt with. Don't let the accident prey on your mind, as I have to start letting go of the images of seeing Bitsy being put to sleep. Think instead of the fun times and the fun and loving things that Zoe did with and for just you! Find all your pics of Zoe and share them with someone, anyone, especially with other pet lovers! Continue to share Zoe with us on this site, because doing so will help memoralize her, yet keep her memory alive. Hopes this helps a little! Andy |
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Aug 3 2009, 07:11 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 6 Joined: 3-August 09 Member No.: 6,007 |
I just wanted to thank you b/c your post helped me tremendously. I lost my love Duke this past weekend. He was hit by a car as well. He was only 9 months old and just a baby. Like Zoe, Duke was my everything. I also have a husband and two daughters but the relationship that I shared with Duke was extremely unique. He was my baby. I nurtured him and took care of him like a mother takes care of a child. He slept with my husband and me everynight and was not satisfied unless he was right next to me with his head in my lap. Every morning I spent the first 30 minutes of my day playing with him and brushing him down. He would turn over on his back and smile and them jump up and give me a thank you kiss. We had our own language and my family called him my shawdow b/c he went everywhere with me. If I moved he followed. I loved him greatly.
The pain I feel is so deep. I also grew up without a desire for a pet. My kids have beg my husband and I to get a pet since they were little and we always had a reason to hold off. But when a coworker told us about Duke we decided it was time. He instantly became my dog. I was at work when the accident happened. My husband was across the street talking to a neighbor and Duke somehow got away from my daughter attempting to get to my husband and was hit. When my husband called me at work and completely lost it. I was hoping and praying that it was not true or that he was hurt not gone. But my wish did not come through. Right now I feel extremely guilty b/c somehow it my head I feel that if I had been her I could have protected him. Will this pain ever disapate? I am completely devasted. QUOTE (Deanna @ Jun 18 2008, 08:39 PM)  HELLO PET LOVERS I am new to this ~ I posted this story on the "new beginning" forum instead of the death & dying pet support forum. Although, there were a few who noticed and helped me tremendously, especially, Goliath, Myhrtisbrkn, Sissycat & Jorge. Thanks to you guys, I'm able to function another day, although my heart hurts ...I miss my lil' punkin' pie, Zoe. I AM HURTING TO WHERE IT'S ALMOST UNBEARABLE. I NEED SOME SUPPORT ON HOW TO DEAL WITH MY LOSS. I GREW UP WITH NO DESIRE TO HAVE A PET OF ANY KIND, HOWEVER, TWO YEARS AGO, A CO-WORKER OFFERED ME THE MOST ADORABLE WESTIE (PUPPY) THAT I HAD EVER SEEN. TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT, I FELL COMPLETELY IN LOVE WITH THIS DOG (NAMED ZOE), I LOVED HER MORE THAN ANYONE IN MY LIFE ...SHE WAS MY SHADOW. SHE SLEPT WITH ME, WOKE UP WITH ME, WE PLAYED TOGETHER IN THE MORNINGS IN BETWEEN ME TRYING TO GET MYSELF READY FOR WORK, I LIVE CLOSE TO WORK, I'D COME HOME AND PLAY AND WE'D HAVE LUNCH TOGETHER ...I CAME HOME TO HER AFTER WORK SEEING HER JUMPING UP N' DOWN AT MY FRONT DOOR...ONCE I GOT IN...SHE JUMPED UP AND DOWN ON MY LEG UNTIL I PICKED HER UP (IN WHICH I DID ALMOST IMMEDIATELY), GAVE HER KISSES, RUBBING HER BACK AS SHE LICKED MY FACE. WE BOTH FELT THE LOVE AND AFFECTION FOR EACH OTHER ALL DAY EVERY DAY. AFTER DINNER, SHE GAVE ME "THE LOOK" THAT IT WAS TIME FOR OUR EVENING WALK. AFTER OUR WALK WE WOULD COME HOME AND RELAX AND PLAY UNTIL IT WAS TIME TO GO TO BED TO WAKE UP TO DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN. I NEED TO MENTION, I HAVE A LOVING HUSBAND AND TWO KIDS, THAT ADORED ZOE AS WELL, BUT NOTHING LIKE I DID. I WAS GUILTY OF GIVING ZOE MORE AFFECTION THAN TO THEM, BUT THEY UNDERSTOOD, THEY KNEW I WAS ATE UP WITH HER. WELL, ON LAST THURSDAY (JUNE 12TH) OF ALL DAYS ...