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Oh my gosh, Dottie, I do know this song but I only just had a chance to click on your link and the tears just don't stop...

They are good tears though because of the love they represent.

Thank you for that link.

Jan.

You're so welcome {{{{{Jan}}}}} Are you ready for another? I pray you find comfort, love and peace in this song, Dear One. It's the most beautiful song of Blessings that I've ever heard in my life and I wish to give these Blessings to You and your Precious Fur Babies Ziggy and Zita with Much Love!







Lay down your head and I'll sing you a lullaby. Back to the years of Loo-Li,Lai-Ley. And I'll sing you to sleep and I'll sing you tomorrow. Bless you with love for the road that you go.

May you sail fair to the far fields of fortune with diamonds and pearls at your head and your feet and may you need never to banish misfortune. May you find kindness in all that you meet.

May there always be Angels to watch over you. To guard you each step of the way. To guard you and keep you safe from all harm. Loo-Li,Loo-Li,Lai-Ley.

May you bring love and may you bring happiness. Be loved in return to the end your days. Now fall off to sleep. I'm not meaning to keep you. I'll just sit for a while and sing Loo-Li,Lai-Ley.

May there always be Angels to watch over you. To guard you each step of the way. To guard you and keep you safe from all harm. Loo-Li,Loo-Li,Lai-Ley. Loo-Li,Loo-Li,Lai-Ley.


Many Angels and Comforting Hugs to You and Your Fur Babies!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Hi Ann

My husband says almost the exact same things about being a mental wreck if he thought like that. I guess everyone copes in their own way. I feel depressed and mostly numb, having opened my heart to a new cat who won me over and now having to grieve her too, especially knowing that I took her to the wrong vet at a critical moment that her life could have been saved. I wake up sick, thinking that the vet's were insisting we force feed, when poor Ziggy had a severed bowel. I kept telling her that she needed to eat to get better, because she was getting jaundiced and the vet had said that when cats don't eat it affects the liver. Oh my poor sweet girl, she would have been better off without any of the veterinary "care", just to be given the love and care to die peacefully. But if it had been the "right" vet she would most likely be alive. Life is just plain unfair, and I honestly don't know how to get over this or find any meaning in it.

I have the same thought about the emergency vet - I wanted to be with Ziggy while she operated, and the vet asked me to wait outside. If I had insisted to be with her maybe I could have asked the right questions... having no idea what they needed to do... I am sickened by the whole thing.

My dear sweet Ziggy, such a cruel ending to her life for such a gracious and appreciative cat...

Somehow nothing else matters very much to me right now.

Jan

Oh Jan, I know that feeling. Nothing else matters very much to me right now. I feel the same exact way. I keep trying to tell myself it's over there's no turning back, Arthur is never coming back. And if I did make a mistake I'll have to learn by it for the next time. It doesn't take away the hurt, we just can't bring them back!...Now, Piper is missing. My Sister-in-law just dumped her on me a few weeks ago. We've been taking care of her for 2 yrs while they "got thier life in order" after a move to another state. Little did I know she had no intentions of taking her back. She just told me that if she takes her back she's just going to "get rid of her". She's a sweet thing of 7yrs. No problem at all. Sleeps most of the time. My Dad let her in around 530p and doesn't remember letting her back out. I can't find her in the house. I've been searching til 2am. Nothing. She usually doesn't stray far from the house. This in not a good sign.. Will update any news. In the meantime Jan, I know those "doubts" are going to stay with us for a long time. We just have to find a way to concentrate on the good life they had with us..Big Hug.. Ann

I'm so very sorry that you lost your cats. Someone SHOT Ziggy?? Another poster's cat died because it's tail was pulled? That's just unfathomable cruelty. Those aren't human beings. Those are monsters.

I find it comforting that there are far more people like the folks on this board, then the devils that do such horrific deeds. I swear if I ever had caught someone hurting one of my dogs, ya'll would be corresponding with from my home in jail...

Ann - I'm sending my wishes that Piper is safe and sound and will return quickly. After Zita disappeared her brother Zeus was not allowed out at night. Still sometimes he slipped out and I would be just sick about it and sure he'd be dead. But Ziggy, we weren't too worried about, because she never wanted to go out at night and she never went far, always within calling distance. I just never, never thought Ziggy would be gone so soon. The risks should have been minimal for her... There is virtually no traffic where we are - we live on an acreage and a dead end street.

