Hi Dottie

No I didn't take any posters down from public bulletin boards. It was my own personal bulletin board that was on my wall. It was filled with pictures of Ziggy and Zita, Merlin and others. It is those ones, the ones I looked at every day that I couldn't face anymore, along with my screen saver that showed all "my pictures". I wanted to have a poster permanently up about Ziggy and about her murder, but I just don't have the energy to do it now. I don't know who did this and whether posters do or don't make a difference. It's just that I can't face putting her little face in front of me and thinking about what happened anymore. I have to believe in the law of "cause and effect" in all these situations of my life right now for ALL involved. If I think anymore about Ziggy's murder I think I will do harm to myself, at least right now at this moment.



Thanks for that link - those are amazing pictures. And yes, I know there is more to life than on the surface... far, far more... And I also know that all in our physical world is fluid and temporary even though we get fooled to thinking some things are more permanent than others.

Albert Einstein (who I know you like) said:

Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one.

Thanks for thinkin' of me Dottie.

Jan.

Aww thanks Dottie - the thoughts I was having yesterday during a 13 hour power outage were not so angelic though! While I shovelled the foot of snow off my block long driveway, trekked back and forth with firewood to keep the place heated, stayed awake most of the night putting logs in.... well when I broke the ice off my steps with the shovel lets say my imaginary words to x-h were not very "angelic".

But it's nice if someone thinks I have those qualities...

Jan.

Whoa!!!!! yea, you bad--I don't Eeeeeeeeven wanna mess with you.I can' t wait to hear the next response from those schmux.............

GO GET 'EM KIDDO.............
In your corner.......
Bubba...............

Hi Jan! I'm gonna answer Bubba first then shut down my PC to let it rest a bit then come back and talk actcha, Hon. Thanks and Hugs!!!

Well, Bubba. That was fast! Lookie what I just got in email from them ...

Subject: Re: ErrorFix Login/Password - ISSUING MAJOR COMPLAINT AND NOW VERY ANGRY!
Date: 1/6/2009 5:03:19 PM Pacific Standard Time

Hi,
please use the link below to file your refund request.
Please select for Subject of Request:
'I would like to return a product.'

http://www.clickbank.com/csinquiry.html

Your Order number is

C9FE9N8N _ _ 01/03/2009 2:19 AM PST

Thank you for your email and for trying us out.

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For any further questions please reply to this email address and include
all previous messages in the email.

Regards,
Gavin
The ErrorFix Support Team
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How am I doing? Email my supervisor David Page at: feedback.vmg@gmail.com
with any feedback. Please use this address only for feedback as it is not
monitored 24/7 and all support requests sent to the address will be moved.

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I already filled out that form and it was successfully sent. In the field that asks if I have any further questions I typed in the following ...

Do you require any further information? When will you be refunding my debit card? Hopefully it will be immediately considering all the carnage your ErrorFix program caused making my PC go corrupt. Perhaps you ought consider renaming your program. I could suggest a few product titles. Please answer my questions ASAP.

Doris C. Zappone

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After I finished filling out the form, I got this ...

Success

Thank you for contacting ClickBank, the internet's premier retailer of digital goods. We are dedicated to exceptional customer service and one of our representatives will contact you within two business days. Our customer service hours are Monday through Friday from 7:00 a.m. to 6:00 p.m. Mountain time. We look forward to assisting you!

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Ha! I know I already said it but ... Like Carl's grandma used to say, "Never mess around with old people because they ain't got nothing to lose."

Thanks lots, Bubba! Hugs!!!

Okay, gotta boot down for a little while to let this PC rest and I'll be back.

Hugs to you too, Jan!!!

One Mean Mama,
Dottie xoxoxox

PS. Bubba, the song "Don't Mess Around With Jim" just came to mind ...
"You don't tug on Superman's cape.
You don't spit into the wind.
You don't pull the mask off that Old Lone Ranger ...
And you don't mess around with Jim!" Or Bubba or Jan or Dottie ...