(MY BIRTHDAY)...ZOE AND I WERE HEADED INTO THE HOUSE AFTER OUR WALK, ( I ALWAYS UNCLIP HER LEASH ONCE WE'RE ON THE PORCH) ... MY NEIGHBOR HOLLORED AT ME THAT SHE NEEDED TO TALK. ZOE AND I WALKED OVER TO HER PORCH...ZOE ALWAYS WOULD STAY IN OUR YARD AND SHE WOULD FOLLOW ME IF I WALKED OVER TO MY NEIGHBOR ...HOWEVER, ZOE SPOTTED A SMALL RABBIT HOPPING IN THE NEXT YARD AND MADE A MAD DASH TO CATCH IT, RUNNING INTO THE STREET AND SHE GOT RUN OVER, SHE WAS KILLED INSTANTLY. I RAN OUT TO THE STREET, PICKED HER UP, LOOKING INTO HER FACE, SAYING HER NAME OVER AND OVER AND KISSING HER, PLEASE DON'T GO...BUT SHE WAS GONE. FROM THAT MOMENT, I CAN'T SLEEP, EAT, OR BARELY FUNCTION TO GO ON WITH MY NORMAL DAILY ROUTINE. MY FAMILY THINKS I SHOULD BE OVER THE DEVASTATION BUT THE ACCIDENT RUNS THROUGH MY MIND A HUNDRED TIMES A DAY. I HAVE ACCEPTED SHES PASSED, WE BURIED HER IN THE BACK YARD, I HAVE HER A BEAUTIFUL MEMORIAL STONE AND FLOWERS WITH HER PICTURE. I LOOK OUT MY WINDOWS OF MY HOUSE AND SEE HER BURIAL SPOT AND IT JUST KILLS ME. SHE WAS SO SPECIAL IN MY LIFE AND I KNOW THERE WILL NEVER BE ANOTHER ZOE. I MISS HER SOOOOO MUCH, I AM CONTINUOUSLY LOOKING FOR HER TO COME AROUND THE CORNER OF ANY ROOM. PULLING UP IN MY DRIVEWAY FROM WORK IS THE ABSOLUTE HARDEST THING NOT SEEING HER ADORABLE LITTLE FACE AT THE DOOR. I FOUND THIS WEBSITE TO POSSIBLY GET SOME SUPPORT, I WOULD APPRECIATE ANY. THANKS IN ADVANCE |
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Sep 7 2009, 09:13 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 178 Joined: 14-June 08 From: Kentucky Member No.: 4,792 |
Hey Dukesmom, Dusty Moonrise and Patricia,
Please forgive me for not getting back with you all sooner. I hope the days you have had this past month, have gotten easier and thinking more of the happy days you had with Duke, Bitsy, Fred and Riley. I don't get on here too often, although I still need you guys. For the most part, I only get on here when I have either had a great day and feel that I've had Zoe's spirit run through me or a day when I'm not doing so good and need to send Zoe a message to let her know I still think of her and love her so much. I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for sending me a message or your thoughts of my story of losing my precious Zoe. That's right, I wasn't a "pet" person, growing up, when I went to a friend or a member of our family's home, who had a pet, I would either go in a different room or when the animal would get near me, I would kind of scoot it away from me. (Terrible! huh?) However, I think an animal angel sent Zoe to me, to help me discover I had a place and more love than a heart could hold, in my heart, that I never knew I had, especially for a pet. Dukesmom, I really do feel your pain (and guilt), I could imagine taking that phone call from your husband. It's been really hard for me to let go of the guilt...if I had only not takin' Zoe off of her lease. My dear Sasha, doesn't have a chance to be off of one if we are not in the back yard. Zoe's accident has caused me to be "over protective" with Sasha ...I have darn near "panic attacks" when someone comes in and out of the house, or if she's out in the yard, I am continously looking out in the yard, checking on her, I don't think this issue will ever change as long as I have her. If I had only been like this with Zoe....sigh. Dukesmom, your pain WILL ease, over time, just take it day by day. Andy, thank you for your advice. The accident doesn't play in my mind as much as it used to, except for when Sasha and I take off for a walk and I have to walk by "where she was hit", I can't help it, my heart skips a beat everytime, but I keep walking (of course with Zoe in my heart). For you to have lost three dogs in the past five years, I really couldn't imagine dealing with that during the course of those years. Stay strong. Again, thanks ~ you help so much. God Bless You Deanna ************I love you Zoe******************* |
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Sep 8 2009, 11:03 AM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 327 Joined: 8-March 09 Member No.: 5,599 |
no, its not terrible. but your story proves that our wonderful furbabies were sent here for a reason. they all have something to teach us and i believe they make us more loving people. your beautiful little zoe certainly touched your heart and maybe that was her mission. but im so glad you have little sasha. although our new little ones can never replace our babies that have gone, they certainly bring back the smiles, even if they are amidst the tears.
