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 Oct 23 2008, 12:14 PM
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Dottie
Just a quick note to say hi! I was worried about 'ya. Back soon 'cause I gotta go right now. Sending you lots of love and strength - your presence here is so appreciated! Jan. |
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Oct 23 2008, 06:05 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 433 Joined: 11-November 07 Member No.: 3,938 |
QUOTE (AngelCareOne @ Oct 23 2008, 01:47 AM)  [size=4][color="#2E8B57"]{{{{{{{Jan}}}}}}} It's so very difficult for me to type through my tears. I love that song sung by Eva Cassidy and God rest her gentle soul. The photo is awesome! Awesome! Awesome! It goes so perfectly with that song and video. Hi Dottie - I really hope your tears are healing tears. I don't know why but that song wouldn't go out of my head and I knew it was for you, but really I don't know why. QUOTE Jan, a couple days ago as I walked by Alex's nest box, I heard a very faint and quick "chirp" that Alex would make when he was either dreaming or waking and ready to come out of his nest box. I wasn't even thinking about him, however I did stop to listen and see if any other sounds came and none did. I feel that faint quick chirp may have been the sound of something else and I was mistaken. Then a day or two ago while I was sitting at my sofa playing with Buddy dog and Styx kitty, I heard wings flapping for a couple seconds. Again, I wasn't thinking about Alex at all but it's the exact sound he made when he flapped his wings and the sound came from the direction of his cage. Was it something else I heard that just sounded like wings flapping? I know for certain that neither the chirp sound nor the wing flap sound were auditory hallucinations. So, no. They weren't hallucinations. I'll shoot a PM to you to explain. Wink and Nudge. Still, it could have been something else. At one point within the last three days, the light fixture flickered again. Just one time only and stopped. This is the second time in 20 years that the light fixture in the dining area has ever flickered. Still, just that one time only and I was not sitting at the PC when it happened ... You know I hate saying this because there is that faintest chance that Alex is alive, but I really do feel he is sending you signs. I had something like that with Zita, but mine were visual - out of the corner of my eye stuff, when I wasn't thinking about her. The most vivid I ever had was seeing her directly in front of me outside, and I wasn't thinking about her at all in that moment but she disappeared - it was like she faded away - as quickly as she showed up. I do think these experiences are very real and they are signs from our fur and feather babies telling us they are okay. Think of it from their point of view - they hate to see us suffer and would never want to cause that for us. I know I find myself going to sleep and hearing myself repeat over and over "I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry." Of course I am talking to Ziggy, Zita also. No matter how I rationalize it my whole self says, "this should never have happened". But as you say, things are as they should be and the proof is that they are that way... I wonder when we have these thoughts if our Alex and our Ziggy are saying - please be at peace, I am there with you, I will see you again, don't despair. I told you about the dream I had about my dog who died when he was hit by a car - this was when I was 15 years old. He sent me a very clear message that he was happy, at peace and would be there for me whenever I needed him. I'm sure if it were easier Alex, Ziggy, Zita and all of our other fur friends in spirit would be giving us those messages. In fact they probably are... QUOTE PS. You owe me a box of Kleenex. More Hugs!!! Virtual kleenex on the way... love Jan and my fuzzy bunch
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Oct 23 2008, 06:12 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 433 Joined: 11-November 07 Member No.: 3,938 |
QUOTE (ann @ Oct 23 2008, 01:46 AM) A lady I work with thought I was mad today. I said no just feeling a little sad. I miss my cat. She looked at me like I had lobsters crawling out of my ears. Ann - I just have to repeat that those "looks" are entirely about "them" and not about you. You are one of the special sensitive souls who fully receive the love and joy of an animal. Think about how much those people who don't "get it" have missed in their lives - for all the pain we feel, we felt equal amounts of joy in their lives, this we must remember! take care Jan. |
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Oct 23 2008, 06:56 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 433 Joined: 11-November 07 Member No.: 3,938 |
QUOTE (Zita'sMom @ Oct 23 2008, 07:12 PM) Ann - I just have to repeat that those "looks" are entirely about "them" and not about you. You are one of the special sensitive souls who fully receive the love and joy of an animal. Think about how much those people who don't "get it" have missed in their lives - for all the pain we feel, we felt equal amounts of joy in their lives, this we must remember! take care Jan. p.s. I was also thinking that we all really need to start educating these people about the sacredness of animals, and the real, deep grief we can experience in losing our pets. People need to stop giving those "looks" and instead understanding the special connection to the animal world! |
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 Oct 24 2008, 01:40 AM
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 Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 1,827 Joined: 16-June 08 From: Florida Member No.: 4,797 |
For My Most Cherished Beloved Feather Child Alex. This song reminds me so much of you and me together. I really can't remember when you weren't there and I swear we've been through everything there is both good and bad. You never did let me down, my Very Best Friend. I can't even begin to count all my tears you kissed away. It got better and better every day and together we were strong. So very strong. The sweetest days I've found, I've found with you! My gosh, what ever did I do before you?