Be back as soon as I can. Need to rest the PC a little.
Here I go >>>

Hey Dottie-----Well they knew after reading your 'to the point' communique that they were on the losing end of this deal.The attorney reference probably sealed the deal.Good for you.Don't mess with Mama!!!!!
C U lata..........
Bubba...........

What a bunch of IDIOTS!!...It reminded me of a situation I had with the RMV..I went to get my NEW car inspected. They said I had to remove the license plate FRAME or it would not pass. Baffoodled, I email the RMV. Gave them a piece of my mind. They responded with a novel about it being illegal to block the #'s. HELLO,,,I'm talking about the decorative frame around the plate, dopes..Who trains these people in customer service???I hope you get the answers your looking for, but you know what; don't count on it..Let us know how you made out..Ann

Hi again. Little by little, my PC is recovering and I can respond to everyone.

Well, Bubba. I have several videos of other dogs saying things like "I love you" and "I want my mama." Remember Sharkey the Pitbull with those chicks? I've got a tape of him saying "I love you." And, some say, "Hello!"

But if you REALLY wanna get your mind blown away, this is the very best by far talking cat I have ever, ever seen and heard. Yes, it is the cat speaking those sentences and the video is captioned even though I can clearly understand him. Get a load of this!

This Cat is Really Talking!

And here's the "I want my Mama" doggie.

"I Want My Mama!"

Here's Pitbull Sharkey who loves chicks saying, "I Love You!"

Pitbull Sharkey says, "I Love You!" Several Times.

Bubba, you just gotta be patient. You can teach your bullies to say hello and I love you. You bet! But, If ya really want some intelligent conversation, you'll have to meet Einstein the African Gray parrot. Amazing and hilarious!

"Superstar!"

Last but certainly not least, you can also teach your dog to add and multiply. I kid you not. No hand signals are used either. How does this doggie do that? First, a trick showing just how much self control this doggie has then she will answer math questions.

Magpie - One Smart Dog!

Weren't those all something? Hope you enjoyed.



To Bubba and Ann as well, yep. Let's see if I have to pull a few more teeth before my debit card is refunded my those idiots. Keep your fingers crossed. Ann, that was unreal! What a bunch of maroons at your RMV. Oy. I'll keep you all posted. Take care!

Big Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

I have not forgotten you Jan and Judy. Jan, I have some reinforcements I'm sending to help you shovel all that snow and stuff. I've already made the image. I hope this PC will run just a while longer before I need to shut down and let it cool off a bit again. See ya'll soon and Hugs

Oh, now I understand what posters you mean, Jan. You also said: "If I think anymore about Ziggy's murder I think I will do harm to myself, at least right now at this moment." Hon, don't do it. Please don't harm yourself. If you do, you'll regret it. Mark my words. I've been there. It's embarrassing as hell when you harm yourself, get taken to the ER, they treat whatever you've done to yourself then they're legally bound to protect themselves by admitting you in their mental health unit until they themselves decide you are no longer a threat to yourself or anyone else. If you can't afford to stay in that hospital's mental health unit, then they must Baker Act you and transfer you to a free government facility. Jan, those are worse than being in a prison and there are some really loony tunes patients there. It ain't the place for you. Trust me. I know.

Even more embarrassing is when you try your dad burn best to off yourself, you're not successful, all the above still has to happen and to top it off, everyone knows about it if you're not able to keep it hush, hush. Oy. Embarrassing doesn't even describe how ... It's humiliating as all get out. And, the crap your family and friends put you through once you've completed treatment and come home. Oh, Jan. It's gosh awful. Some are ticked off at you, some treat you like a mental case, some walk on rice paper being so careful with you, some smother you with kindness while insisting they stay with you when you just want and need to be alone ... I could go on and on like the Ever Ready Bunny ...

