Hi Dottie-----Thought I would drop by to say hey and hope your doin ok.I know there is a milestone date coming up and was thinking about you.
Your forum pal, Bubba.................

Thanks so much, Bubba and Big Hugs! I had the strangest day dreaming off and on but it was the same dream. Hand to my Heart. I was composing a very beautiful post for you and Willy. I don't even know if those images exist and will try my best to recall all I said in my dream and find those images. Well, even if I do find them, I don't think they would all go on one post at your thread so I'd have to make some clickable for you to bring up.

Most of it was in gold and in message form within those gold images. I kid you not. All day long. If they don't exist, I'll try my best to recall all that they said, my own added comments and then make them myself but you know how dreams go. I sure wish I had written it all down the moment I woke. However, in my mind, I had already sent them to you in your Shooting Star thread. I will do my best. It may take a while and I may or may not be able to recall but I sure would love for you to see what I dreamed I gave to you and Willy cuz Wow and Awesome! Honest and for true.

I came to sing a sweet lullaby to Alex tonight then I'll come to your thread and ask you to please come here and read my response to you, Bubba. Okay?

Hugs, Love and Peace to You, Your Dear Wife, Willy, Lily and all the Gang!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi Dearest Most Precious Alex. I came by to sing you a Lullaby and tuck you in. I hope you like the images I chose as well as the song. I think you will My Treasured Feather Child. Shhh ... Here's your Lullaby.

Hey Dottie-------I couldn't find your story about the doctor visit and the pain caused by the stress.Maybe your could direct me as to which thread and what page to go to.The second story is not earth shaking but maybe at least coincidental.I was talking with someone yesterday about Willy and she shared a story about her cat that she adored and his eventual passing.Seems she had adopted her cat before she was married and he followed with her into marriage.She had bonded with him and considered him her child even after she had her own children.When he died (in her arms) she said to him to go to the mansion and wait with God and she would be with him another day forever.To this day many many years later she is still in deep sorrow about his passing.That story was enough to keep my attention as it was but then she told me his name.His name was Alex and I about fell over.I of course immediatly thought about you and realized once again just how many of us that there are who go through what we have been talking about the past 5 weeks.I have never known anyone in my life with a pet named Alex and in the course of just a number of weeks I now am aware of 2.I will say an extra prayer for you tonite and of course on the 16th for you and the eventual reunion of you and AlexYou know the longer I am away from Willy the more I think that he (and I'm sure Alex as well )are lookin at us and and sayin to each other "Our mommy and daddy really need to quit cryin because were right here and not goin anywhere till they get here.They really have nothin to worry about and there makin themselves sick for no good reason"
That's what I'm thinkin for some reason..............



If it is ok to ask and if you are up to it would you tell me about my relationships with the people below using your abilities:
1.Scotty 2.John 3.Pepe Again if you are not up to it FAHGET about it and get some rest.ok????? Pleeeeezzzzzzz?????????


No Pity(as you always admonish) I just want you to be okay.......okay????--------Your Buddy Bubba...........

Hi, Bubba. About me not being able to cry too hard: It's here on page 8, Post #159 down near the very bottom. Okay?

Oh My Gosh about your friend and her fur kid named Alex. Holy Cow! As far as her still grieving after all these years, I won't even tell you the very first song that popped into my mind cuz you don't need to know. I will say this about that song, when it gets to that one part, I cry my eyes out every single time and have for many, many years even when I was in my 'great times' part of life. Yep, it's a pretty old song but sure does apply.

I believe you're right about Willy and Alex saying those things to us. Honest and for true. I do know they can sense us, sometimes visit us and it would upset them horribly to see us so sad. That's a fact, Jack. Word.

Okay, you asked me: "If it is ok to ask and if you are up to it would you tell me about my relationships with the people below using your abilities: 1. Scotty 2. John 3. Pepe." I'll be glad to do that, Bubba. You betcha. Of course, you know where my mind is not though. Sorry about that. I just can't seem to help it. Please give me a few days to get over this one year anniversary stuff then I'll work my "magic" for you as best I can. My pleasure, Bubba. And, I'll do my very, very best to be Okay. You have my word. About doing my best to be Okay, that is. Heh.

More Hugs, Love and Peace to You and Yours!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Dottie the main thing to be as well as possible during these next few days.Luckily I am of somewhat clear mind at the moment and will be checking in again tomorrow to make sure U R ok.We both need rest and it is late.So I'll be back(in arnold swatchinwhatshis names voice) later tomorrow.I wish for you a deep restful sleep.........toodle loo.........Bubba.............

