HELLO PET LOVERS
I am new to this ~ I posted this story on the "new beginning" forum instead of the death & dying pet support forum.
Although, there were a few who noticed and helped me tremendously, especially, Goliath, Myhrtisbrkn, Sissycat & Jorge.
Thanks to you guys, I'm able to function another day, although my heart hurts ...I miss my lil' punkin' pie, Zoe.

I AM HURTING TO WHERE IT'S ALMOST UNBEARABLE. I NEED SOME SUPPORT ON HOW TO DEAL WITH MY LOSS.

I GREW UP WITH NO DESIRE TO HAVE A PET OF ANY KIND, HOWEVER, TWO YEARS AGO, A CO-WORKER OFFERED ME THE MOST ADORABLE WESTIE (PUPPY) THAT I HAD EVER SEEN. TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT, I FELL COMPLETELY IN LOVE WITH THIS DOG (NAMED ZOE), I LOVED HER MORE THAN ANYONE IN MY LIFE ...SHE WAS MY SHADOW. SHE SLEPT WITH ME, WOKE UP WITH ME, WE PLAYED TOGETHER IN THE MORNINGS IN BETWEEN ME TRYING TO GET MYSELF READY FOR WORK, I LIVE CLOSE TO WORK, I'D COME HOME AND PLAY AND WE'D HAVE LUNCH TOGETHER ...I CAME HOME TO HER AFTER WORK SEEING HER JUMPING UP N' DOWN AT MY FRONT DOOR...ONCE I GOT IN...SHE JUMPED UP AND DOWN ON MY LEG UNTIL I PICKED HER UP (IN WHICH I DID ALMOST IMMEDIATELY), GAVE HER KISSES, RUBBING HER BACK AS SHE LICKED MY FACE. WE BOTH FELT THE LOVE AND AFFECTION FOR EACH OTHER ALL DAY EVERY DAY. AFTER DINNER, SHE GAVE ME "THE LOOK" THAT IT WAS TIME FOR OUR EVENING WALK. AFTER OUR WALK WE WOULD COME HOME AND RELAX AND PLAY UNTIL IT WAS TIME TO GO TO BED TO WAKE UP TO DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN. I NEED TO MENTION, I HAVE A LOVING HUSBAND AND TWO KIDS, THAT ADORED ZOE AS WELL, BUT NOTHING LIKE I DID. I WAS GUILTY OF GIVING ZOE MORE AFFECTION THAN TO THEM, BUT THEY UNDERSTOOD, THEY KNEW I WAS ATE UP WITH HER.

WELL, ON LAST THURSDAY (JUNE 12TH) OF ALL DAYS ...(MY BIRTHDAY)...ZOE AND I WERE HEADED INTO THE HOUSE AFTER OUR WALK, ( I ALWAYS UNCLIP HER LEASH ONCE WE'RE ON THE PORCH) ... MY NEIGHBOR HOLLORED AT ME THAT SHE NEEDED TO TALK. ZOE AND I WALKED OVER TO HER PORCH...ZOE ALWAYS WOULD STAY IN OUR YARD AND SHE WOULD FOLLOW ME IF I WALKED OVER TO MY NEIGHBOR ...HOWEVER, ZOE SPOTTED A SMALL RABBIT HOPPING IN THE NEXT YARD AND MADE A MAD DASH TO CATCH IT, RUNNING INTO THE STREET AND SHE GOT RUN OVER, SHE WAS KILLED INSTANTLY. I RAN OUT TO THE STREET, PICKED HER UP, LOOKING INTO HER FACE, SAYING HER NAME OVER AND OVER AND KISSING HER, PLEASE DON'T GO...BUT SHE WAS GONE. FROM THAT MOMENT, I CAN'T SLEEP, EAT, OR BARELY FUNCTION TO GO ON WITH MY NORMAL DAILY ROUTINE. MY FAMILY THINKS I SHOULD BE OVER THE DEVASTATION BUT THE ACCIDENT RUNS THROUGH MY MIND A HUNDRED TIMES A DAY. I HAVE ACCEPTED SHES PASSED, WE BURIED HER IN THE BACK YARD, I HAVE HER A BEAUTIFUL MEMORIAL STONE AND FLOWERS WITH HER PICTURE. I LOOK OUT MY WINDOWS OF MY HOUSE AND SEE HER BURIAL SPOT AND IT JUST KILLS ME. SHE WAS SO SPECIAL IN MY LIFE AND I KNOW THERE WILL NEVER BE ANOTHER ZOE. I MISS HER SOOOOO MUCH, I AM CONTINUOUSLY LOOKING FOR HER TO COME AROUND THE CORNER OF ANY ROOM. PULLING UP IN MY DRIVEWAY FROM WORK IS THE ABSOLUTE HARDEST THING NOT SEEING HER ADORABLE LITTLE FACE AT THE DOOR.