However, if you harm yourself and are successful in dying, your friends and family will either blame themselves and feel guilty for not seeing the signs and getting you the help you needed to prevent what you did. Other friends and family will be ticked off as hell at you for taking the coward's way out and abandoning them, making them miss you so badly ... I could elaborate more if you wish.

The biggest problem with harming yourself so badly that you are successful in dying is this: Who will take care of your live fur babies? Will they be taken to a pound? If given to a family, would the new owners love and care for your fur babies and much as you do? I don't think so! Do you? Nope, you don't think so either, do you?

Please try to hang in there, Jan. Please! The pain, sorrow, grief and devastation is unbearable. It would feel so great to just fall asleep and not wake up. All your problems gone. But, what about Zeus who you're so concerned about? Even your Mom has noticed Zeus's grief. Zeus and your other fur kids need you. It's hell on earth right now and may be for a long time to come. This gawd awful pain may never go away. I dunno. I hope to gawd it does but I dunno.

Baby steps, Jan. Take baby steps and live from one moment to the next. Be kind to yourself because you're fighting a helluva battle ... More than one battle ... Do at least one nice thing for yourself each day. Money is tight but there's a lot of free stuff you can do even if it's watching a comedy show on TV or taking a virtual vacation using Youtube.com ... Go to a museum using YouTube or to a foreign country you would love to see. Start a "Free Hug" campaign. Please click here, watch all the way to the very end and listen to the lyrics of the song ...

Free Hugs Campaign

Jan, not all the lyrics are sung to the end of the song and it's so inspiring.
So, I'll print it out for you ...

"All The Same"

I don't mind where you come from
As long as you come to me.
But I don't like illusions I cant see
Them clearly ...
I don't care, no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you.
You've shown me eventually what you'll do!

I don't mind!
I don't care!
As long as you're here!

Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again.
You'll just come back running.
Holding your scarred heart in hand.

It's all the same ...

And I'll take you for who you are!
If you take me for everything!
And do it all over again.

It's all the same.

Hours slide and days go by
'Till you decide to come.
However long you stay is all that I am.

I don't mind!
I don't care!
As long as you're here!

Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again.
You'll just come back running.
Holding your scarred heart in hand.
It's all the same.

And I'll take you for who you are!
If you take me for everything!
And do it all over again.

It's always the same.

But in-between it always seems too long.
Suddenly ...
But I have the skill, yeah!
I have the will to breath you in while I can!
However long you stay is all that I am!

I don't mind! I don't care!
As long as you're here.
Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again.
You'll just come back running.
Holding your scarred heart in hand.

It's all the same.

And I'll take you for who you are!
If you take me for everything!
And do it all over again.

It's always the same.

Wrong or Right!
Black or White!
If I close my eyes its all the same.

In my life,
The compromise,
I'll close my eyes.

It's all the same.

(Song ends here.)

Wonderful message and set to the perfect music, in my opinion.

Hey, go to youtube.com after you've watched the above and type in the keywords: Free Hugs ... It's happening all over the world! I realize you can't get out and do anything like that right now since I read about how cold it is where you are, having to shovel all that snow, the ice problems and more. So, I'm sending help to you immediately. I found and enhanced this image just for you, Hon. They'll shovel snow and help you with your ice problems. It's magic! Here they come ...


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Hang in there, Jan. Baby steps. Be kinder to yourself than necessary. I'm in your corner, Dear One!

Tons of Comforting Hugs!!!

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

PS. Take in a free movie on me! Go here and if you don't know how it works, I'll explain it to you ...

Free Movies On The Net

See all the letters in the middle? Just to the left of all those letters of the alphabet it says Movie Titles. Click on the first letter of the first word in the movie title you're looking for. Once you get there, then go to your left and type in the name of the movie you're trying to find. OR! You can just type in the movie title from that home page.

For each movie, you have the option of watching it in 4 or more parts or the entire movie. I like the four or more parts option best. Oh, the movie will not begin by itself. After you pull up the movie and it's on your screen, look to the left at the bottom and click that button to begin the movie and also to make it pause.