Alex, I want to say, "Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!!!" I chose this image of the computer and enhanced it. How much this reminds me of all the days and nights you and I spent at the PC laughing, crying, I would make images and you'd help by walking on the keypad sometimes. That was fun! I hope you like the flowers all around the room and at the PC in the image as well as the heart shaped moon with a loving Angel there. I really think you'd love the twinkling stars and would make your beautiful happy sounds. I can hear you still. This song is for you, My Precious Alex with all my Love and Many, Many Thanks and Big Kisses!!!  Please click on the Picture  "Through The Years" I can't remember when you weren't there. When I didn't care for anyone but you. I swear we've been through everything there is. Can't imagine anything we've missed. Can't imagine anything the two of us cant do! Through the years . . . You've never let me down! You turned my life around! The sweetest days I've found . . . I've found with you! Through the years . . . I've never been afraid . . . I've loved the life we've made . . . And I'm so glad I've stayed right here with you . . . Through the years! I can't remember what I used to do . . . Who I trusted . . . Whom I listened to before. I swear you've taught me everything I know! Can't imagine needing someone so . . . But through the years it seems to me . . . I need you more and more . . . Through the years . . . Through all the good and bad! I knew how much we had! I've always been so glad to be with you! Through the years . . . Its better everyday! You've kissed my tears away! As long as its okay I'll stay with you . . . Through the years . . . Through the years . . . When everything went wrong . . . Together we were strong! I know that I belonged . . . Right here with you. Through the years . . . I never had a doubt . . . We'd always work things out! I've learned what Love's about by Loving you . . . Through the years . . . Through the years . . . You've never let me down! You've turned my life around! The sweetest days I've found . . . I've found with you ... Through the years . . . It's better everyday! You've kissed my tears away! As long as its okay . . . I'll stay with you . . . Through the years!  Always Your Loving Mama, Dottie xoxoxoxoxoxoxox
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Oct 24 2008, 06:27 AM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 1,827 Joined: 16-June 08 From: Florida Member No.: 4,797 |
QUOTE Hi Dottie - I really hope your tears are healing tears. I don't know why but that song wouldn't go out of my head and I knew it was for you, but really I don't know why. Yes, Jan. They were healing tears in a sense and you wonder why that song wouldn't go out of your head and you knew it was for me? Perhaps it's because Alex loved it so much. Honest and for true. I've never seen that particular video but Alex loved Eva Cassidy singing Fields of Gold, Somewhere Over the Rainbow, Songbird, Time After Time and a couple others. Wow! I kid you not. QUOTE You know I hate saying this because there is that faintest chance that Alex is alive, but I really do feel he is sending you signs. I know you'll understand when I tell you it's my belief that when there's such a strong bond between two people, a person and an animal or two animals, they can still send signs while they are alive. So, no. I haven't given up hope that Alex is alive but I have less and less hope that I'll ever see him again on this earthly plane. As for you and what you experienced with Zita, I believe you were either being given a sign or were visited, Jan. I truly do. Big Smile here. You bet! Tons of Hugs and Lotsa Love to You and Your Fur Babies!!!  Always, Dottie xoxoxox |
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Oct 24 2008, 02:12 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 302 Joined: 9-September 08 Member No.: 4,959 |
Hey there Dottie---------Glad to see U R back---------Hope U R doin ok.----------Talk atcha later,
Your buddy, Bubba............... |
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Oct 24 2008, 05:09 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 1,827 Joined: 16-June 08 From: Florida Member No.: 4,797 |
Hey right back atcha, Bubba! Great to see you, Dude. I'm still breathing and we know how that goes, don't we? We sure do. How are ya doin' Bubba? Thanks so much for coming by to say howdy. I truly appreciate that. I'll talk atcha later, too. You bet!