i know what you mean about being overprotective. although i lost my fred to complications of diabetes, i am petrified of something happening to my little lucy. i am constantly checking her up and down and although i know animals have a higher temperature than we do, i still always think she has a fever. i do not let her out of my sight and like you will never ever let her off leash. i dont know whether that will change in me or not either and although i want to relax i cant seem to right now (ive only had her for about 6 months) i am so afraid of losing my furkid so soon after fred and i dont understand why i am so "consumed" with this as she is 100% healthy. but i guess its part of the grieving process. anyways, enough of my rambling. my little lucy and i send you a big hugs from california. patricia |
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 Dec 2 2009, 02:17 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 178 Joined: 14-June 08 From: Kentucky Member No.: 4,792 |
I haven't forgot about you lil' girl. Mama still thinks of you EVERY DAY. You've made me who I am today.
You are FOREVER IN MY HEART & SOUL Zoe. Mama |
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Dec 2 2009, 07:19 PM
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 Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 381 Joined: 31-October 09 From: Australia Member No.: 6,207 |
Gees Deanna, I have just read your story for the first time, blew me away, how devastating for you. Zoe was just the cutest too, real shame and so not fair. Nothings fair in this world, lost my boy in similar circumstances. Please accept my belated condolences and hugs. Do you have another pet to love?
madi xx |
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Dec 9 2009, 02:49 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 178 Joined: 14-June 08 From: Kentucky Member No.: 4,792 |
Hey Madi ~
Thank you for your caring thoughts, I really appreciate it. Thanks for taking the time to read my story. Yes, losing Zoe was very devastating to me, I had never experienced or could ever imagined a human experiencing the pain and devastation when losing a pet, especially, tragically in an accident as Zoe's. I was mentally paralyzed for many months after losing her, she meant the world to me, (still does). ha I had never connected with a pet until I got her. Yes, I have a new furry love in my life, "Sasha", she is a westie as well, she is wonderful, and has helped me tremendously. I was really hesitant on getting another pet (at that time), however, my husband was somewhat persistant, I'm confident he wanted me to get out of the black hole I was in. Howeer, I've had Sasha alil' over a year now. I have moved on with my life, I feel good, I can now think of ZOE without the horrible pain. My family and Itell stories of her every now and again, it does bring a tear, but I smile at the same time. I am completely in love with Sasha and am obsessed with her, as I was with Zoe. (ha) Although, losing Zoe, the way I didn, has made me over protective with Sasha, I almost have panic attacks when I don't know where she is, it's crazy, but worth it I guess.  Sorry for rambling on....again, I really appreciate your comments. I know you mentioned you lost your boy in a similar circumstance, I hope you're doing ok too. Hugs, Deanna |
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Jan 15 2010, 04:49 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 178 Joined: 14-June 08 From: Kentucky Member No.: 4,792 |
I missed you today Zoe ~
Mama |
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Apr 11 2010, 12:20 AM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 178 Joined: 14-June 08 From: Kentucky Member No.: 4,792 |
Forever In My Heart Lil' Girl ~ love you ZOE!!!