Dottie real quick before I nod off.You probably know this already but I'll take a chance.Learned think from a shrink when I was being treated for Panic Disorder.Lay down or at least in a lazy boy recliner and stretch all your muscles by pointing your toes forward and stretching your arms for a few seconds or more.Do this as if you are trying to push all the tension out of your body.Then, inhale through your nose and exhale through your mouth.All slooooowlyyy....This should help you relax and bring down your B.P...............If this dosen't work go for the Jack Daniels.........naw just kiddin.........I think the breathing exercise will help.............Sleep well friend.........Bubba..........

Okie Dokie, Bubba. C U Latuh ...

More Hugs!

Your Pal,
Dottie xoxoxox

Edit: I just saw your second post. Okay, thanks! I'll try that, too. More Hugs!

Dottie

I know tomorrow is a one year "anniversary" for you. In case I am not online tomorrow, I just wanted to drop you a note here and let you know I am thinking about you and will be tomorrow also...for I had written your name on my daily calendar as a special day to remember a special person.

I am so sorry for all you have gone through and if I could work miracles...your story would have a happy ending and none of what happened would have been allowed to happen.

Just know you are being thought of and as we all share the same pain...we understand what it means when we all share a tight HUG!

Hugs, peace and healing are my wishes for you. You and your babies, especially Alex, will always be together...they and he can never be taken away from your heart....they are safe there now.


Judy

Dottie----------Just stopped by to check in on you.I'll be brief today.Wishing you a quiet and peaceful day as I know this is a difficult one.Adding you and Alex to my prayers today.Talk tonite or tomorrow.Hugs,
Bubba...............

Dottie

Hoping you have internet and video access today.

To you from Alex:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZGwDYBWEDSc...feature=related



Fields of Gold

You’ll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
As we walk in the fields of gold

So she took her love
For to gaze awhile
Upon the fields of barley
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold

Will you stay with me, will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in the fields of gold

I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I’ve broken
But I swear in the days still left
We’ll walk in the fields of gold
We’ll walk in the fields of gold

Many years have passed since those summer days
Among the fields of barley
See the children run as the sun goes down
Among the fields of gold
Youll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in the fields of gold
When we walked in the fields of gold
When we walked in the fields of gold

And another song for all of us here at the forum!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1eR1ni6sZK4

Life is Eternal

I've been doing a lot of thinking
About growing older and moving on
Nobody wants to be told that they're getting on
And maybe going away
For a long, long stay.
But just how long and who knows
And how and where my spirit will go
Will it soar like Jazz on a saxophone
Or evaporate on a breeze
Won't you tell me please
That life is eternal
And love is immortal
And death is only a horizon
Life is eternal
As we move into the light
And a horizon is nothing
Save the limit of our sight
Save the limit of our sight

Here on earth I'm a lost soul
Ever trying to find my way back home
Maybe that's why each new star is born
Expanding heaven's room
Eternity in bloom
And will I see you up in that heaven
In all its light will I know you're there
Will we say the things that we never dared
If wishing makes it so
Won't you let me know
That life is eternal
And love is immortal
And death is only a horizon
Life is eternal
As we move into the light
And a horizon is nothing
Save the limit of our sight
Save the limit of our sight

Dottie

Have you seen this....?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wnTT7u5U4Yo

Hope you're doing okay.

Jan.

{{{{{{{Judy}}}}}}} Thank you so much! Sorry that I've been "hibernating" for so long but I know that you especially understand because of your "anniversary" not too long ago. It's been a bit of an emotional roller coaster ride just as it is for so many of us that share this pain.

I knew you'd remember and be thinking about me, sending love and prayers because you're so very special and always there for everyone even through your own tears and sorrow. Please know that I've been thinking about and praying for you and yours, too. Judy, you always know just what to say using your words whereas I mostly rely upon images, songs and the like. Truly, you are a Treasure!

God Bless and Big Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi, Bubba! Sorry that I was gone so long. This is the first time I've turned on my PC since the last time I was here and as soon as I turned it on tonight, I did come straight to LS.

Thank you very much for your kind thoughts, prayers and hugs to Alex and me. It does mean the world. Hey, we can use all the prayers and hugs we can get, right? You bet. God Bless You and Yours!