I FOUND THIS WEBSITE TO POSSIBLY GET SOME SUPPORT, I WOULD APPRECIATE ANY.
THANKS IN ADVANCE

Deanna,

She was just a doll. Who could not love a face like that. I'm glad to hear you are doing a little better. As Judy said in another thread (paraphrasing), we take our baby steps forward, and we're allowed to take one backwards, from time to time.

Thinking of you,
Dayna

Welcome to the family Deanna. Though you found us through having suffered a loss of such a precious love, I am glad you are here to heal right along with us.

Your Zoe's death is still so brand new to you and it will take alot of time and tears before you begin to feel just a little bit better.

When Goliath passed away so suddenly and unexpectedly I became crippled and lost all desire to live. I couldn't even imagine living without him. My world was completey turned upside down and nothing seemed right. Over time I realized his loving spirit would never leave me though his body had persihed. Because of him and the lessons of love he taught me I became a better me. Though I miss him each and every day, my life is good again. Each day is an opportunity for me to share Goliath's love with all those around me wherever I go. I will love him til the day after forever.

One day you too will feel Zoe's love and the happy memories she left for you. These are her gifts she left just for you when she passed away that are stored in your heart. This kind of bound love can never be shaken and lasts til the end of eternity.

Tell us stories about Zoe, bring more pictures and share her love and what she taught you. The journey of healing is long. But you will find inspiration and a hope which leads to happiness. Reach inside yourself and you will find Zoe is very much alive and well.....She will always be with you.

Much love wrapped with warm hugs Deanna,
Beth

Oh Zoe has such a sweet face. Just beautiful.
Glad you contiue to post here. It really has helped me. Even if it is a few words to Zoe. It just takes time and no one can make you rush the grieving process. I know if hurts so badly. You'll think you just can't go on another day, but you somehow manage to. Everyday is a day closer to seeing your loved one once again. You just have to keep remembering her sweet face and all of the great memories she gave you. When you are ready share some stories or more pictures. Would be glad to listen to them.
It WILL GET BETTER!!!!!

oh i am so sorry,when it comes to accidents and something dies i think its because god needs them for some reason,your hurt shows how much you cared.may god be with you,and bless little zoe,you both will be in my prayers.

It was really hard to read your post, through my own tears. The description of the love you shared with your dog is so similar to my dog, that I lost yesterday. Words can't even begin to describe it.

I just thought I'd offer you a cyber hug, and tell you how sorry I am for your loss. May we all heal in time.

Zoe looks so sweet. I'm deeply sorry for your lost. My dog Candy is going through cancer at the moment, but her sister Pepper was struck by a car 7 years ago and it was a heart wrenching loss. But now, years later, though I still miss her terribly, time does heal wounds and now I think of just the pleasant memories.

My deepest condolences for your lost.

I am so sorry for your loss - Zoe looks and sounds like an absolute sweetheart. Please don't listen to people telling you you should be getting over it - I have people doing the same thing to me, they simply don't understand.

My thoughts are with you x

Hello again from Buster and Jorge, please don't forget that we are here for you always, I know you are hurting so much that I wish I was near to give you a strong hug from Buster and my self, May God Bless You and Sweet and Beautiful Zoe .

