Update On New Addition

Hello to all.
It has been a while since I have last posted on this site. Just wanted to update on my adoption of Cocoa. She has been with us for 2 months & 1 day and what began as a nightmare has turned into a blessing. When I lost my baby Duchess I was so distraut that I could not eat, sleep, talk, I just existed in a state of shock . She died from a sudden illness that took her within a week's time frame. It just knocked the wind out of me because I was not prepared for her death -- she died 3 weeks before her 5th birthday. Since I had been laid off from my job on 11/30/04 I had spent alot of time with Duchess so it was even harder on me because I lost my buddy. My husband gets up early in the morning and off to work while I stayed behind with Duchess. Not being able to find employment after being in this particular office for 17 yrs has really shaken my world since I am a creature of habit. So as the weeks turned into months I had alot of time to spend with my Duchess not knowing that my world was about to be rocked once more. Then it happened -- she was gone:(
My husband could not deal with my emotional state. It affected our relationship because I could not bring myself to talk about her for long before I would start to cry & it made me very very angry. I guess I took it out on him & some days would go by without much being said. It was about 3 weeks later that we adopted Cocoa after searching the web's various pet finder site's. At first I did not even want to deal with her & it stired up all my emotions. My husband felt that I ignored her ( and I must admit I did at first). In my mind I could not bring myself to even think about loving her because I felt that it would be a slap in the face to my precious Duchess. It took about 4 weeks before I started to interact with her. My God, she is such a good, smart, loving, adorable furbaby but I could not see through my grief. This 9 month old puppy has really helped me to get through the rough road I had been on. She has brought me so much joy that I thought I could never feel again. She is part Choc lab/ part Pit & I always felt afraid of Pit's but I was so wrong. She has the same sweet loving disposition that my precious Duchess (Black / lab shepard mix) did. So happy this puppy gave me time to get to love her as she would always come and lay next to me when I did not return her love. She has found her way into my heart which has begun to beat again because of her sweetness. I'll never forget my Duchess but am so happy to have the opportunity to share my love with my baby Cocoa.
Duchess & Cocoa's mommy

New Furbabies

Dear LS Family,
We have all taken a big step by bringing new furbabies into our lives once more. It feels good to hear the pitter patter of paws once again. I'm am sure we are all going through different emotional stages as this process has so many. It is amazing that so many of us have taken this step at around the same time. So keep posting your stories because it helps us all to see that we are not alone in this. I've enjoyed seeing pictures of all the new furbabies -- and as soon as I understand how to attach an image -- I will include my new furbaby Cocoa's picture.
We all have so much love to give and are lucky to have found these precious pets to share our lives with
Congratulations to all of you and your new furbabies & may we enjoy many years of happiness together
Bernadette
Hugs

Duchess

Hello
Can anyone tell me how to get this little box to open in order to see my baby's picture in all future post's ?
I am at a total loss Don't know what to do
Sorry -- but my knowledge is limited when it comes to computers

Bernadette

It's Been 25 Days

Its been 25 days since losing my precious Duchess & 10 days since adopting Cocoa
Although I do not yet feel any love for my new furbaby -- she has brought me out of my intense depression. She is a very pretty 8 month old puppy so full of energy who makes me laugh because she is so cute & affectionate. She wakes me & my husband up in the morning with tails wags & wet kisses There are times when she is sleeping that I look at her & see a little bit of Duchess & it keeps me going. In time she will find her way into my heart & maybe this decision was a good one because I have no time to sit & cry anymore.
If someone told me that my heart would just shut down like this I would never have believed it. My love & affection for Duchess is so very intense -- so much -- that it has left me numb

I keep looking at Cocoa when she is at play or sleeping & sometimes -- I go over to her and kiss her. I keep asking myself if I can ever allow myself to feel again. My husband tells me that in time I will
What an empty feeling it is when your intense ability to love is no longer present. I feel like a part of me has died along with Duchess:(
I will always love my Duchess & she will always be in our hearts

My heart is frozen right now but I hope that at some point I will be able to feel again. In the meanwhile I will continue to do the best I can to treat this new baby with affection. I want her to have good puppy memories & hopefully this thought will keep my mind focused on her development.
Bernadette Duchess & Cocoa's Mommy

New Furbaby Puppy

I lost my sweet fur baby Duchess on Feb 4 2005 who would have been 5 yrs old on the 23rd of Feb
What started as a routine vet visit for what I thought was a virus turned out to be a deadly disease. She never had a sick day in her short life -- so my husband & I were in shock when she died 5 days later. We did not find the cause until 4 days after she was gone when the hospital called us. Any way my heart has not been the same ever since.
Since finding this wonderful web-site, my heart has started the healing process.
THANK YOU - THANK YOU - THANK YOU LS
We are now looking to adopt from this shelter I had contacted several days ago & will meet this new furbaby tomorrow. My feelings are mixed because I feel some guilt over getting a new pet so soon after her death. I know in my heart that I need very much to hold a puppy. My love for Duchess is very strong & she will always be in my heart & NEVER BE FORGOTTON.
My love for this puppy will grow over time -- I feel the need to have another to give my love to now that -- I feel so alone
Duchess's Mommy