A Poem For Megan

Someone posted this once and I fell in love with it.

A Parable of Immortality
by Henry Van Dyke

I am standing upon the seashore. A ship at my side spreads her white sails
to the morning breeze and starts for the blue ocean. She is an object of beauty and strength and I stand and watch until at last she hangs like a speck of white cloud just where the sea and sky come down to mingle with each other. Then someone at my side says, "there she goes".

Gone where? Gone from my sight ...that is all. She is just as large in mast and hull and spar as she was when she left my side and just as able to bear her load of living freight to the place of destination. Her diminished size is in me, not in her. And just at the moment when someone at my side says, "there she goes", there are other eyes watching her coming and other voices ready to take up the glad shout, "here she comes"

It's been a long year without you Megan, I miss you more than words can say. The girls miss you, you were theirs. I am so happy that you chose me to share your life with, because Meg, you did choose me. You snuggled up under my chin and fell asleep in my arms and that was it...you were mine and I was yours.

I miss you baby...love you
tracey

One Year Ago

Hi Everyone,

It's a year ago tomorrow that I made that horrible trip to the vet. I can't believe that a year has gone by already. It seems just like yesterday that I found this site and typed as my heart was breaking.

The pain is less and the tears come less frequently now but I miss my Megan so much. We still have not got another dog. Molly, our other golden, is so lonely and I hate to admit it, she is driving me crazy. She is always in my face wanting to play. I would love to get her a puppy but that just is not possible at the moment. With two kids, working fulltime, and it's freezing out (I live in Canada)....I just can't handle another dog. Maybe one day

I also have this fear that I will be disappointed in a new dog. Megan was very unique and I think that is a big part of what I'm missing. Molly is a great dog, and I do love her, but she is just a great dog. I guess you would have to have known Meg to understand what I'm trying to say. I don't want just another great dog but I want another unique- goofy- you're gonna love me dammit- kind of dog. I want another Megan and I know there will never be another Megan, maybe that is what is so hard. I don't know....

Anyways, thanks lightning-strike for being here when I really needed someone.

Tracey

What Is Megan Doing In Heaven?

Hi,
I thought I would share this with you guys. The other day we were driving and talking about our day. Jordyn starts to talk about Megan. She asks me what Megan does all day in Heaven. I reply that she runs and plays. I tell her that Megan is now the special friend of some little girl that has died and is now in Heaven. And when Megan is tired she probably goes and lies in the sun for a sleep like she used to do on our deck. Jordyn is happy that Megan can be friends with a little girl who is away from her mommy and daddy. But then she informs me that Heaven has no sun, because it is past space you know mom!

My lack of story telling abilities does not do the moment justice. But I thought that I would share it with you anyways. It made me smile and I hoped it would make some of you smile too.

Tracey

Still No New Furbaby

Hi,

Well I'm losing the battle with Jeff over getting a new dog. I cannot convince him, nothing I do or say will change his mind. Molly is still so sad. I hate coming home to her sad face, she just sits by the door to her dog run looking like the saddest thing you ever saw. I think a puppy would be great for her as well as me.

The other night, my three y/o was crying in her sleep for Megan, she just kept sobbing "I miss Maggie" It broke my heart.

Molly is a great dog but she is "my dog" and although she is good with my people girls, she just is not into them like Megan was. And I know they miss play time with Megan.

What do I do???

Tracey

Thank You

Hi Everyone,

I just wanted to thank everyone for all of the support you've given me since losing Megan. I'm truly grateful to MD for creating this site.

As you all know my husband does not want to get another dog. I've recently also found out that he does not empathize with me over losing Megan. We've been going to a marriage councelor and this all came out. I cannot beleive that someone who is suppose to love me and know me best cannot or will not support me through this. He said that he does not have the same feelings about Megan therefore cannot understand me. I know that if I saw him hurting this bad it would break my heart.

I've also mentioned that I don't have many friends that are animal people so really you guys have been all the support that I've had and I cannot express how grateful I am to all of you. You are a strangers yet I feel your hugs and support to me as well as all of the other people here. I'm so happy that we've all found each other even though it was through horrible cir%%stances that we did.

Thanks you for being here for me when the people who "love" me can't.

Tracey