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yesterday morning was one of the hardest morning i have ever had to go through. i lost my 2 year old cat buttons to a freak accident. over night while we were sleeping she was playing with her ball on the island in our kitchen. on the island is an attached box like thing where we put our plastic bags. well she had dropped her ball into it and had stuck her head in the hole to get it out. she had done this many times and was able to get her head out of it. but for some reason she couldn't this time she struggle for a lil bit (the only reason we know this is because there are claw marks all on the side of the box) and then her paw slipped and she fell with her head still stuck in the box im guessing her neck broke and she died instantly or at least thats what i hope. its hard for me because i cant get the image of what probably happened outta my head. i keep thinking of her struggling and no one coming to help her. i keep thinking of holding her in my arms and balling my eyes out! i miss her like crazy im use to having her every morning rubbing on my legs when i get up and get ready for school and work. i miss hearing her meow and everything. i dont know what to do because i have no one to talk to. most people just say "its just a cat you will be fine" but she was more than just a cat to me she was like my baby! and we had to get a new kitten last night because of our older cat bud, or else he would grieve himself to death. but for some reason i cant even bring myself to touch the new cat because all i can think about is how much i dont want it all i want is my buttons back! and i feel terrible for thinkings this but i cant help it. i just miss her like crazy i dont know what to do i cant stop crying and everyone around me is thinking im stupid for being this upset.
i just cant stand not having her w/ me :'[
Dearest Brittany, I can only echo exactly what Moon Beam and Marcie have said. Firstly, my sincere condolences on your sudden and tragic loss. I do understand the guilt you're feeling because of what happened to one of my puppies many years ago which took his life in a different kind of tragic accident. It was gosh awful and I know how terrible you must feel. Hon, these things happen but I realize my saying that won't ease your pain in the least. I pray that it was quick and painless for your fur baby Buttons and did take the top photo to two programs to lighten it and sharpen it a bit for you. Unfortunately, I had to resize it before the program would accept it to make the enhancements. I can enlarge it now again though. Just let me know.
And here's your other photo enhanced slightly for you.
What a precious fur baby! And of course you don't feel close to the new kitten yet. When my last kitty Cocoa died, I got a new kitten too soon and felt the very same way, Dear One. Still, I've gone though the motions of petting, stroking, cradling this cat for all these years hoping he won't notice that I'm not able to feel close to him since I got him way too soon after Cocoa kitty died. After a few years, I finally came to accept Styx kitty as family and he's an old man now.
As far as people not understanding and saying, "It's only a cat. There are a lot more out there. Get a grip," and on and on and on ...
I keep hearing that regarding my very best friend feather child that I lost who was so special and always there for me just like your Buttons was for you. Of course Buttons wasn't just a cat. Buttons was family and a lot of people just don't get that. For many if not most of us, our fur babies and feather kids are our family and many times the very best friends we have both human and not human. I sure do understand that, Brittany. I'm so sorry!
Winging many Angels to you and Buttons for comfort and guidance during what must be just about the most gosh awful difficult time in your life. Also sending healing thoughts, prayers and lighting virtual candles for you and your precious Angel fur baby Buttons. I find it helps me because it's a very loving experience. If you wish to light any candles online, it is free and you can light as many as you wish, as often as you wish and for any reason you wish for yourself, your Angel fur baby Buttons and whatever you desire. Just click the Light a Candle image below to take you where you'll be told all about it and get that link. Only if you want to though. Okay?
Please come back to talk as much as you want to us, to your fur baby Buttons and even to yourself. Your pain, grief, sorrow and feelings of guilt and loneliness are so palpable that I feel it too especially since I feel so much guilt about what happened to my Alex and I could have prevented it. Coming here really does help, Dear One.
Sending You and Your Angel fur baby Buttons Many Comforting Hugs!
Always,
Dottie xoxoxox