Hi Dearest Dottie and Sweet Alex

I am soooo happy to see you back and so happy to be back myself. Dottie this place certainly hasnt been the same since you were gone. I tried to learn how to send some things to other people here who needed a little cheering up but I could never compare to what you do.

So Happy to have you back
Anna and my Angel Max

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Dottie,

Thank you for careing and just being you.

Anna & Angel Max

Dearest Anna,

So sweet of you! And, I want to thank YOU for being who you are and all that you do for everyone.



God Bless You Most Abundantly with Love and Light!!!

Many Hugs to you, your Mom and Angel Fur Kid Max!!!

Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Anna did a pretty good job of keeping us all going with her art work while we waited for you to return Dottie. It's a real bonus having two "art angels" here now!! Love you both xx

madi xx

Madi, she sure did! God bless Anna and God bless you, too!



Big Hugs and Lotsa Love to you and your Angel Fur Kids Ulriich and Max!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Dear Sweet Dottie
Those cow video's are so darn funny. I could never campare to the art and work you do. You sure have a great sense of humor I love it. keep up the wonderful work you do it is greatly appreciated by all.

Sending you lots of Love
Anna & Angel Max
xoxoxox

Hi Dear Dottie

I have found the perfect Angel that describes all that you are, and all that you mean to us
here at LS. They say we all have an angel and this one is yours.

You are loved by so many
Hugs
Anna & My Sweet Angel Max
xoxoxoxo

Oh My Gosh {{{{{Anna}}}}}

That is so very beautiful and super sweet of you! Thank you very much!



Your Pal Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Anna, that is beautiful and describes Dottie perfectly!!

madi xx

Dear Sweet Dottie
Where have you taken off to again. I hope you are ok I will worry about you until I see you here again so please dont stay away to long.

Thinking of you
Anna
xoxo

HI MOMMY I ONLY HAVE EYES FOR YOU


Hi Dear Sweet Dottie,
I am sending you your Valentines card a day early from your sweet angel Alex. I may not be here on Sunday and with my mom I never know when I have to leave. I hope you have a wonderful day. Will be thinking of you

BIG HUGS
Anna
xoxox

I hope you are going ok Dottie, haven't seen you around for ages. Think of you and Alex often and also send my love to Styx and Buddy xx

madi xx

We're all missing you again Dottie, the forum seems lost without you. Hoping you are ok and thinking of you and your Alex, Styx and Buddy.

Love Jan and Pixie and my Angels Tasha, Noushka and Sooty xx

Hi Dottie...I've been away for a while too because sometimes it just seems easier for me. I hope you are doing ok...and Styx and Buddy are well.

Thining of you and Alex,
Hugs,
Brutus' Mom

Ladywolf and I are missing you too, Dottie. By now I've come to realize, though, that you just have to take time off from this Forum periodically, and I've come to understand why, based on my own experience of hanging out here. It's just too painful sometimes, especially when we have a lot of other disturbances going on in our lives.

Please come back, though--we all really miss you!!!!!!!!!

Big big hugs--

Margi and the Wolf

Dottie...I hope you are doing ok...I am thinking of you, Styx Kitty, and Buddy. I don't post on here much anymore. I do check the forum frequently though. I use to be able to say the right things to everyone (at least I hope so), now I just don't have the words or energy...I don't know why. I feel bad that I haven't responded to others posts, but I do read almost every one and I think you do to. I miss talking with you all on here everyday, but I think in some ways it is good for me to not. I had a really upsetting dream about Brutus about a week ago...don't know if it's even one I want to share. I know it's related to guilt. Anyhow, just wanted to drop you a line.

Hugs to you and your feather angel Alex,
Brutus' Mom

Thank you so very much Madi, Anna, Jan, Sonya and Margi. Please forgive my absence. I have not been able to face coming here for these past many weeks. All of you wonderful Fur Kid Mommies and Daddies, old and new members who are posting ... So many in such gawd awful pain, grief and anguish ... It is palpable! I am so very sorry for everyone's losses. God bless you and all your Angel Fur and Feather Babies. I wish you Peace.

As for me, Margi hit the nail on the head. It's been two and one half years since I lost my most cherished Feather Child Alex and tears are welling in my eyes as I try to type this message. I'm sure I'll start bawling at any moment now. Anyway, one would think it would be so much easier to bear after 2 and 1/2 years. Well, it isn't. The pain, grief, guilt, devastation, shattered world! Having rescued this little Green Cheek Conure at the end of September 2009 has not helped at all. I honest to gosh do not resent this bird and I'm very good to him. I'll talk more about Percy later. Back to where I was ...

It's never ever been anything at all like this for me with any other loved ones be they human or fur or feather kids. I admit that losing my Mom under those circumstances was hell for several years, but I improved, got better and am okay now. The others were far easier on me than my loss of Alex which includes the loss of my Dad, sister, one brother who has been missing several years and presumed dead, two husbands, 2 best friends and another dear friend who is currently in the process of dying, others ... More fur and feather kids than I even want to think about. Dead and ...

I loved them all so much! Mind, heart and soul. You bet I cried, grieved, and so on for each and everyone ... Then I was okay. Some took longer than others. With the exception of my Mom, all took less than a year to the best of my recollection. Then came the fond memories. Not with Alex though. Au contraire, mes amis. Oy vey!