My condolences in your loss of Zoe. I know how painful it is to lose a pet since I just lost Raygan last Friday. But I had weeks to "prepare". Your loss was so sudden and tragic. Don't let anyone minimize your grief for your beloved pet!! Pet loss is painful and real. I think I've grieved as much or more for my pets that than I have for humans. Dogs love us and like us no matter what and that is a gift more precious than gold. They never say that our shoes are ugly or that our cooking stinks or that our socks are unmatched because they don't care about the superficial stuff!

I hope that each day gets a little easier for you.

Hugs, Alice

Tight Hugs and Much Love, Dear One!

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

That picture of Zoe certainly shows just how adorable she is and will always be. I am so sorry to read about the accident. For some reason, it was Zoe's time to go and if that is not true then the accident would not have happened. That's the reasoning I use to help me understand such things. So I don't have to torture myself did I make the right FINAL decision? Understanding that things are taken out of our control for a reason we do not know..has helped me cope with more than one loss in my lifetime.

It is devastating pain you feel and it will take time for that pain to not be so overwhelming. We all feel the same intense pain on our loss and that is why we understand exactly how you feel and also why we can truthfully tell you...you are not alone in what you feel...
we are there or have been there and some are going again....that's the price asked of us when we accept these babies and their unconditional love in our lives.

Whatever the time is we are with them, it is never long enough..for them or for us..but none of us makes that final decision that changes our lives forever. All we can do is love them and treasure them while we can and pray their time does not come soon.

Accidents happen so quickly...it is like a double pain..twice the devastation..but we have no choice but to accept when it is their time to leave..no matter how much we hate it...we hate them being taken away. They are a part of us and their love and memories will be with us forever...only the physical can be taken from us..and that, indeed, hurts so very very much.

We combat that hurt by forcing ourselves to remember the fun and happy times...the times our sweethearts would want us to remember because they would never want us to be sad about anything.

It may help to post more pictures, tell some good memory stories about Zoe, and one thing many have found helpful is just to post here a letter or note to Zoe...telling her your feelings and thoughts...after all, she is that angel now sitting on your shoulder and she is listening very intently to whatever you say.

Take care...I wish you peace and healing....and...it really does take time and we do have to work away the pain the best we can.
What makes you feel good to do or say is the right thing. There are no time limits. And the people who truly understand have no judgments.

I would love to see more pictures of Zoe.

Thank you KendrasMommy
Your comment and support means so much to me. You are one of the reasons, as well as, the other on this website, that I can go on for another day, for the pain to ease with each passing day, so I can begin to focus on the wonderful memories I have of Zoe and I together ...even if it was just her and I sitting on porch doing nothing ... it was... in fact.... wonderful.
Again, thank you to you and to the rest of the great support (Goliath, Myhrtisbrkn, Sissycat, Jorge).
I've said it before, I couldn't go on without you.
Deanna



****Zoe ~ I miss you sweetheart. You are FOREVER IN MY HEART AND SOUL.
I got you're message the other day, the beautiful butterfly landed in my lap.
I will always love you.
Mama

LoveThem
Your words are so comforting to me ....you have helped me. I have been on such a crazy emotional roller coater, one day I am able to laugh, however, the same day ...I cry. I have now experienced anger and resentment of why was she taken away from me so soon and so tragically? Why? She was such a wonderful precious presence in my life. She had so much more to give and so did I. I am trying to learn, things do happen for a reason. I will, someday, come to terms with this, however, I couldn't do it without the support I have received from this site.
Thanks to you all!

Here are a few more pics ....enjoy ...she was adorable.

I feel so empty when I think about her being gone.

Angelcare,
How did you know I was go to her burial site and weeping?
This poem went straight to my heart and gave me a better insight of where she's at.
I can't thank you enough ...this is beautiful.

Zoodoctoo,
Thank you for your support. You're right, my loss is terribly painful. I had no time to prepare, we were coming home from our long evening walk (that we both enjoyed sooo much) to ... within 15 minutes afterwards..she was taken from me.
I is definately a healing process to come to terms to why, or how this could happen to her and me.
I miss her ...thank you for your understanding of my feelings.