I somehow want there to be meaning in this, but frankly I don't think there is - I think it's just a random series of wrong place and wrong time, then a suffering sweet soul's life was prematurely ended. I just feel this "I don't care about anything" feeling right now - numb and sick inside.

I know a lot of people who believe in the idea that we attract everything in our life to us - what a horrible thought that having intensely loved, and cared for my pets, giving them the life that I imagine I would want as a feline being that I could have somehow drawn all this horror to them. My poor Zeus, he is going through the same as me. He was deeply attached to Zita, then he became attached to Ziggy, which was quite amazing because my husband's cat never bonded with Zita or Zeus and I wasn't sure Zeus would bond with another. Now Zeus is going through the same grief as I. He eats his food alone, when there were always two eating together. He no longer has company on the couch or the lawn chair where they loved to sprawl together. I wonder if he hurts as much as me. The weird thing is I love Zeus but my bond with Zita, then Ziggy were much stronger, if I'm really honest. I guess because both were extremely sweet cats, both "healers" whereas Zeus is more independent - Zita was my kitty buddha, Ziggy, my "sound" healer - her purring was so loud my mom could not hear me on the phone sometimes.

Just the evening before she got shot I was telling her what a wonderful sound healer she was...

I couldn't look at any cards or books with orange tabbies on them after Zita disappeared, but after we got Ziggy I bought a mother's day card for my mom saying how "purr-fectly wonderful" she was, with two orange tabbies on it - I was going to label it Zeus and Ziggy. I forgot to give it to my mom when I went to see her (she lives in another city) and she said not to worry, so I was going to save it for the next year. I just came across it looking for a birthday card. It's those little things that hurt.

My stepdaughter was not that bonded to either cat and my husband just seems to not think about it, though she really loved him and he knew it.

At night she used to snuggle against me and I miss that so much!

After we lost my family dog, my dad never got another pet. He could not deal with the hurt, and that dog was 12. Having lost 3 young cats I can understand not wanting to love any new ones. With me, I can't help myself falling in love with animals. It is what brings me joy, but now such intense pain.

take care Ann and all others who are going through a dark time of grief.

Jan.

Thanks for your note. I have put posters up on the main mailboxes in hope that this person is found.

There are some sick people out there who take joy in taking away the life of innocent creatures. Of course we didn't see what happened, but we talked to all our close neighbours and all have pets also and know nothing about what happened.

The vet said the injury went straight through her abdomen so unless a perfectly round stick type implement went through her it must have been a bullet.

Thanks again for writing.

Jan.

Dearest Jan, I realize that "once you had the rarest rose that ever deigned to bloom." And two days from now, it will have been a week since "cruel winter chilled the bud and stole your flower too soon." My heart as well as my eyes weep for you and your tragic loss due to some monster's cruel act and I felt a very urgent need to find a way which could somehow ease your pain, sorrow and grief. Since I express myself far better using images, poems, songs and the like, I chose two for you this day. Please, first read the poem that I'm going to type out if you would? Then, when you reach the bottom, click on the image that I chose, enhanced, framed and beveled. To me, it's the perfect image to accompany the poem.

Remember, once you get to the end of the poem, please turn up your volume and click on the image which is titled "Cat Heaven." No, it isn't a song. This is something very special. It's a gift which beautifully compliments the poem as though they should go hand in hand. I hope and pray that all you see and hear will be of some comfort to you, Dear One. God Bless You Most Abundantly!!!






Winging Many Angels and Hugs Your Way to Comfort You, Guide You and bring You Peace and Love!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Dottie - thank you for that poem and for the lullaby which is beautiful. I couldn't bring myself to listen to the lullaby until just now, because I have to be ready for the tears. It is so heart warming that you care so much for people you don't even know to do these things. There are so many caring people on this site, and your contributions are so special. I really, really appreciate it.