Hugs, Love and Peace to You, Your Dear Wife, Willy, Lily and the Gang!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi Dottie, Hope you made it thru the week ok. I know you were dreading it. It's so very hard. I struggle each day still to try to move on. A lady I work with thought I was mad today. I said no just feeling a little sad. I miss my cat. She looked at me like I had lobsters crawling out of my ears. I cried on the way home again. Someone else said "have a nice 2 days off". I don't even look forward to my days off anymore. It's not the same. I sure you and others know how I feel. Just really wanted to say you have been in my thoughts.. Hugs.. Ann

{{{{{{{Jan}}}}}}} It's so very difficult for me to type through my tears. I love that song sung by Eva Cassidy and God rest her gentle soul. The photo is awesome! Awesome! Awesome! It goes so perfectly with that song and video.

I must confess that I'm sitting here right now, crying my eyes out and saying, "My God. This isn't happening. This isn't happening. This isn't happening." Over and over and over ... You see, that's where I was in my state of "hibernation" for the past couple weeks or so because I felt another breakdown coming on and it's how I get through it and remain normal and functional. I go into my "This is not happening" mode.

Jan, a couple days ago as I walked by Alex's nest box, I heard a very faint and quick "chirp" that Alex would make when he was either dreaming or waking and ready to come out of his nest box. I wasn't even thinking about him, however I did stop to listen and see if any other sounds came and none did. I feel that faint quick chirp may have been the sound of something else and I was mistaken.

Then a day or two ago while I was sitting at my sofa playing with Buddy dog and Styx kitty, I heard wings flapping for a couple seconds. Again, I wasn't thinking about Alex at all but it's the exact sound he made when he flapped his wings and the sound came from the direction of his cage. Was it something else I heard that just sounded like wings flapping? I know for certain that neither the chirp sound nor the wing flap sound were auditory hallucinations. So, no. They weren't hallucinations. I'll shoot a PM to you to explain. Wink and Nudge. Still, it could have been something else.

At one point within the last three days, the light fixture flickered again. Just one time only and stopped. This is the second time in 20 years that the light fixture in the dining area has ever flickered. Still, just that one time only and I was not sitting at the PC when it happened ...

Oh, I could go on and on but mostly I want to reach out, give you a HUGE HUG and kiss or your cheek and say THANK YOU! Alex loved that song so much sung by Eva Cassidy and I did sign into my YouTube account to add it to a "Playlist" I made with songs and videos in Tribute to Alex. I need go add the Miracle Day song videos you gifted to me and Alex. I love them both so much! Thank you, Jan! In fact, I'm going to go add those videos right now then come back.

Please know that you, Ziggy, Zita and all are in my thoughts and prayers, Hon!

Big Tight Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie

PS. You owe me a box of Kleenex. More Hugs!!!

{{{{{{{Ann}}}}}}} God bless you, Dear One! I can only imagine what gawd awful pain you're feeling. I sure do empathize with you greatly. You know that for certain. As far as the lady at work not understanding, she could "walk a mile in your shoes" as the saying goes.

Oh, how you miss your fur baby and it's still so fresh in your mind just like yesterday. Why the heck does it have to take so gosh darned much time to get past this terrible pain, sorrow and grief? Rhetorical question, of course. You know what, Ann? This reminds me of a song ... Which is no surprise, I'm sure. Most things remind me of an image or song. Anyway, this is a very, very old song and I always even to this day cry my eyes out when one part of the song comes up even though I began crying like crazy when that part of the song came up before any great fur kid losses happened in my life and the song is ...

"Mr. Bojangles." Every time it gets to the part that goes: "He told me of a time working minstrel shows, traveling throughout the South. Spoke through tears for 15 years how his dog and he traveled about. His dog up and died, up and died. After 20 years he still grieves." My gosh. I'm crying right now just thinking about it.

I feel we'll still have tears in 20 years from losing our babies. Those special and unique fur babies and feather babies that left the biggest foot prints in our minds, hearts, souls and lives. Is it worth all this pain and suffering of having lost them? Absolutely! I cherish every moment I had. Still, that just don't make it any easier. Does it, Ann? I wish I could reach out and HUG you so big!!!

Big Tight Comforting Hugs to You and Yours!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

My God, Jan! That is so magnificent! I've never heard it before and the video is awesome along with the Quaker photo you chose to post with it. I've saved all to my files and YouTube Alex Tribute playlist. Thank You!!! Thank You!!! Thank you!!!

More Big Tight Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Yes, Jan! I've seen that one of Einstein the African Grey performing and love it! Love it! Love it! Many thanks, Hon. Awww! He's a "Super Star" and says so himself at the end of his performance. Awww! God Bless You! I have some others of Einstein. Have you heard him singing "Who let the dogs out?" So funny. Thanks again!

More Hugs!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox