My First Time Here Options

[23kitty23]

Hello everyone,
Yesterday, I lost my 4yr. old little boy cat, Stripey. I took him to the vet for a sonogram (long story), he made it through that fine but died suddenly when his heart stopped-- he had a blood clot, which I think lead to the end. This all doesn't even matter to me. I am still in shock and feel so sick. The vet had to call me with the news. I have had and lost other very special cats and this hurts just as much.

I can't stop the crying, keep wondering what I could have done differently, and did I do the right things?
I also feel so hurt for the vet. She is a wonderful doctor and lady. I wrote her a note this morning thanking her for all
she did for me and him. It must have been awful for her too.

I have his little sister with me and we will go on, hard as it seems now.

What I really want to say, is that through my tears, I found this site. There are the most beautiful people here.
I have been reading and reading (and crying and crying) and of course realize I am not alone.

I don't feel like I'm much help here, but hope to be -someday-

Thank God for the people here and for his love and comfort.