Mama |
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Apr 11 2010, 04:57 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 167 Joined: 30-December 09 Member No.: 6,286 |
Hi Deanna
Thanks for replying to me in my thread -- it means alot. I read your whole thread - what a heartbreaking story to lose Zoe at such a young age. I am glad that you have Sasha -- and we are seriously considering getting another Westie -but I'm wondering if it's still too soon and if I'm still to traumatized by Sammy's 7 month illness. I want to be able to relax and enjoy our new Westie and right now I'm worried about what to feed her - which vaccines does she really need -- will she be as wonderful as Sammy? All those questions run through my mind and I don't want to short-change a new puppy - because she deserves to be loved as much as Sammy was -- by the way - when we do get our new Westie girl - her name will be Bailey ---I am working on getting my courage up to get another one --- just need to find a reputable breeder who has healthy Westies. Thanks again for your kind words -- they're so helpful. Sharon |
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Apr 15 2010, 06:21 AM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 178 Joined: 14-June 08 From: Kentucky Member No.: 4,792 |
You're welcome Sharon. I just know how you feel right now. I'm glad you are considering getting another westie, I couldn't bring myself to get a different breed of dog, westies are the most fun loving pets to have. I'm actually thinking about getting a second one, if I can talk my husband into it. He doesn't want me to, but he would not get ANY attention. (ha) I know the fear of how this new puppy is going to "compare" to Sammy. I did the same thing with Zoe. Zoe was so smart ...and when I got Sasha, God Bless her soul, I love her with all my heart, but when we got her and started working with her, we thought she was a lil' "special~ slower than what Zoe was, if you get what I mean" ...I would snicker and talked to Zoe every so often to ask her to "help me out girl". ha It's been a great process though, Sasha has come a long way, we love her just the way she is. Do your research on a reputable breeder. Although very energetic, I discovered a day or two after I got her, she was so sick with kennel cough, upper respitory infections, etc. It took a couple of weeks to bring her back to good health. My heart was breaking for her until I got her well. I am now soooooo proctective of her, I will NOT take her off her leash unless we are in the house or locked in the back yard. I can't imagine dealing the pain of losing my pet again.
Well, I've got to get ready for work. I'll be in touch. Much love for your sad heart. Sammy is still with you. Deanna |
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Jun 8 2010, 07:04 AM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 178 Joined: 14-June 08 From: Kentucky Member No.: 4,792 |
I am thinking about your sweetheart, it's coming up on two years and I feel like I lost you yesterday.
I love and miss my lil' Zo Zo. Mama |
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Jul 1 2010, 08:37 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 178 Joined: 14-June 08 From: Kentucky Member No.: 4,792 |
I thought of you today Zoe. Mama misses you.
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Jul 2 2010, 12:34 AM
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 Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 224 Joined: 10-May 10 From: Twain Harte, California Member No.: 6,484 |
I read your first post about what happened to Zoe. Unbearable to see how it came about. Probably unbearable when you replay the events in your head. Even after all this time, just wanted to recognize your love for your Zo Zo.
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Aug 6 2010, 05:55 AM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 178 Joined: 14-June 08 From: Kentucky Member No.: 4,792 |
Dennis,
Thank you so much for your thoughts and recognizing the love I had for my Zoe (zo zo). I really appreciate it. It's people like you that make the world a nicer place. Take care, Deanna |
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Aug 6 2010, 05:56 AM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 178 Joined: 14-June 08 From: Kentucky Member No.: 4,792 |
I still love and miss you so much Zoe.
Mama |
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Aug 6 2010, 06:12 AM
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 Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 156 Joined: 12-July 07 From: Upstate NY Member No.: 3,255 |
QUOTE (Deanna @ Aug 6 2010, 06:56 AM) I still love and miss you so much Zoe. Mama Hi, Deanna... I wasn't actively participating on the forums when you lost Zoe but I wanted to say now how sorry I am you lost her, especially the way you did. I lost my dog Winston almost two weeks ago much the same way; he bolted out the front door and was hit by a car. I know exactly the pain you're feeling, because I'm feeling it too, every day. While the grief for me has mostly abated (I process my grief very quickly, I've learned recently) I still ache when I think of Winston and tear up when I think of how we lost him. Like you did for Zoe, he's buried in our back yard, his grave surrounded by a small picket fence, covered with paving stones and a nice headstone that we made for him. And while there's only one window in my house that I can see his resting place from I know it's there and it hurts to know that Winston, who was so full of life and energy, is lying there in rest. Again, I am so sorry for your loss but you've definitely come to the right place to heal. -Clay |
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