Hi, Marcie, I'm at lunch right now at work, so I thought I would log in to catch up on the posts. Isn't it amazing the mischief our furkids get themselves into? Thank goodness your husband was able to cut off that trash can top. I am sorry you are having a difficult day today. There is nothing like a soft furry body rubbing up against us, or snuggling in our arms. It's hard adjusting our lives without the blessing of our sweet precious furkids' physical presence with us. Eventually we do "accustom" ourselves to this change, but the good news is that they are forever indelibly imprinted in our hearts and in our memories. Thank you so much for sharing your pictures of Omar with us, Marcie. And please know you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Thanks moon beam. He definitely has been imprinted in my heart. I was browsing dog adoption sites today online...just to look...I love looking. There were a couple that looked so much like Omar. If I could have, I would adopt them all. What made me so sad were the 10 yr olds and up that are now homeless. I wish I was stronger now to adopt a dog in need like that, but I couldn't go through the aging part again so soon. One day at a time.

Hi, Marcie. When you are ready to embrace a new furchild in your heart and home you will know it. I know what you mean about wanting to adopt every furry face you see. I have been like that since I was a very young child - - for many many many many many . . . . years. I am the "strange" one in my family for my affection of the fur "people", so it's nice for me to be able to have this forum where I can share my love of furkids of every shape and size and variety with other fellow fur parents. And please know, Marcie, that Omar is right there with you looking at each of the fur faces. I can just hear him softly whisper, "Hey, mom, what about this guy / gal?" "Hey, mom, check this one out!" And one day, you will also hear him whisper to you, "Hey, mom, I'm so glad you've found a new furchild to love." And then you'll know all is well. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, Marcie. And please let us know how you're doing.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Thanks moon beam. It's tough. We left for the beach again spur of the moment Friday night. I now find I love to just up and go away. It's hard to be home. Now I'm home, and my house is so lonely again. The 'pain' is lessening...but the 'empty' feeling is still so there. I'm gonna have to wait a while for another furbaby. I'm afraid I may compare every little furbaby to Omar now. Kids are busy with their sports, and we are always going. It was hard towards the last months with Omar because I had two kids playing baseball...on 3 teams...and we were always going...or I was running home to let him out...then leaving again, and the guilt was killing me. I don't want to do that with a new puppy. So we will see.

You will know when the time is right. Just as I am waiting for the right time. Just haven't made a connection yet. I love to look also. It is sad that there are so many fur babies out there needing a loving home.
Just hang in there!!!

Hugs to Ya!!!!!!!!

I think that's it. I will need a 'connection'. We will see.

Omar baby, you have been gone 3 weeks today. Oh I miss you so. The house isn't the same without you. I miss you being under foot all the time. Food is dropped and it just sits there. The doors are left open now with no fear of a furry guy getting in stuff. The grass is now getting un-yellow. I hear thunderstorms and no teeth chattering. I look at your pictures and still cry. Not a day has gone by that you have not been on my mind at least 80% of the day. I miss your bark...I miss your groaning at me for either a treat or to go outside. I miss your nails making a tapping sound on the kitchen floor when you do your 'treat dance'. I miss accidently kicking your water bowl and water spilling out on the kitchen floor. I miss your hair all over the steps where you loved to lay. I miss almost falling down the stairs because you decided to lay in a bad spot as I'm coming down the stairs. I miss stepping on your beef bones with bare feet. I miss your greetings as I come home. I miss our staring contests and you always winning. I miss our sharing of popcorn..even though you couldn't hear well, you knew when I made popcorn. I hope you're doing well at the Rainbow Bridge and are behaving. I want you to know how hard it was for me to let you go. I wanted to keep you with me for all eternity, but I couldn't see you deteriorate the way you were. I hope you forgive me. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.

I Love You to the moon and back.

Goodmorning,

I Love the way people talk to their furbabies the way I do. I makes me feel so good when I post messages to her.
We do miss them so much. Things we used to get aggrivated about (like spilling their water bowl) we now miss and would give anything for those things again.
I bet Omar is having lots of fun at the Rainbow Bridge!!!!!

Just wanted to say hi this morning and tell you keep posting to Omar he IS listening!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hugs!!!!!

Thank you sissycat. I like remembering all the things he did...good and bad. Now the bad seem so good. It's a hard day...but I must move forward.

Take care.
Marcie

Wow Omar. Tomorrow will be 4 weeks since you left us. I can't believe that long has already passed. We really miss you. The boys started school today. I missed hearing you bark at the kids out front and at the bus. You would get all excited looking out the window at the kids thinking they were all there to play with you. I still catch myself seeing something in the dark and it resembling you, and I jump thinking for a moment it is you. But then I remember it can't be you, because you have gone and are waiting for me at the Rainbow Bridge. I still have your big bag of dog food. I can't bare to throw it out. I keep finding your hair on the carpet now, and I scoop it up and put it in a baggy. You had so much fur that when I would brush you I teased I could make another puppy out of it. Maybe if I find enough of your fur around the house I can do that now?? I still miss petting you. I miss your soft fur. Your sweet face looking at me as to tell me something. I watched Brayden and Austin the other day. The first thing Brayden (3) said to me when he walked in the house was "Where's doggy?" I had to tell him "Doggy is gone". Austin (6) knows you are gone, and he gave me a hug. Then asked me what the wooden box was with your collar around it. It was hard for me to explain to him what 'ashes' were. I think I scared him. He doesn't remember his own doggy ashes his mom has put away in her room.

Well sweet dreams my Omar baby. I would love to kneel down and give you kisses on your snout while you are sleeping. Then whisper in your ear...I Love You Baby...to the moon and back. Just one more time.

I miss you bunches.

These two pictures were taken the morning I took him to the vet...one last time.

Omar baby. I'm having a rough day today without you. I seem to think I'm over the hard part, but then it comes back again. I can't pin point what brings it on, but I miss you soooooooooooooooooooo very much right now. When will the tears stop?? When will the hoping this is all a bad dream end? When will the pain end? We have your urn all nice with your picture and collar on it. We need to get our plaque engraved still. I can't think where to put you though. You were everywhere. I want to put it in the stairs since the landing between the two was your favorite place to lay. Protector. You were great. I miss you so much baby. I can't imagine ever having something as great as you were. I hope you are doing well. Hopefully NanNan is taking care of you. Or you are taking care of her. And my old dog Rocky. He was a great dog too. Two great dogs in my lifetime. I don't know if I can do a third. It hurts too much when they leave.

I love you baby. To the moon and back.

Found some pictures of Omar today while cleaning out my computer. Made me miss him so much. Thought I would share for anyone interested. These two are April 07...Easter

April 07

May 07

July 4, 2007. This is Omar on the right with his puppy hood best friend Shaina. Shaina passed away Feb 14, 2008. Omar is with her again...playing like old times.

August 8, 2007....almost a year to the day. He looked so healthy and young...wow.

Hi, Omarmommy, thank you so much for sharing your pictures of Omar with us. I can sympathize with how empty your heart and your life must feel right now. The anniversaries of losses can be very hard to "get through". And that is one of the reasons why it is helpful to have others we can talk to who understand our loss. Omar's sweet living Spirit is forever with you in your heart and memories, Omarmommy, and we are honored to be able to share in your memories of him. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and look forward to hearing from you when possible.

Peace and blessings,
moon_beam

Thank you for sharing these pictures of Omar. I can easily see giving him a big kiss on the top of that nose. I used to do that with my canine best friends for I had shepherds mostly and like Omar, they have a snout to grab and kiss.

you said earlier: Two great dogs in my lifetime. I don't know if I can do a third. It hurts too much when they leave.


If you feel it is meant to be, you will do a third. Yes, it hurts too much...and I have had more than 2 leave but I always
remember how many need to give and get love and appreciate a home so very much and with that unconditional love,
there is never ever any judgment. They always love us just for being ourselves.

My favorite saying from a mom here is: The pain of losing him will never ever be greater than the joy of knowing him.

I think of that often and it helps ease the pain. I would not trade the many years of joy to avoid the sadness for the time
with them was always more than worth it.

I wish you peace and healing and I know when you look into a pair of big eyes one day...you will know you just made a
connection.

Hugs
Judy

Thanks moon beam. I just realized that today is 5 weeks and I woke up so sick I stayed home. No sick physically, but emotionally. I hope this won't be every Wednesday. I have had some nights...while laying in the dark, that I hear things in the house. I get up to check things out, and everyone is sound to sleep. My windows are closed, so I have no idea what it is. I get all comfy again, and hear something again. Some times I get a 'feeling', but it's hard to describe. I seemed to always know when Omar came up to sleep with me. He would be quiet, but I could sense a presence I guess that he came threw the door. Sometimes he would grunt when he went to lay down or get comfy. I loved it. So I'm not sure if the 'feeling' I get is him coming to bed with me at night still...but I just can't see him. God I wish I could see him. Even if it was for just one last time. I miss him dearly.

Thanks Judy. It's a tough day again for me. I wonder if I had another furpup if things would get better. I guess time will tell. I'm sure there will be a pair of big eyes looking into mine again some day. Some day.