Hugs, Love and Peace to You, Your Dear Wife, Willy, Lily and all the Gang!!! Your Pal Always, Dottie xoxoxox PS. The movie Forest Gump was on TV the other day and I thought of you. Besides Forest, I do believe that Bubba is my other favorite character in that movie. I'm smiling at you! |
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Oct 24 2008, 05:29 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 302 Joined: 9-September 08 Member No.: 4,959 |
Hey Dottie---------Good to hear from you.I'll talk more later as I am out the door to work.I saw Forrest Gump the other day as well.I had forgotton about that Bubba till I saw the movie again.What a great movie.Catch ya on the rebound,
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Oct 24 2008, 05:48 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 1,827 Joined: 16-June 08 From: Florida Member No.: 4,797 |
Okie Dokie, Forest ... I mean Bubba. *Smiling at you!* We must have posted to each other at the very same time cuz I just now finished posting at your Shooting Star thread. I'll be sure to check back in on ya, Dude. Take care!
Big Hugs!!! Always, Dottie xoxoxox PS. I love that movie, too. Lots and lots. *Another Smile!* |
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Oct 25 2008, 04:07 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 433 Joined: 11-November 07 Member No.: 3,938 |
Hi Dottie
Here's another song for you! lotsa love... Jan. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hTQfERb9HVk (or the cute guy version) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vix4Of6_hZ0 I hope you Dance I hope you never lose your sense of wonder You get your fill to eat But always keep that hunger May you never take one single breath for granted God forbid love ever leave you empty handed I hope you still feel small When you stand beside the ocean Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance I hope you dance I hope you dance I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance Never settle for the path of least resistance Living might mean taking chances But they're worth taking Lovin' might be a mistake But it's worth making Don't let some hell bent heart Leave you bitter When you come close to selling out Reconsider Give the heavens above More than just a passing glance And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance I hope you dance (Time is a real and constant motion always) I hope you dance (Rolling us along) I hope you dance (Tell me who) I hope you dance (Wants to look back on their youth and wonder) (Where those years have gone) I hope you still feel small When you stand beside the ocean Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance Dance I hope you dance I hope you dance (Time is a real and constant motion always) I hope you dance (Rolling us along) I hope you dance (Tell me who) (Wants to look back on their youth and wonder) I hope you dance (Where those years have gone) (Tell me who) I hope you dance (Wants to look back on their youth and wonder) (Where those years have gone)
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Oct 25 2008, 06:43 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 1,827 Joined: 16-June 08 From: Florida Member No.: 4,797 |
QUOTE (Zita'sMom @ Oct 25 2008, 04:07 PM) Hi Dottie Here's another song for you! lotsa love... Jan. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hTQfERb9HVk (or the cute guy version) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vix4Of6_hZ0 I hope you Dance I hope you never lose your sense of wonder You get your fill to eat But always keep that hunger May you never take one single breath for granted God forbid love ever leave you empty handed I hope you still feel small When you stand beside the ocean Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance I hope you dance I hope you dance I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance Never settle for the path of least resistance Living might mean taking chances But they're worth taking Lovin' might be a mistake But it's worth making Don't let some hell bent heart Leave you bitter When you come close to selling out Reconsider Give the heavens above More than just a passing glance And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance I hope you dance (Time is a real and constant motion always) I hope you dance (Rolling us along) I hope you dance (Tell me who) I hope you dance (Wants to look back on their youth and wonder) (Where those years have gone) I hope you still feel small When you stand beside the ocean Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance Dance I hope you dance I hope you dance (Time is a real and constant motion always) I hope you dance (Rolling us along) I hope you dance (Tell me who) (Wants to look back on their youth and wonder) I hope you dance (Where those years have gone) (Tell me who) I hope you dance (Wants to look back on their youth and wonder) (Where those years have gone) Oh My Gosh! Jan, I gave that exact top video to someone here a while back and love that song so much. It's a Gift of many, many Wonderful Blessings and that photo of the darling, beautiful, Angelic bird "Dancing" which you chose is Awesome! Thank you!!! Thank you!!! Thank you!!! And Jan, I Hope You Dance, Too!!! Always, Dottie xoxoxox |