****Buster and Jorge ~ THANK YOU

My heart goes out to you, as well Candy's Dad
I read your story yesterday morning of Candy's final moments, I couldn't even reply.
I know there was nothing I could say to make you feel better, although, you know we are all here for you.
Again, thank you for your understanding of my feelings.
Deanna

Thank you RhiRy,
Zoe was definately an absolute sweetheart.
Thank you for your understanding of my feelings.
Your comment means so much.
Deanna

Dearest Deanna, I had that feeling from all you've told about your precious Fur Child Zoe. You're so very welcome and it makes my heart soar knowing that my message to you brought some small comfort, Dear One.

Guess what else I know? Not only did Zoe not die, but also she is with you at this very moment. Right by your side and just a breath away. Deanna, a breath away is not far at all to where Zoe is. Shhh ... Be very still and you will feel and hear her whispers to you. Zoe is that very close by indeed.

Click on Zoe's photograph to view and listen. Then you will know all I say is true, Dearest Deanna.

















See? There she is. Right by your side showering you with kisses, Deanna! And she will never, never, ever leave you. She loves you so much and knows how much you love her.

Many Tight Hugs and Much Love to You and Your Fur Child Zoe.

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

Deanna, I am so sorry to read of your loss of your sweet girl Zoe. You found a wonderful place full of animal lovers here. As you read the stories here, you will see that we all shared a special bond with our babies. We know the unconditional love that these furry creatures give us. We are all so fortunate to have shared such wonderful memories with our babies. Unfortunately, we also share the pain of losing them. Some of us have lost our loved ones to illness, others like yourself through accidents.

I know you are thinking of Zoe and missing her so. Only time can ease the pain you are feeling. Grief is a process and is filled with ups and downs. But I hope that you will soon feel at peace with your loss. And I hope that we can offer you comfort and hope during this difficult time. Take care, Nancy

Sweet Deanna, here is a "Blessing" lullaby that my Alex loved so much. To me, it's just about the most beautiful song I've ever heard. I hope and pray that you and your Fur Child Zoe will enjoy it, too.

Please click on the glittering Angel Lady to hear her sing the Blessing song for you and Zoe. Okay? Hugs!







Lay down your head and I'll sing you a lullaby. Back to the years of Loo-Li,Lai-Ley. And I'll sing you to sleep and I'll sing you tomorrow. Bless you with love for the road that you go.

May you sail fair to the far fields of fortune with diamonds and pearls at your head and your feet and may you need never to banish misfortune. May you find kindness in all that you meet.

May there always be Angels to watch over you. To guard you each step of the way. To guard you and keep you safe from all harm. Loo-Li,Loo-Li,Lai-Ley.

May you bring love and may you bring happiness. Be loved in return to the end your days. Now fall off to sleep. I'm not meaning to keep you. I'll just sit for a while and sing Loo-Li,Lai-Ley.

May there always be Angels to watch over you. To guard you each step of the way. To guard you and keep you safe from all harm. Loo-Li,Loo-Li,Lai-Ley. Loo-Li,Loo-Li,Lai-Ley.

I also send Many Angels, Butterfly Kisses, Tight Hugs and Much Love to you and your Fur Child Zoe.

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

WOW ~ simply powerful ....very powerful.
Very chilling ...while watching and listening to the video (what an amazing beautiful song) , I got a warm feeling throughout my body, then overcome with goosebumps.
What an awakening!
You are a true Angel.
Deanna

I Love You Deanna and your precious Fur Child Zoe too, of course!

Hey, I do believe that's Zoe peeking around from behind the bush at the right and smiling at you from The Rainbow Bridge. See?



She's young again, happy, healthy, playing with lots of friends and waits patiently for that One Sweet Day when you and she will be reunited.

Tons of Hugs and Oodles and Boodles of Love!

Your Pal Always,
Angel xoxoxox

I love and miss you so much Zoe.
You're still mama's lil' punkin pie.
I would give anything to have you in my arms again!
Mama

I love your picture and can certainly understand how you miss this adorable sweetheart so very much. Zoe looks very very huggable.
Pictures are so precious. We don't always realize when we take them...how very much they will mean someday...and they do.