We put up posters about Ziggy's shooting on the two of the group rural mailboxes and this morning one was ripped down. My husband is out there now putting it right back up. There is a guy in the neighbourhood we spoke to when Zita disappeared with 2 teen boys, who told us cougars were rampant at night. He drops his kids off at the bus stop early in the a.m. when the poster must have been ripped down. Though we spoke to him when Zita disappeared, he wasn't exactly warm hearted and friendly. We don't know and we have no evidence yet, but I sure hope somehow the shooter will be discovered and charged. Anyone who reads this - please send your thoughts and prayers that this person be forced to understand the effects of his/her actions. I don't want to see anymore of our pets killed and in such a senseless way. Maybe if there is enough prayers or wishes to this effect, something could happen....

We are putting up 3 posters at the same mailbox now and we'll see if those get ripped down. It seems that someone ripped down Zita's poster once as well. Makes me want to find a hiding spot and see who's doing it. Also there is an article in our local newspaper this morning about Ziggy's death, and we were featured on the television station's news last week. If the local police find that a particular person is ripping the posters down, then maybe they can investigate this. I hope to see this person go to jail for this and at minimum go through the pain that Ziggy and I have had to go through. Here they can face 6 months in jail and / or a $2,000 fine. Nothing compared to the jail that I'm put in with Ziggy's and Zita's loss, but someone needs to know there are consequences for these heartless actions.

Thank you so much Dottie for your care - it is much needed and appreciated!

love and light - Jan.

Oh Wow, Jan. Firstly, you're very welcome and I pray what I wrote and posted not only helped your tears to flow and not only lifted your heart just a little but that it also gave you some Hope and the strength to carry on doing exactly what you have been and still are right now. I see there are suspects. Well, I don't wish to sound like I'm going off half cocked but that man and his two "night cougar hunting" sons sound very much worth watching. What a coincidence about the timing when your sweet fur baby Ziggy's poster was torn down. One of them, that is to say.

I cannot begin to tell you how good it does my heart to hear about the media exposure both in print and on the air that has drawn attention to this monstrous act. Also, I do remember many years ago when my brother Tony took me to a huge theater to see David Copperfield performing in person and we were way, way out in the "nose bleed" section so that anyone on stage looked like an ant. My brother had a pair of special binoculars (not your usual "really good ones" you buy at most fine shops) and when I looked through them, I had to jump back as I felt like I was right on stage and about to bump into the magician. These binoculars are on sale to the public and, if my memory serves me correctly, Tony bought them at a Sharper Image store. Those binoculars sound like a great idea when staking out the place (as you put it) and see just who is tearing down those posters. Sometimes, that bit of circumstancial evidence is enough to make any investigation a whole lot easier!

Only 6 months in jail and / or a $2,000 fine? Where I live, what was done to Ziggy would be punishable with up to 3 years in prison and a $2,500 fine. I did a lot of googling after my Alex was murdered to see what the maximum prison time was for an animal abuser and found cases where people served longer and one female served eleven years in jail. All eleven years. Of course, her crimes were ... I won't even go there.

I know that Heavenly Justice is the call of a Higher Power but it's perfectly fine to pray hard and often that earthly justice will be done. Jan, please know that I haven't missed even one day lighting candles and saying special prayers for you and Ziggy when I light yours. That earthly justice is just one of the things I pray for in your case and, please God (or insert the deity of your choice), please make it so!!!

God Bless You Most Abundantly, Jan!!! I'm right by your side!!!

Sending many Angels and also St. Francis of Assisi to Comfort you, Guide you and also to kick some serious butt regarding the guilty person or persons. Please pardon my language but them Angels and St. Francis are great butt kickers to that breed of monster. You bet!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Dottie - thanks again, your posts do lift my heart as well. Your idea about the binocular is something to also think about. Now they have to rip down 3 posters - if they get ripped down, extra ones will go up. But if it's ripped down tomorrow, will definitely try to figure out a way of finding out who's doing it. I am going out of town on Thursday for a few days so maybe hubby will have to do it. He used to be a police officer, so maybe he'll have some ideas...

Blessings to you!

Jan.

Jan, My prayers are with you that you find out who did this. Sounds to me like some kids. However, adults are known to do crap like this too. I read a story a while back where someone shot a cat with, of all things, a bow and arrow, just 'cus it kept coming into his yard!. Sit quietly and hold a picture of Zita and ask her to help you with this. Stranger things have happened! I'm glad you got a lot of exposure with the media on this too. Don't give up. Keep us informed. By the way, Piper returned. I got concerned 'cuz we don't let her out at night, she never strays far from the house and always comes when I call. That night she didn't. So not like her. I paniced. But alls well (for now).. Ann

Hi Ann - glad to here Piper returned!

I like your idea of holding a picture. I belong to a spiritual type group and I'm going to ask them all to send thoughts that the shooter understand all the pain created and learn respect toward living creatures; that something positive come of her death. Actually, if anyone reading this is willing to take a few seconds with that thought, or prayer, I would really appreciate that.

I do believe in the power of group intention....

thank you Ann

Jan.

Best of luck Jan, My thoughts and prayers are most definitely with you!..Hugs. Ann

Dearest Jan, I'll try. Honest and for true, I will try. It's only within the last couple months or so that I've begun to actually feel anger and then to express it. I know that you realize most adult "serial killers" and others who torture and kill innocent people actually began as kids doing the same to poor, defenseless, trusting, sweet, loving animals. Mostly cats and dogs. Well, I promise I will try my utmost to calm myself and pray that the culprit or culprits come to realize the evil they're committing as well as how dramatically adversely it affects those around them especially the fur kid Mommies and Daddies.

I promise Jan. I will do my level best to make my prayers sincere and not just "rattle them off" if you know what I mean. I will, Hon. I sure will.

Jan? Piper came home? I read all your posts and ... I don't see that. Wow!!! I'm so happy for you! See? There is a God and "She" is good!

Tons of Hugs and Lotsa Love to You, Your Family and all Your Fur Babies here and Above!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

Dear Jan,

My prayers are with you on your horrendous loss of your beloved kitty. You were obviously a loving and caring "mom"! May God Bless you and speed the healing.

Thank you for your thoughts... I am so sickened and I find it hard to relate to most people right now since losing a cat seems trite to a lot of people. I am going through the sort of grief like losing a best friend / child / partner... I would hardly dare to even say that to most people.

These losses make life seem pretty meaningless right now.

thanks again.

Jan

Thank you - I am being quite selfish right now and not taking time to hear other people's stories and pain. I am out of town right now without a lot of internet time, but I would like to know more about what's happened to you or your pets...

I keep thinking and waking up all night - this person who has made my Ziggy suffer and die, and has created so much suffering for me, is just walking around without remorse. The vet who failed to do the exploratory surgery didn't give her the last chance she deserved, and hasn't even offered an apology. And now there is no turning back.

I am searching for ways to cope, but such murder is considered trite by the general public it seems and I am expected to carry on like normal. Unfortunately this is impossible for me... Life is not fair, but how do people find meaning and carry on when such things happen?

thanks again for your good wishes and intentions...

Jan

Thanks for your caring thoughts...

Jan.

Dear Sweet Jan, please do NOT read any of my posts about my loss and what happened to my other two fur kids in this forum area. Please don't, I beg you. It will tear your heart to shreds and make it so much more painful and unbearable to you about what happened to your precious fur child Ziggy. Okay, now that I said that, I realize you're tempted. Don't do it, Hon. Not yet. Okay? I'll let you know when I feel you may be able to handle it. Please, please, please promise me. Okay? I trust you, Jan!

But! My Tributes to Alex and Cocoa in that forum are very lovely indeed and uplifting if you wish to sneak a peek. *Big Smile!*

Love ya to bits and pieces!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox

To My Mommy Jan With All My Love Forever and Longer!!! See how Happy You make Me and my Big Happy Smile all because of You?! Please Celebrate My Life with Me!!!







Hey, Mommy! I'm young again, happy, healthy and have lots of friends, too. And guess what? I'm staring in a Movie like I am now, young again! Wow!!! It does shock Jean Luc Picard from Star Trek Generations and Data is pretty upset, too. But that's okay cuz Tom Cruise is one very happy camper. By the way, what the heck is a Rubiks Cube and how the heck does it work? Anywhooo, click on me holding that whatever it is and see my Movie! Weee! I'm a Famous Celebrity now. Woo Hoo and Yipieee!!!











To The Bestest Mommy in the Whole Universe! And that's My Mommy Jan!!!

I Love You Forever and Forever! I Love You with All my Heart! I Love You whenever We're together! I Love You when We're apart!!!

From Your Baby Fur Kid Ziggy and I Love Ya to Bits, Mommy!!!