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Oct 26 2008, 12:46 AM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 433 Joined: 11-November 07 Member No.: 3,938 |
QUOTE (AngelCareOne @ Oct 25 2008, 07:43 PM) Oh My Gosh! Jan, I gave that exact top video to someone here a while back and love that song so much. It's a Gift of many, many Wonderful Blessings and that photo of the darling, beautiful, Angelic bird "Dancing" which you chose is Awesome! Thank you!!! Thank you!!! Thank you!!! And Jan, I Hope You Dance, Too!!! Always, Dottie xoxoxox You are so welcome! You do such wonderful images for everyone here that it's the least I can try to do! Mine aren't so magical as yours, wow, you do such a service to this forum. take care and sending love and healing your way - woosh! Jan. |
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Oct 26 2008, 01:03 AM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 1,827 Joined: 16-June 08 From: Florida Member No.: 4,797 |
QUOTE (Zita'sMom @ Oct 26 2008, 12:46 AM) You are so welcome! You do such wonderful images for everyone here that it's the least I can try to do! Mine aren't so magical as yours, wow, you do such a service to this forum. take care and sending love and healing your way - woosh! Jan. Ahhhh, Jan. *Sniffle!* Thank you!!! Hey, you do a heck of a lot for people and I envy you and others how you're able to converse while I rely on images, songs and the like. It's okay to envy though. That's a huge compliment and you sure have earned and deserve a whole bunch more than that, Dear One! Tons of Comforting Hugs!!! Always, Dottie xoxoxox |
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Oct 26 2008, 08:10 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 433 Joined: 11-November 07 Member No.: 3,938 |
QUOTE (AngelCareOne @ Oct 26 2008, 02:03 AM) Ahhhh, Jan. *Sniffle!* Thank you!!! Hey, you do a heck of a lot for people and I envy you and others how you're able to converse while I rely on images, songs and the like. It's okay to envy though. That's a huge compliment and you sure have earned and deserve a whole bunch more than that, Dear One! Tons of Comforting Hugs!!! Always, Dottie xoxoxox Hehe - the "mutual admiration club". Thanks a lot Dottie! Jan. |
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Oct 27 2008, 11:46 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 302 Joined: 9-September 08 Member No.: 4,959 |
Hey Dottie--------Just got back from my 'Men who pause' gig and thought I would drop by and say hey.So hey.Hope yer doin just fine.talk atcha soon again,
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Oct 29 2008, 10:05 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 1,827 Joined: 16-June 08 From: Florida Member No.: 4,797 |
QUOTE (Zita'sMom @ Oct 26 2008, 08:10 PM) Hehe - the "mutual admiration club". Thanks a lot Dottie! Jan. That's us, Jan: "The Mutual Admiration Society."  I don't know if you've heard that song before. So cute. Hehehe!Big Comforting Hugs!!! Always, Dottie xoxoxox |
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Oct 29 2008, 10:08 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 1,827 Joined: 16-June 08 From: Florida Member No.: 4,797 |
QUOTE (Bubba @ Oct 27 2008, 11:46 PM) Hey Dottie--------Just got back from my 'Men who pause' gig and thought I would drop by and say hey.So hey.Hope yer doin just fine.talk atcha soon again, Bubba.......... Hey right back atcha, Bubba. I'm okay and sure as heck hope you're okay, too. I miss ya bunches, Dude. Big Comforting Hugs to You, Your Dear Wife, Willy, Lily and all the Gang!!! Always, Dottie xoxoxox |
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Oct 29 2008, 10:57 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 302 Joined: 9-September 08 Member No.: 4,959 |
Hi Dottie-----I think I'm doin ok.Seems like a number of new people have joined the forum lately.This place sure has helped alot of us hasn't it? I assume you made it through your one year mark in one piece.I know it was very hard on you and I was thinking about you alot during your break from the forum.It probably did you some good being away so you could gather your own thoughts and find your own way to keep on the path till it's time to go.Every day I find I have to remind myself that this physical life has changed for good and I really have to take my own advice and slog through each 24 hour period knowing that it will change for the better when it is time.There are countless numbers of people who are going through the same thing you and I are experiencing concerning our babies.In a way this loss has made me re-prioritize and put value on the truely important things and delete the rest.I'm finding out just how much really does not matter as events and most people don't qualify as meaningful or important anymore,Just a select few starting with my wife.It actually (except on a couple of random occasions) has diminished my stress level and I just don't take much of anything too seriously anymore as it is all in passing and impermanent.I had a very clear visit for the first time in a dream from Willy.I'll have to tell you about it.Very telling about the reality his new existence and that he is young again.Comforting.I'm yapping too much here.Please let me know what's new and how you are,buddy!.........Your pal,