Pictures and memories....as we remember the good memories associated with the pictures, at least for that moment we can feel good inside....reliving as best we can that time.

We do love them forever and miss them forever and hold them in our hearts forever.

All we can do for each other is simply.....a hug...so here is a bunch of them for you.

HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG..................and so on to fill the page......cause we can never get enough hugs.

Hugs that say I know how you feel. I miss my baby also.

Thank you for the kind words Lovethem.
Zoe was very huggable. I hugged and kissed her constantly. My husband and two children were always like...."hello?", however, they understood ... my kids are big and are out of the huggable stage (18 yr old daughter and 9 yr old son) who thinks getting hugs and kisses from mom ..is not cool. I guess that's why I was all over Zoe so much. My husband said Zoe was my baby ...that it was her that I was nourturing, since our kids were older. I guess that was true. I do feel I've lost "my baby". My heart hurts for her loss. I am trying so hard to focus on our good times together, rather than her death, but the pain and hurt is still winning right now. It may sound crazy, but I started a journal today "To Zoe". I have poured my heart out in this journal and I can't seem to stop writing. I think it is helping ....it is allowing me to express my thoughts, some have been happy that made me smile, some ...I cried, and cried hard. Ewww ~ weeee ... I am trying so hard to stay strong, it's been 13 days since I've lost her and it seems like it just happened today.
Thanks to everyone on this site for your support.
It is something I look forward to when I come home in the evening.
Much Love
Deanna

****Zoe napping in one of her favorite spots, on top on my recliner. (I always covered her up with her blanket.) **

Deanna,

Those pictures are just priceless, sleeping on top of your recliner...isn't she sweet. They bring tears to my eyes. It sounds like you have a great family, and Zoe was an important part of it. These little furred ones are so dependent on us, more so than all but the youngest of human kids. And they are so uncomplaining. They are our babies and they remain that all their lives.

Journaling is good. It gives those thoughts, the happy ones and the sad ones, a shape ,and a place to be wher we can set them aside when we need to and come back to them later.

That " it just happened today feeling" comes and goes. Just the other day I really looked at a picture of Mack I'd had stuffed in a book. His beauty was so vivid, his absence so profound...I could smell the candles that were burning that evening when he died in my arms. That was my last moment with my boy...until we meet again.

You continue in my thoughts and prayers,
Dayna

Dayna,
Your response, again, gives me the strength to go an another day with my normal routine. You are so comforting.
I have Zoe in my heart now and that's where she'll be forever. I will work on trying to smile for her, to show the world Zoe's spirit through me. She was also so loving and extremely playful.
She will never be forgotten.
Again, thanka Dayna ~ you have a good day.
Deanna

What a sweet picture. She is such a cutie pie and looks very smart too.

In all my sadness, I'm grateful that you guys do share your stories and pictures of your babies. It does make me smile and remember great memories from my Candy and not feel as sad.

Thank you so much and I'm hope you are hanging in there.


Candy's Dad

Okay..that picture napping on the picture got to me....can anyone look more precious than that?
I don't think so.

I think your idea of a journal is great! What a wonderful outlet..at a time it is so needed.

You really do have some great pictures of Zoe and even though all of us who have also lost our sweethearts can truly understand the pain, the grieving, the missing, all of it....when you post a picture of Zoe and we can look into those beautiful eyes that are definitely focused on the picture taker .....we can actually see what you are remembering about her....and just how very very special she is and always will be.

Hugs to you and Zoe. She may be an angel now but even angels need hugs, don't they?

You guys are great. Thanks for your reply. Zoe was my cutie pie, and you're right, she was smart.
Doin' ok right now, hope you're hanging in there as well.
Keeping you and Hal in my prayers as we all heal.
Again, thanks
Deanna

LoveThem,
I though the journal would help too, and it has.