There's thousands of movies there and some are brand new releases. Best of all, it's free. Take care and More Hugs!!!

Hey Dottie--Wow!!!!! Where do I begin? Well Einstein obviously is the most clear in diction(we are talkin animals here right? This is a trip) As if he really is making the connection between the sounds he is making and the actual meaning of the words,Maybe he is.Then Mr. Kitty.He is the second runner up.I almost think that there is a voice off camera.But after viewing it several times the sounds and the mouth movement are so in sync.Eerie..........
The funniest thing just happened when the pit bull started.Lily came running out from under the desk with a WTF????????? look on her face.Then she got pissed.Looked at the screen and if SHE could have chimed I think she would have said "Hey man this is my house and there is only room for one of us here dude.You ready to RUMBLE??????????" God that was funny...
Then the little white dog saying "I want momma" Again,Really eerie.And last the counting dog.How can this be.
I think when we get to the Bridge we are gonna get what we have been praying for and when we get it we will be tellin the kids to go play 'cause they are yappin too much.Wow The thought of actually having a conversation with Willy and the other kids is thrilling and at the same time kinda freaky.
I can't wait..........Thank you so much for the posts.This has really made the day worthwhile.......CU a little later....
Bubba...........

They really are something, eh Bubba? Wow! And I love what Lily did!!!

Hey, let's try a couple more on her.

This next one is Choder the Bulldog and this doggie has a lot to say. Well, in bulldog language. Let me set it up a bit. Choder the English Bulldog is sitting in a chair at the office "show" talking. He's the office mascot. From the tone of his voice, it sounds to me like he's trying to get some attention or issuing a complaint. At any rate, it sure sounds like he's whining. What do you think? The best part is when he stops talking and turns his head away like he's ticked off so decided he's just gonna ignore everyone. I sure know that look. Ha! Here's the link and do let me know if Lily reacts to it ...

Choder Talking

I did find a bulldog saying, "Love you!" This goes pretty fast and the doggie says it at the beginning of the tape so you may want to listen to it a few times. It's great! I wonder how Lily will react to this one. OMG! I am sooo bad!!! Here's the link ...

Chanel the talking mini English Bulldog says "Love You!"

Let your bullies settle down before you click on the last one. Hehehe!

Who knows what parrots say to each other when the pet shop owner takes a break?
Let's find out. Click below ...

"Wazzup!"

Great commercial! Hahaha!!!!!

Don't forget to let me know if Lily reacted to the other bull doggie videos. Okay?

C U Later and Hugs!!!

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

The videos of the bullies are weird because Lily makes the SAME SOUND!!!! REALLY!!!!!
Choder and the the little white face in the bag make that high pitch sound right?

OMG Lily makes the same sound, note for note when she hears the garage door open and one of us(me or my wife ) are coming or going.Just last night I went out to snatch a Big Mac and when I got home my wife was outta bed ready to crucify me because Lily was crying and making those same sounds(and we are talkin HIGH volume folks)the whole time I was gone and she woke up my wife.OOps no whoopie for Bubba for awhile(at least not last night.Besides I had burger duties)

The parrots were hilarious WHASSSSUPPP???????? HA HA HA HA HA HAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!! GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanx a bunch, Bubba................

Lily was snoozin in the other room but when I get back from work she'll have a front row seat,
Thanx again, Bubba...............gotta go bang on drums...........

OMG!!!!!!! I am laughing too hard to type after reading what you said!!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

Gonna turn off the PC to let it cool down a bit and come back. HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

C U Later ... Hugs!!! And more HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hello Dear Friends. This is the first time I've signed onto my computer since I was last here. Please forgive my absence. There's been a lot going on regarding coping with my own loss. Also there have been new revelations as to what did happen to my Rainbow Bridge baby. So, I'm finding it pretty gosh darned difficult to comfort others at this time. I'm truly terribly sorry that I've not been here for all of you who are suffering such unbearable pain, grief, sorrow, devastation and more.