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Oct 29 2008, 11:22 PM
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Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 1,827 Joined: 16-June 08 From: Florida Member No.: 4,797 |
QUOTE (Bubba @ Oct 29 2008, 10:57 PM) Hi Dottie-----I think I'm doin ok.Seems like a number of new people have joined the forum lately.This place sure has helped alot of us hasn't it? I assume you made it through your one year mark in one piece.I know it was very hard on you and I was thinking about you alot during your break from the forum.It probably did you some good being away so you could gather your own thoughts and find your own way to keep on the path till it's time to go.Every day I find I have to remind myself that this physical life has changed for good and I really have to take my own advice and slog through each 24 hour period knowing that it will change for the better when it is time.There are countless numbers of people who are going through the same thing you and I are experiencing concerning our babies.In a way this loss has made me re-prioritize and put value on the truely important things and delete the rest.I'm finding out just how much really does not matter as events and most people don't qualify as meaningful or important anymore,Just a select few starting with my wife.It actually (except on a couple of random occasions) has diminished my stress level and I just don't take much of anything too seriously anymore as it is all in passing and impermanent.I had a very clear visit for the first time in a dream from Willy.I'll have to tell you about it.Very telling about the reality his new existence and that he is young again.Comforting.I'm yapping too much here.Please let me know what's new and how you are,buddy!.........Your pal, Bubba.................... Hey, Bubba. I've been doing a lot of reevaluating also. I do feel gosh awful for not keeping up with all the newcomers in the forum but my vision is getting better again so I hope to be able to start picking up as I have in the past. No, I ain't going blind or nothing. It's just that there are times that I can see so much better than other times and I'm also due to get stronger prescription glasses, me thinks. I have 3 different pairs of 3 different strengths that I use for 3 different purposes but my PC prescription glasses are "not as strong" as they used to be. Know what I mean? The other two pair are over the counter pharmacy glasses and, yada, yada, yada ... Absolutely: Re-prioritize is a great word for it. I'm with ya. Also, I am back to using several different "coping mechanisms" which I used to use in my 20's and 30's. Great stuff and I'd love to share with you. I think you're the type who'd get into that sort of thing and it would work for you as well. Perhaps others here, too. Oh Wow! You got visited by Willy! Oh Wow! He was young again like you said. I'll bet he was happy, healthy, frisky and more. Well, I sure hope so and ... Were you in the dream with him? I'm very excited to hear about your dream. Did I say Wow?! The last time I dreamed about Alex was ... Well, I can look up the exact day and it was within a month or 2 after he didn't come home. OMG! Bubba, you have got to hear about that dream. It was ... I did not know I was dreaming until I woke and ... Oh, it was incredible. I'll share that with you, too. Funny thing about that dream is that I vaguely remember my late Dad being there and my wonderful late Kenny being there and me greeting them sort of as a "by the way" type thing, but ... I went right to Alex. He was back here with me and ... I'll tell you later. It sure as heck knocked my socks off. Please do share your dream with me when you're able. Again ... Yeah. I'm "okay" also. I caught that, Bubba. I heard and felt you especially after all the rest you said then I went back to you being "okay." Yes, I feel you, my good Pal. More Hugs to You and Yours!!! Always, Dottie xoxoxox PS. Now for me to copy all I just typed, enlarge it, put it on a blank email and check the spelling.  PS. PS. I'm typing from the enlarged print on that email now. Good dang thing cuz I could barely read what I typed. Oy. Sorry, but I am giggling about that. How embarrassing it would have been should I have sent it the way it was. You'd have thought me drunk, high or ... Hey. What's wrong with that? Never mind and more Hugs!!!
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