Thanks so much for the nice compliments on pictures I took of Zoe, my husband teased me when he got me a digital camera for Christmas ~ in between every picture I took of my family ~ was a picture of Zoe. I'm really glad I took them now. I reflect back on them quite a bit. I have several videos that I recorded on the camera, as well. However, I get upset when I watch them now ....although, I know there will be a day I will be able to watch and ENJOY them. She was definately very very special to me.

I can't thank you enough, you are a TREMENDOUS help. Would love to hear stories from you during your time of healing. Look forward to them.
Much Love,
Deanna

{{{{{{{Deanna}}}}}}} Such a Beautiful, Loving photo of you and your fur child Zoe. I just had to frame it really fancy and thought you might like to save it to your files.



Well, Zoe saw you and had to say something. I caught Zoe's words and this is what se's telling you as she sends lots of Hugs and Kisses!



Then Zoe got really excited! She had to say it again and jumped right out of the picture frame!



Awww Deanna, I can sure see why you miss her so and I hope and pray that you know in your heart that she is right there with you and will never leave, Dear One. So much Love!

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

PS. Be sure to click on the "black size caption lines" above the photos. HUGS!!!

Your pictures of Zoe are absolutely angelic. I especially love the one where she is napping on the couch. These are the sweet memories they leave us when they pass on.

Journaling is such great therapy too. When Goliath & Gidget were just puppies I started a scrapbook entitled "For the Love of Goliath & Gidget." The reason I started it was because I knew one day they would leave me to go to Heaven. In each picture I added what it was that was going on during that special time. When Goliath passed away this last November, I was soooooooo glad that I had d o c u m e n t e d his life along with pictures in a love that could never end. I still keep a journal because it helps me to really get all of my feelings out.

Zoe's love and fond memories will forever be in your heart. These are her gifts to you Deanna.

Much love with many warm hugs,
Beth

Woooow ~ these are wonderful .... thanks for the "framed" photo, they brought some joyful tears to my eyes, (reading the captions) ~ love it! I have them saved in my files now.
I know Zoe is with me all the time, it makes me feel better knowing this.
I've said it before, you are a true Angel.
Much love and hugs back to you !
Deanna

Dear Goliath,
Thank you (again), this time for the compliments on my pictures of Zoe and your continuing support. I do adore the pictures I have of Zoe, I am so glad I was picture crazy for her. I am now reflecting on the memories I have of Zoe with me and my family. Each of my family members will comment of, "I miss Zoe" or "Zoe really did bring alot of love to this family" or "It sure is awful quiet around here, she was a great addition to the family, etc.

Yes, the journal has been great for me to express feelings. That was a great idea...starting a scrapbook when your babies are puppies. I remember this, in the future, if and when my heart allows me to love another fur kid. I can't imagine getting a new baby any time soon.


Zoe left me something some gifts I never realized that's what they were, until she was gone. She taught me sooo many positive and happy things. I was guilty of taking her for granted, but she's taught me, life is short and that we need to make the most of every day. Cherish every moment.

Goliath, you have been the root of my healing and I have began to grow (just alil') to try and make some sense out of this terrible tradegy in my life and learn to cope and heal from it.
I can't thank you enough. I now feel, somewhat, selfish on these forums, (mostly) commenting and replying on my forum, however, it was all that was on my mind, really couldn't focus of much of anything else.
Yourself, Myhrtisbrkn, LoveThem, AngelOneCare, Candy'sDad, Buster and Jorge, (I know there's more) have helped me so much, my heart goes out to all of you with your losses. I know I haven't replied to all of you in your topics when I needed to, but through out this terrible heartache ...you have all been in my prayers.

Hugs to all of your and our fur kids ~ they will always remain in our hearts!
Deanna
**Zoe ~ Forever In My Heart**

If and when you decide to bring a new addition into your family you will know. Somehow I can't imagine your heart not ever loving another furbaby again. People like us are destined to love these special loving creatures who teach us so much.
Your heart Deanna is more than full because Zoe is there. When two loving hearts become one they can never separate, not even in death. Sharing that love assures Zoe's memories will always bring sunshine into your life. Without Zoe's death you would never have had the pleasure of knowing her nor would you have learned the lessons of love and learning she brought you as your gift.