Please know you all remain in my daily thoughts, prayers and I send Big Hugs and Lots of Love. As always, I wing Many Angels to comfort and guide you through what must be just about the most difficult time in your lives. God Bless and keep you!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi, Dottie

Glad to see you are okay. Hope things turn out well for you and we will see you when we see you.

Hugs,
Judy

thank u judy. big hugs!

alex, i'm pretty darned sure i now know where u were 1st taken!!! i hope and pray with all my heart and soul that u are still there,
alive and happy. plz hang on sweet baby boy if u r still alive ...

mama's comming after surgery or sooner if God permits 2 force them 2 give u back!!!!!!!

plz God help me and my baby boy alex. plz. k? thnx! amen.

alex, i love and miss u sooooo much!!!

Always Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

PLEASE hear her prayers God..........A miracle would be appreciated right soon...............Bubba.............

THANK U SO MUCH BUBBA!!!!!

Hi Dottie, Best of luck with your surgery. I know all will go well. Hey, did I miss something? Are you going to look for Alex? Well, St. Francis here our prayers!...Keep us informed..Ann

thanks so very much, ann. biggggg hugs!!! it may be too late for surgery. long story. if surgery is not done then i will lose all use of left arm, wrist, hand. arg. sure do hope there's time and dr. will still be able to do surgery. i do have a nurse's aid coming to my home today at 1:00 pm and she will be of great assistance ...

wait ... i have "comedy of errors" typed up and in save to show you this ain't entirely my fault. oy. will go fetch what i wrote to debbie, sherry & tracey in private area of a message board and copy/paste below. here goes ...

The "Comedy of Errors"

1. i did call paramedics right away. immediately after my fall. very young female paramedic said was probably just a bad sprain and she would wait a day to see what happens if she were me. she said it would probably feel better the next day. she was very nice. both she and the very young male paramedic were very nice, dear, caring ...

it is my fault for being so calm when telling them in normal voice, "This pain is very, very bad and much like the time Srini kitty bit my wrist and broke the tendon sheath when I was around 23 years old. The doctor at that time said a broken tendon sheath is worse than a broken bone."

i was displaying same symptoms on 3/6/09 of only being able to hold my arm upright as in a wave hello position, not able to move fingers due to big time pain. yes, i remained very calm when saying how, "I cannot believe how badly this hurts." ... BUT! all symptoms of one or more broken bones were present.

also, paramedics are not supposed to give possible diagnosis or advice like that. they can say, "Ma'am, I can take you to the hospital or you can call back later if it gets worse and we'll come back then to take you to the hospital." that is all. unless you're unconscious. of course, then they take you right to the hospital, usually start an iv on the way there and yada, yada, yada.

SO ... i waited several hours after the paramedics had gone then looked at left arm and wrist, compared it to right arm and wrist. said to myself heck no. this ain't right. far too much pain and swelling. i called a cab to take me to ER and off I went ...

2. this is where second error occurred. at ER everyone of them were also very dear and caring. but, when it came time to apply the cast-like splint, the young male nurse who was applying the temporary cast-like splint told me that the doctor would need at least three days for the swelling to go down before applying permanent cast. there were two other female nurses in the room who heard him telling me that and they said nothing. one female in the room was a nurse of 18 years.

3. i did make appointment with dr, for three days later like ER nurse said to do but Dr. Lundseth's receptionist said I would need to pick up copies of x-rays from hospital cuz they don't do that. i told her how long it had been (3 days) and asked would it either cause harm or be too late to set and cast arm in a couple more days cuz hospital requires 24 hours notice to make copies of x-rays for patient pick up. she said no, that it would be fine and no problem. no harm done. i did get her name. ("Flonche" sp?)

when i was seen at office, Dr. Lundseth's very first words to me even before hello were, "Where have you been? It's been five days. If you had come in the next day, I'd have been able to shoot some novocaine in there, set it and cast it." then he went on to say how the bones had begun to fuse wrong so will need surgery and permanent screws put in, yada, yada, yada ... or else will lose use of left arm, wrist and hand.

number 3 has me upset because of Dr. Lundseth and that mean nurse of his thinking me either an idiot, noncompliant or negligent for waiting so long. so i called them back very next day, left a message where i was directed and stephanie from Dr. Lundseth's office phoned me back ...

i told her about what the ER nurse said instructing me to wait 3 days and also gave her the name of lady who made my appointment there and how she said it would be fine to wait even after i'd said it had already been three days and had told me no harm done.

stephanie then said they only make appointments and don't know about that sort of thing. i responded that the lady sounded very confident to me and if they don't know about those things, she'd better be told not to assure people like that who have no reason to believe she isn't knowledgeable when she says, yada, yada, yada.

stephanie got nervous and wanted me to speak with ... i cannot remember who. could have been nasty nurse, Dr. Lundseth or Santa Claus and asked me to hold. i stayed on hold a short while then just hung up cuz what could they do? nothing for me. plus i was beginning to become a bit upset and sure didn't want to talk about anything with them if i was feeling angry. stephanie did not call me back. neither has anyone from that office.

and there you have it.

ps. darned nurse put my splint back on wrong at dr. visit and gee, i wonder if she could have scowled worse or slapped it back on any faster. i am freaking serious. she looked like one of those speed painting videos in fast forward and that's just what i was thinking when she was reapplying splint. i kid you not! she is the only unkind person to render care to my arm so far. i could not tell cast-like splint was on too close to elbow needing to be further back until later or i'd have sure made her do it right. word.

Next: since then ... the nurse Janet at the surgeon's office has informed me that it may very well be too late for surgery.

***me again talking now, ann ...

ABOUT ALEX:

Preface: I do feel greatly concerned because Nico Pavan did return Alex's cage, nest box, toys, and parrot carrier to me in August
of 2008. All had very obviously been outside for some time, dirt, leaves, more and have much damage from the weather.
Still, Alex could be in a different cage. Cross your fingers, please! But ...

I have very good reason to believe that ...

1. Ida Cesareo is either keeping him at another location, possibly one of her kids or her adult grandson. after all, she did keep begging me to let her keep him because she and her husband love him so much. and remember, she did take buddy dog and styx cat to the pound on 10/16/07 far away and not the one close by, said they were strays and tried to put a rush on them being euthanized. this tells me she couldn't face me and for good reason. hiding something? i hope so. since then, she possibly sold him after i kept calling her on her cell phone, cursing her out, promising to make her life a living hell and see her in prison if she does not return Alex to me ...

2. Around the last part of May 2008, Ida was visiting family. Possibly but probably in her home country. So it's possible that Alex is either somewhere in America or in another country now. if he's still alive in America or another country, I will get him back!!!

3. Or her adult grandson did indeed kill Alex. Even if #1 and #2 are correct, Alex could still be dead from grief. Refer to post number 247 on Bubba's "shooting star" thread to see explanation of parrots dying from grief and how Alex proved himself to be one of those type who would. And here is direct link ...

http://lightning-strike.com/forum/index.ph...4877&st=240

He was an amazingly sweet, intelligent, astounding creature so who wouldn't love to have him? I pray to God he's still alive and #1 or #2 are correct. Investigation is ongoing.

additionally, the three of them did rob my house blind. i caught Ida and Julia in the act plus Nico walked inside my home within less than five minutes after i got back from the hotel after house fumigation tent was lifted on Oct. 14, 2007. boy howdy, they helped themselves to a lot: somewhere between $12,000.00 and $15,000.00 worth of stuff. so, why not steal such a valuable animal, too? think about it.

More hugs!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox