Brandy Jane

Tonight may be my Brandy's last day on earth. I've had her 13 years and been blessed every second. But age has caught up with her and she is failing badly today. I may have to make that awful decision tomorrow, Pray God to take her quietly tonight. I don't know how I'll get thru this Maddy

Horrid Dreams Of Loss

I only had Jack for a short 7 years. He survived Chemo 2 years ago and did well until early summer. His heart just went into failure and he slowed down over a period of weeks and last sunday he just stopped in my arms. I stayed home during my vacation in August just to be with him. He is the youngest of my 3 dogs. The remaining two are large and elderly. I needed him to be around when they got old and went. He was the love of my life, my baby boy and all I do now is wake up soaking wet with dreams of total loss of everything. Little sympathy with friends or family. They all have partners or spouses or something. I had Jack and am lucky to still have my Golden and my Mutt mix. But the hurt is... Well, you all know. That's why we are here. Thanks for having a place to express. Couldn't even type last week.

Jack

Yesterday at 1 pm my heart died with Jack's. He was a little mutt that was supposed to live with me for years. He had cancer when he was five, had chemo, did well, but it put him in heart failure several months ago. The last week I was his nurse 24/7. He got to lick my face yesterday morning and then he just stopped. He was my significant other. The only soul on earth that not only liked and loved me. He was the only one that really needed me. I feel so damned lost now.