A dear friend of mine recently gave me the book, ANGEL DOGS by Allen & Linda Anderson. Each night I read a chapter or two while Browser lays on my chest just before going to sleep. The stories are so comforting and filled with heart healing messages. Each story is only 2 or 3 pages long but they are packed with emotional healing verses of gratitude and experiences of those who truly love their dogs. Basically the book focuses on the important lessons we can learn from our doggieloves and how they lead us spiritually. This book will take you on an amazing journey Deanna and I hope you will read it.

May God bless you always and shower you with Zoe's love.


Many warm hugs filled with love,
Beth

Deanna

Never worry about replying too much in your own topic...that is what it is for...for your thoughts and feelings, for replying to friends who have stopped by, for writing a note to Zoe, in other
words, to do all the things that make you feel better. Don't worry about posting to others, we all know we are in pain and there is nothing "expected" to do here, except be yourself and do what you need to do to help heal yourself.

When we have something good to post..whether in our topic or another's...it makes those who read it feel better themselves inside. We need to hear good news whenever it is possible...and it is good news when someone says they feel better for finding this forum or something someone said helped them. We all like to read these positive things. It helps us all heal.

Take care and keeping posting in that journal and also posting here.

Hugs

Hey Punkin' Pie (Zoe),
Here it is, 3:30 in the morning, I have no idea why I am up, however, the second my eyes opened, you were on my mind. I know in my heart, that if you were here with me, you would have just ...nudged me with your lil wet cold nose ... tried to get alil' closer ... flipped over on your back, (let out a sigh), then at that point, I would have then rubbed your belly, until I fell back to sleep. I really miss cuddling with you. Daddy said he misses your feet being pushed against his back. haha He's having a hard time with you being gone too, we all are. We talk about you daily, we talk alot about the gift you left us. The amount of love and joy that you brought in our lives. I never knew this type until I met you. The unconditional love you had for all of us, was out of this world.

Daddy and I had a few friends over for a cookout tonight and for good part of the evening ...the topic was all about you. Several different stories and memories were told of the many silly things you had done, as well as, the love they remember you giving them. Travis took a nap (as always) and he mentioned, although he is allergic to dogs, he would still not be able to turn you away when you wanted to nap with him. He said you were so sweet and lovable. Many of the stories made us all laugh, and of course, made me cry in between. However, my friends are telling me, this is what I need to do, to ease the pain. I guess I could say, it did make me feel better by the end of the night, however, I guess with all the talk and conversations about you, you're on my mind pretty heavy.

I will always love and miss you until the day after forever.
You will remain forever in my heart.
Hugs n' Kisses
Mama

You have been blessed in having wonderful friends who you can share your grief and joys with. I too am blessed in having those kind of special loving people in my life. Good friends do help ease our pain and promote healing when we all talk about how we feel and share the sweet and happy memories together. It sounds like your friends loved Zoe very much.

I loved hearing about Travis and how he couldn't resist Zoe, even though he is allergic to dogs. My sister is very allergic to many animals, including dogs, and can never resist holding and talking to my little furbabies. Though I only get to see my sister once or twice a year, not a one of my babies ever forget her. She is always greeted with lots of lovin'.

You said, "I will always love and miss you until the day after forever." That sentence touches me so deeply and brings tears to my eyes this morning. From the day I met Goliath until this very day............I have said a thousand times over "I will love you til the day after forever." He remains in my heart, my forever best friend. These very words, which I keep so close to my heart, are also contained in my Heartfelt Letter To Goliath posted in this section of the forum. When I read my letter written in a poem, it reminds me that one day he and I will be together again some day.

You and Zoe will also be together again some day in a place where love lives never ends.

Have a wonderful day Deanna. I wish you sunshine and laughter in whatever you and your family do together.

Much love with lots of hugs,
Beth

Morning Beth,
It was so good to hear from you this morning. Yes, you're right, in addition to my family trying to help me heal, a couple of my friends do come over during the week and especially on the weekend to check on me to see how I'm doing. They are wonderful. They were all crazy for Zoe, she greeted them (sounds like) how Goliath greeted your sister. I need them, as well as, you.

