When Will It Get Better?

Hi Im new here, have been looking round the site and it seems a wonderful place for us who need to talk about our beloved pets to other people who genuinely understand what we feel for them.

I lost Butch 8 years ago this December and I still miss my big bear sooooooooooo much, I still cry regularly and my heart still aches for him. Butch was 18 when we had to let him go and the guilt eats me up still..I know it was what we had to do, but it still haunts me, I love him SO much, my heart broke that day and has never fully mended. He was the most special angel to me, such a character and ever so handsome

I hope he is happy now and back to full health, I hope he forgives me for letting him go, I hope I let him go at the right time, I hope he knows I ADORE AND LOVE HIM, I hope he enjoyed his life with us, I hope he didn't suffer and that he knows we did all we could to keep him comfortable for as long as we could, and I hope he is waiting for me when I pass xx