Perhaps one reason that it's taking so much time is that I've finally accepted the fact that I'll never see him again. There were all my hopes and dreams that he had been sold or given away and that I'd get him back. Well, that ain't gonna happen. Never. You can take that to the bank ...

What is eating the hell out of me is ... Ut oh. Oh no. Crying. Bawling. Need to pause. Blood pressure rising. I hear it pounding in my right ear. Heart racing. Face turning red ... Taking deep breaths to continue because I have freaking gotta get this out of my system because I have told no one but Bubba one time on his thread and Furkidlet's Mom read and responded to it ...

Wait. Let me find that so maybe I don't have to type it out again. BRB. Here is the direct link ...

Shooting Star: Posts 247 - 253

Here it is in a nutshell. If Alex is still alive somewhere, he would be 17 years old this May 1st. He was never sick a day in his life with me and had a life span expectancy of up to 40 years. So, if he's somewhere ... Alive ... Is he crying? Is he calling out to me: "Mama! Mama! Help! Help! Mama! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! Mama! Help! Help! Help!!!" Then is he crying for me? Is my poor, sweet, darling Feather Child alive somewhere and crying his himself sick for the only Mama he's ever known?! When I think about that, I cry hysterically like I'm crying right now. And, Alex sounded just like me when he cried so I hear him cry when I cry ... and so much more ... And so much more ...

At first, Alex's cry and laugh were "sound mimic" until he learned what those sounds meant as well as all other sounds, words, phrases and so on ... Then he knew and used all at appropriate times only.

What I pray for so very, very hard is that Alex is happy if he is alive and elsewhere. That he is loved and spoiled. I pray that he doesn't cry too much for me, Cocoa kitty, Trader dog, Kenny (my wonderful late husband) and others as he did when he lived here with me. I worried so much about Alex when he would call out to them and cry so hard. It broke my heart! I wrote some about on another message board as it was happening before Alex was ever abducted, then I copied and pasted it here at LS on this thread, page two, post 36.

Dear God, please watch over my Sweet Baby Boy Alex and keep him happy if he's alive and somewhere ... Or if he's with you. Let him know there is nothing in this world that can conceivably begin to measure how very, very much I love him and will never, ever, ever forget him. Please tell him ... Well, you know all that's in my heart and soul, God. I'm sure you'll take care of everything and I am so very grateful to you. Amen.

No one knows better than God and all you Fur and Feather Kid Moms and Dads how Alex was truly my child ... Like my very own flesh and blood. He just happened to be a different species.

Hugs and Love to all and your Angel Fur Kids!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Dearest Alex, I promise to try my very best not to kid myself anymore into believing everything is fine and dandy when I don't feel that way in the least. Hopefully, being more honest with myself will eventually lead me to that Healing Path. Then, you and I both can be at Peace. This song expresses what I just said but does it so much better. I hope you like it, little one. Tons of Kisses to you, Sweet Baby Boy!!! Muah!!!

Please Click on the White Feather





"I Get Along Without You Very Well"

I get along without you very well.
Of course I do.
Except when the soft rains fall,
And drip from the leaves, then I recall
The thrill of being sheltered in your arms.
Of course I do.
But I get along without you very well.

I've forgotten you just like I should.
Of course I have.
Except to hear your name.
Or someone’s laugh that is just the same.
But I've forgotten you just like I should.

What a guy,
What a fool I am,
To think my breaking heart could kid the moon.
What’s in store?
Should I phone once more?
No, it’s best that I stick to my tune.

I get along without you very well.
Of course I do.
Except perhaps in Spring.
But I should never think of Spring.
For that would surely break my heart in two.

Hi Dear Sweet Dottie
We certainly have missed you around here. I am sure you know by now that our beautiful Dozer also passed away very suddenly on February 28th. I have not been here that often for it hurts very bad and I guess coming here makes the realality oh so real. I did post a few more poems for that seems to help me when I am writting. I hope you have been ok. So glad to see you back. Just so you know Dottie I did not make a seperate forum for my angel Dozer, for he and Max were so close in Life I write to them both on Max's forum. Oh Dottie I am so glad you are back we were starting to really worry about you.

Your Friend
Hugs
Anna

Dottie...so good to have you back...everytime I come to the forum I check to see if you have come back, you add so much to here and help so many people, you were very missed. I do come here everyday but do not post much anymore, I do not always read new posts either...they make me too sad. When I read a new post a wave of emotion comes over me...I feel so bad for the poster and it brings back all the hurt of losing Brutus, it makes me feel like it's that dreaded day all over again.....I have went on with life...life happens whether you want it to or not. I am still not over it of course (don't think I will ever be)....there are moments where I still break out in tears and it's hard to breath without my soulmate. I think the changes...spring weather, etc...make it worse. Everytime we do something fun I say to my husband, "Man, Brutus would love this." He is always on my mind.

When I first came to the forum and read posts...seeing some people have been grieving for months to years...you, Jan, and many others. I thought...holy cow, I hope I'm not like that, I hope I still don't hurt so much after months...but I like you all, still do. I never expected to still be crying after 5 months, I never expected to still be coming to this forum either. This whole experience has totally changed me...I am definately more sensitive to others feelings...and that is definately a good thing.

Anyhow, just wanted to say I'm glad you are back...so much has happened....Jan getting Pixie , Anna losing Dozer , and Margi really hurting watching her precious Ladywolf getting ready to go to the bridge...so many new posters too .

You are definately needed here,
Hugs,
Sonya