I know, I felt like I had to tell the Travis story, even though he was allergic (used his inhaler and all) but this shows how sweet and lovable Zoe was. No one, absolutely, no one could resist her. She had her head scratched and belly rubbed constantly by someone, whether it was me, my daughter, neighbor and friends, even strangers when I took her walking stopped me. She would walk up to any and everyone, it was love at first the sniff.

Yes, I love that phrase "I'll love you until the day after forever" I am assuming had read the phrase in one of you forums. Didn't mean to copy, but, you're right ...forever isn't long enough. I am holding on tight the thought of being with her again some day.

Beth, you have a good day as well.
I am going to go out and do some yard work. Maybe Zoe will send me sign, whether it just be the sunshine in my face, or a butterfuly fluttering by or just a new flower that just bloomed.
Again, thanks
Big Hug back to ya ~
Deanna

Hi Deanna,

No matter where you read the phrase, I am touched it stayed with you. That's the reason I share it with all. Hopefully some of my words expressed here reaches others. It is obvious "I'll love you til the day after forever" reached you too. That means so much to me.

We all need each other too Deanna. Even though we meet because we have suffered a loss of our beloved furbaby, I am so glad that I have made some wonderful and lasting friendships as a result. Many new and exciting gifts of wonder in life are in store yet for all of us. Each new day brings the opportunity to touch another in special way when we use the lessons these little loves taught us.

Much love and hugs Deanna,
Beth

**** Just wanted to let you know, I went online to amazon.com and ordered the book Angel Dogs. I am anxiously waiting to get it in the mail. It got great reviews. Thanks for the suggestion.
Have a peaceful night with Browser ... talk to you later Beth
Deanna

I love and miss you soooo much Zoe.
Mama

I have finished "Angel Dogs" now. My words cannot begin to express just how much my spirit has grown because I took the time to read it. I wish the same for you!

I am now reading "GOD'S MESSENGERS" What Animals Teach Us about the Divine. The more I read and allow myself to feel, I am filled with peace. This too I wish for you Deanna.

Much love and many hugs from my heart to yours,
Beth

Deanna,

I've been thinking about you and Zoe. I have a sick kitty so I'm having trouble finding much time to post.


Love to you and your sweet family,
Dayna

Thank you Dayna,
That means the world to me.
I know I'm not alone with my sadness of losing Zoe.
I pray your kitty gets to feeling better.
Much love back to you and yours,
Deanna

It was another long sad weekend without you Zoe.
I miss you terribly.
I am holding your spirit in my heart to go on.
Love you more than anything.
Mama

Hey Deanna,

Mark (Fleetwood's daddy), Chuck and I were just thinking about you and some of the folks here who's baby's died the same weekend as Candy. Like your friends, all of mine were in love with her, just as I'm sure many of your friends fell in love with Zoe. I just adore that picture of Zoe. So adorable.

My heart goes out to you.

Take care and hold on to that love.

God bless.

Hey Candy'sDad,
Thanks so much for your reply. You guys help me so much, there are many of you, and you know who you are. I know there are several of us who are going dealing with our grief of losing our babies on or about the same week. I realize my baby is gone, I want so bad to think about the great times we had together and smile about the two wonderful years we had together, but I am having a REALLY HARD TIME. I miss her so much. I may have mentioned this is another forum, but I am "normally" a very high spirited, smile, laugh all day kind of person. However, with losing Zoe ...I have never had anything like this grab a hold of me and bring me down like this. I am doing good to get up and go to work, come home and make sure my kids are taken care of, try to find something to occupy my mind during the evening, (take a sleep aid) and go to bed. (This may sound horrible to some, but I lost my father two years ago, and I didn't grieve like this, nothing near .... like I currently am for Zoe. That little girl meant so much to me. I have such an empty hole in my heart.

How are you doing? How'd your 4th of July weekend go? Still thinking about adopting another precious baby? I throw the idea back n' forth ...I don't know if it's the right thing to do right now?

I can't thank you enough ~ I really can't.
Take care and keep in touch.
Deanna